Sunday September 26th:

1 year and 1 week. I wish I could get that out of my head, but I can't. That's the trouble with the constant road trip – we are forever traveling and there's only so many CD's I can listen to or so many movies I can watch.

Leets is really missing Matt, she told me his operation went well though, so things are looking better on that front. They like spend hours on the phone to each other, it's really quite cute. I don't think I'd like to know how much they spend on those calls, the cost of love hey!

We sailed into Port Arthur... hmm that's good :-) ... quite a small crowd for tonight's event, but they were really into it. Same result as last night, same hideous attire for Nidia. I'm biting my lip on that one, somebody needs to tell her how awful it looks.

Monday September 27th:

Wow, a guy actually spoke to me tonight in Dallas! Okay, so it was Maven, but he is a really nice guy. He noticed me sat in the canteen on my own, looking a little glum and was good enough to come over and have a chat. From little acorns, my mum has always told me. Maven really amused me, apparently Nidia has been chasing him – he told me he cannot stand her! I told him about her attire and our laughing attracted a few funny looks!

HE wasn't there tonight, and nor was SHE. That made me feel happier instantly, the whole atmosphere when they are not around is much more comfortable. Lita noticed it, she commented on how perky I was.

No match tonight on Raw, they had me doing some stupid interview segment with the girl who won the diva search, I can't even remember her name. I should know, but anyway, she asked me some pretty lame questions and the whole segment really sucked. Way to kill my momentum. I had this nagging sensation to tear into Nidia throughout, I really don't know how stopped myself.

Tuesday September 28th:

Had a lovely surprise today, a note had been slipped under the door to my hotel room. Maven wanted to thank me for making him laugh at the show yesterday, kinda ironic I thought. I don't know how I feel about him, he is such a breath of fresh air though.

I spent most of the day in the gym, I have felt a little rusty recently in the ring and wanted to work on my stamina and cardio fitness. I caught up with Vicky and we had a long chat, it turns out she is still being stalked by her ex Stevie. I wouldn't say me and Vicky have ever been close, but we seemed to iron out some of the creases and hopefully can get along a little better now.

Back on the road tomorrow, I want to make sure I make the venue in good time this week!

Wednesday September 29th:

Long day travel wise, arrived late in the evening in Sioux City, Iowa. Nothing much of note happened today, apart from Lita not calling me two days running. She's took a week off to visit Matt back home in North Carolina, she would normally call me to tell me she arrived safely. I'm sure everything is fine though, she is probably making the most of the time she has with him!

Thursday September 30th:

Arriving early gave me the chance to have a look round Sioux City this afternoon. I felt a bit lonely, as the other superstars didn't arrive until later in the day, but hey I'm used to it by now. :-)

As if by chance, I bumped into Maven again today whilst I was at the arena. They've got an ice rink down there and I couldn't resist a little skate. I didn't spot Maven until I fell flat on my back and he came down to the barriers to check how I was. He told me he'd been sat there watching for 30 minutes!

We had lunch together and got to know each other a little better. It's been a long time since I've been around a guy like him, he's quite humble and appears to be the perfect gentleman. Whilst the attention is nice though, I don't think it is ever going to be more than friendship. Who knows?

Friday October 1st:

I had to call Lita this morning to set my mind at rest, she hadn't been in touch since Monday. Turns out she is fine, she has been so wrapped up in catching up with Matt and spending every second with him, she forgot all about me. I understand, those two were made for each other and I know it has been killing her being apart, since he went into hospital for his knee op.

She asked about my search for Mr. Right, and I told her about how friendly Maven has been. She sounded surprised, but said I should go with my heart. Trouble is, my heart is a little bit twisted, so I have no idea what to do. I worry that he is too nice, and I will only disappoint him. Leets says I need to start believing in myself again, I'm trying.

Had a nice match with Vicky this evening, it's so much easier when you don't have to carry your opponent. Uh, I sound like a veteran now.

Saturday October 2nd:

Everybody made the trip over the border into Nebraska, for tonight's show in Lincoln. The weather has been awful all day, which meant I was stuck indoors with the other girls. SHE was there, blatantly rubbing my nose in it. Bitch.

I decided to do my own thing, I wrote a letter to mom. I don't do that often enough. Basically I told her how busy I have been and how I've been getting on – I just couldn't bring myself to telling her how depressed I've been about my love life recently. I know she would only worry.

Vicky must have injured her back in bed last night, because she pulled out of our planned match for tonight's show. Instead, I was up against Gail, who has this nasty habit of going a bit OTT with her submission routine. She nearly ripped my arm out of its socket tonight, that pissed me off a bit.

Oh, I nearly forgot. Maven said hi, but that was it, we didn't chat or anything. Perhaps that's why I nearly forgot, I felt a little let down after the promising signs earlier this week. I should have expected nothing less.