Pain that never ends

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Ray: Hey Tasz!!!

Tasz; Hnn

Ray: What wrong?

Tasz: Ahhh nothing really, I'll just tell ya the story

Chapter Three Dead or alive

Kai closed his eyes and pulled Ray closer to him and held him as tightly as he could.

'Don't worry Kai, I'm your friend and I can and wanna help but only if you let me'. 'Hnnn yeah know it'. 'Really Kai don't shut me out, friends help each other and you don't have to be ashamed to ask it you know'. 'Yeah I know, thanx Ray'.

Ray looked down and he liked Kai holding him like that, he felt sad, though because of the song. Kai took out the little piece of paper and quiet shove it back in Ray's pocket, Ray was busy thinking that he didn't notice.

/ I can't belief that I'm doing this, I can't let anyone in and why am I holding another...BOY!!! It feels so good but still this is wrong, very wrong!!! I must make sure that Ray doesn't; tell the other about this. Damn I made myself fragile and .........grrrrrrr Dammit!!! (A/N is it dammit or damnit??? Anyways on with the story) / Kai pushed Ray off of him as he got back from where he first sat down.

Ray looked at Kai surprised and then looked down, hurt.

/ Why did he do that, I felt so safe with him and now....... He let me listen to his music and he protected me so why?!? Ohh wait a sec he is ashamed, he is maybe thinking that I'm gonna tell the rest or something. I would never do that, but I have been shity to him lately. / Ray sighed and looked at Kai again.

'I would tell the rest you know'. Ray said with a sad tone in his voice. 'Hnn you better not, or else...... That wasn't me okay, it's just that I can't stand weaklings like you and the sounds that they make. Ohh and the music was to calm you down it had nothing to do with me, got it! You little furball!' 'Well you don't have to be so mean, but I know you want to lose your position or weaken your position. In your words everything is better then having friends isn't it?!' Ray said with a daring voice.

'What, how dare you! I'm your captain and you have no right to talk to me like that!' Kai sneered at Ray.

/ Okay Ray now is a good time to shut your big mouth!!! C'mon you can do it, shut up!!! /

'Pffff whatever!' Ray spat. / Damn!!! Why didn't I just shut up!!! Can't believe that I did it again, I know it's gonna make Kai angry and I still do it! What's wrong with me!?/ Ray was angry but not at Kai, he was angry with himself.

Kai was boiling with anger and his eyes where on fire. 'What ...did...you...just..say'. 'That you can stick it up your ass!' Ray screamed but then slapped his hands in front of his mouth as he knew what he said and by seeing Kai's face. Ray pushed himself too the wall and began to sweat. Kai looked at Ray with an angry look and knew that he had the time cuz Ray couldn't go anywhere because then he had to go through the thunder and stuff.

'How dare you, Ray, let me tell you that you're playing with fire and if you don't apologize then you'll be sooooo sorry!' Kai said with an angry but very sexy and low voice. Ray got a shiver up his spine and he was about to apologize but he didn't.

/ Good Ray: C'mon what are you waiting for, Ray?! Apologize! Bad Ray: Wahahhaha don't do it Ray, why should you, he was wrong and you were right! Don't do it!!! /

'Well...Ray, do I have to hurt you...... apologize or I'll hurt and I can assure you that isn't fun or is it?!' Kai said daring and he could burst any moment.

/ Good Ray: He is gonna hurt you, while it was your fault and Ray don't forget he is your leader! Bad Ray: Don't listen to that freak okay, how do you now that you don't like what he is gonna do and I think that he is bluffing anyways. Good Ray: Kai isn't the person that would bluff, you ..... meany! Good Ray sticks out tongue at Bad Ray BadRay: O yeah!? Bad Ray kicks Good Ray away Bad Ray: Anyways Ray it was not your fault!!! Good Ray: You don't like pain, Ray, apologize! / Ray shocks his head in confusion.

'Well maybe it is, maybe I do!' Ray said aloud and he slowly looked up as he heard someone making the famous 'grrrr' sound. 'Kai...I.' But it was to late as Kai slapped Ray in his face and threw him aside, Kai sat on top of Ray and raised his hand.

'Asshole! Get off of me, I'm warning you and I'm serious, what I said wasn't meant for you!' 'Oh yeah then for who was it? Huh Ray, well who?' 'Uh well......'. 'How dare you making a fool out of me, you don't take me serious and you're warning me?! Huh how dare you!'

Kai slapped Ray again and Ray's cheek was burning like hell, Kai raised his hand again and Ray placed his hand gently on the cheek that Kai hit twice. Ray's eyes had fire in them now two and tried to punch Kai but he missed. Kai grabbed both of Ray's hands and pinned them to the floor above Ray's head.

'Think you can insult me, huh, Ray? No matter what you do, I'll always be stronger'. 'Grrrrr yeah right, you coward! You don't dare shit!'. / Damn why did I have to say that, owww I'm a dead person now! /

Kai looked in Ray's scared but angry eyes, four blood lines ran out of Ray's mouth and Kai could smell the coppery of the blood. He came closer, his nose picked up the smell of his AXE, fair and blood. Kai licked his lips and then pressed his lips against Ray's chin, his tongue came out and he licked away the blood. Because Kai was so close to Ray, he got nervous somehow, he sensed Ray's fair and his body aroused. He felt Ray's body heat and he noticed that Ray was slightly trembling and sweating. He laughed darkly and got up.

He got off Ray because the storm had calmed down and he walked / crawled out of the cave. Ray lay on the floor shocked, he slowly got up as he noticed that Kai was gone and he didn't know the way.

'Kai wait!' Ray yelled but Kai was nowhere to been seen, Ray looked around and got a little scared. 'Pleaz Kai, don't leave me here, I don't know the way and...and... .'. Ray yelled but no answer from Kai, it was still snowing and raining. The thunder was still there but he stayed hiding for a little while together with the lighting.

Ray just ran, he needed and wanted to find Kai. Kai saw Ray running and he felt kinda sorry for him, so he turned and ran behind Ray. Lighting strung and Ray started to cry as he heard thunder and still no Kai. The storm was getting worse again, Ray was scared and fell down on his knees, sobbing and he curled up in the icy snow.

'Let's go, it's cold and wet here so no place for a cat!' Kai said as he got down on his knees next to the curled up Ray. Ray unfolded himself and got up, he looked in Kai's strong and protective eyes. Ray nodded and they both ran as hard as they could.

The city was insight and they both let out a sigh of relieve. Two young, with snow covered boys ran into the hotel and stood there moaning and out of breath.

'Are you two alright?' A man said in Russian, Ray looked at the man funny but Kai said something back in Russian and the man walked away. 'Cool'. Ray said as he walked towards the elevator, he pushed the button and the doors opened. Kai and Ray both stepped in and went up.

Tyson got out of the shower and got dressed, he saw Kenny and Max on the couch and decided to join them. They were not holding each other anymore. 'Really I wonder were Ray and Kai are'. Kenny said and Tyson answered agreed in his own dumb way. 'Yeah me too, they are gonna miss dinner'.

There was a knock on the door and Max answered, Max got smiled on his face and hugged Ray tightly. 'Hey you guys are back'. Max said with joy, Kenny and Tyson walked over to Kai and Ray as well. 'Are you two okay?' 'Yeah, we're fine, Kenny don't worry, Kai and I ran into each other so we.... Well we're here now so what are we eating?' 'Thought you would never ask, let's go!' Tyson said.

Everyone walked towards the elevator to get down and eat something but Kai went in and slammed the door behind him. Everyone nodded and went down, Kai lay on his bed when suddenly the phone rang. He picked up and a faired look got on his face.

'You know, Kai, I got orders from Voltaire to kill you. But I'll give you another choice, listen to me Kai. You come back to the abbey and life there forever or I'll torture you. Got that? Uhmm just like the old days, yeah you were a really nice torture toy to me and your grandfather. Whahahahhahahaha well..... Kai what do ya think?'

Kai was shocked and his mouth was hanging open, he got flashbacks of the horrible time in the abbey. The torture, the pain, the embarrassments and the sorrow. He had suffered so much, he would never go back there.

'Go fuck yourself, Katana!' Kai yelled as he threw the phone back in his place, tears rolled down his cheeks and he looked around the room.

/ Why should I live anyways, no one cares for me, not even my own family!?. I don't wanna be tortured, I don't want the pain anymore and I don't.......... / Kai broke down and fell to the floor, he was sobbing and crying there was no end to it. A magazine fell down as well, BBA gametime, he liked the magazine cuz they were always telling how good he was. He wanted to throw it away and he saw a red blood line on his hand. The magazine had cut him, Kai's eyes opened and he grabbed the magazine.

Ray suddenly didn't feel so good and he felt an urge to go upstairs. 'Hey you guys, I'm gonna go upstairs for a sec, don't feel so good but you guys continue'. Ray waved and walked out of the hotel dinner room and towards the elevator.

Kai made a little cut with the paper on his arm and then worked his way down to his wrist. He had bloodlines on his arm but to really get the blood flooding he needed to push harder. He brought his arm higher and bit on the wounds so the blood would come flooding out, he sucked up the blood and prepared himself. Tears ran down his face, blood ran down his arm.

Ray walked to the door and searched for his card to open the door. He suddenly heard Kai talk and pressed his ear to the door.

'Why do I have to life, why was I born'. Kai cried to himself as he pressed the paper to his wrist even more, blood was running down his hand and down the paper into the magazine. 'I failed, I lost, I'm a total loser and no one loves me. Then why should I life, I'm a leader so I can take my live with no problem!' He yelled the last part as he pushed in the paper and the blood was forcing itself out through a single cut. He squeezed his arm so the blood would have even more pressure.

Ray was shocked and grabbed his card but it fell to the floor and he was trembling so bad that it was not going so fast. He threw the door open and ran in, he looked around and then ran to the bedroom. He opened the door and his eyes grew wider..................................

Tasz: Uhmm well what do ya think?

Kai: Well at least I'm not a wuss

Tasz; would you stop the wuss thing! -.- I think it's a little overboard but the next chapter will be more nice.

Kai: Hnnn

Tasz: :P

Sorry ppl!!! It's Kai torture and I know some of you really don't like that, but I just felt like it, so again sorry! But I can make it up to ya with the next chapter, I can assure you that that's gonna be a little nicer. Some fluff between Kai and Ray!!! and some other shit XD Anyways I'm tired so I'll go...... still there .... Okay okay hope ya guyz liked it, and sorry again for letting ya wait and all 

LUV

TASZ