Ch.2: Gratification Before Leaving Town
A/N: Tidus is drunk. Forgive him, for he's a bit vulgar and will swear. Like a drunk would tend to do, I think. Anyway...
There is a lemon scene in this chapter, but I took it out due to site rules. So, if you are interested, go to my bio page and then to my website. You'll find the unedited version of this chapter there.
Warnings/Disclaimer: Read them in ch.1
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Botta. Somehow, as I drank more sake as I waited for his return, his name popped into my head. This resulted in me spitting out his name as soon as I remembered it, which was just a moment ago. I smile and wipe the spittle off my chin. Now I know the name of the man that's going to fuck me senseless, which is what I want right now. RIGHT NOW.
I'm standing in a jungle clearing behind Baaj Temple and getting anxious for his arrival. I look around, it looks like this place is pretty broken in; this must be a popular spot for people to hook up privately. I can feel goose bumps forming all over my bare skin. I want that stud to come back with the goods and warm me up. I want sex. I want Botta. I want him to heal me like Wakka never could. Or Yuna for that matter. I want him to make me forget the both of them so badly…where in hell is he!?!
Blegh. Yuna? How could I have fallen in love with that woman? I cringe at remembering her clothes. Who woulda thought that Yuna of all people would turn into a skank!? I sure as hell didn't think she would! Tellin me she loved me when I disappeared, whata fake. That kiss in Macalania Woods must'a meant nothing to her.
But I can tell Wakka hasn't changed. Other than the fact that he is a father…and that he hooked up with Lulu god damn it. That calls for another drink!
Ahhh…that hit the spot. What was I sayin? No matter, there he is! Finally!
Eventually, my drunken impatience is rewarded. I see him, smiling that intoxicating smirk that I recognize that all the Besaid blitzers seem to have, as he makes his way to me.
"Thought I'd get a blanket, make ting's more comfortable." He grins and spreads it on the flat ground. Then he comes to me and grabs me by the waist, wrapping his strong, wanting arms around me and kissing me with much intensity.
He breaks the kiss. Botta is still grinning so cutely, like he has a secret or something. Then he reaches into his pocket and pulls a little plastic bag with a small circular white pill inside it and shakes it in front of my eye sight and starts to chuckle.
I blink a couple of times. I have no clue what he's showing me.
Botta then proceeds to put the small bag in his left hand and then smashes both butts of his palms together with a quick forceful smash. Afterward, he starts to grind them together. He shows me the bag and what was in it is now a fine grounded powder. Botta grabs the sake jug from me and then pours the contents of the little bag into it. Next, he covers the mouth of the jug with his palm and shakes it hard, mixing whatever that powder was into the sake.
"Wanna sip?"
"Uh…sure, why not?"
I take a gulp of the tainted sake and hand him back the jug. Whatever that shit he put in it was, I can feel it rush through my system within seconds. It's so fucking intense!
My mind is racing, along with my heart. God, what the fuck is happening to me? I collapse onto my knees and grab my head.
I can see this woman, and this little girl. I assume she's her child. I don't recognize where they're at, I just see that they are in a field. A blur of color, greens and blues splash and swirl in my mind. The little girl is giggling and laughing. She looks so happy, and all she's doing is picking wild flowers. The mom smiles warmly as she looks at her daughter. More colors take over my mind, and for some reason I can hear the sigh of a pyrefly as I regain control of my head.
Botta is kneeling at my side.
"Now that was a mind fucker." I'm covered in sweat, I realize. I feel like I've been stunned by a Thunder spell, my whole body feels electrified! And I also feel insanely happy, almost giggly. Like that little girl that I saw in my mind…
"Twas Pyre-crystal. Pyreflies sometimes leave it behind, but it's hard to come across. What you experienced was a memory and the emotions of that pyrefly. I had some stashed for a special occasion like this." Botta tells me.
"Whoa…intense." So me coming back is special to him? Nah, he must mean the celebration of Vegnagun's destruction.
"Crazy shit don'tcha think?" Botta then takes a swig of the spiked sake. His eyes close. A chemical induced grin spreads gradually across his face and I see his body shiver in delight.
A few seconds later, he opens his eyes and looks into mine as he puts down the sake jug.
"Lets fuck."
My ass hurts. My dick hurts. My head hurts. There's not a place on my body that doesn't feel sticky. I feel like there's a boulder attached to my head. But despite all that, I feel wonderful as I'm held in Botta's arms.
He's hugging me so tight, I can feel his breath ruffle my hair. He's still asleep, I'm sure. I can't help but smile. I'm grateful to him, he did make me feel better. A LOT better. I don't know if what I did last night was mature, but fuck that. His weight against me, his strong arms holding me, his body loving me, was what I wanted. Is that selfish of me?
I ease myself out of his embrace, trying not to disturb him from his slumber. He stirs a bit as I peel myself off him. I freeze and hold my breath. He turns over and mumbles something incoherent. Phew. He didn't wake up.
I grab my boxer briefs from the ground and put them on. Then my shorts, followed by the rest of my Abes uniform. I run my hand through my hair. Fuck, I feel like gravity is playing blitz ball with my brain. Damn gravitational pull on my sensitive head.
I know I'm going against my hang over here, but I must leave. Quickly. Without anyone knowing. It's better that way…
I peer down at Botta, whom is still naked but covered up partially by the blanket we slept in. I blow him a kiss. Thanks Botta. You comforted me last night when no one else wanted to. This is goodbye. I proceed to make my way around to the front of the temple as best as I can. My body isn't exactly cooperating with me right now.
Fuck, I'm walking a bit bow legged. Need to walk it off…OH SHIT! There's Wakka talking to Yuna! I duck behind a temple pillar, the fast movement hurting my damn head again. They're standing in front of the old Crusader's Lodge. Their voices drift to my ears but I don't risk taking a peek from my hiding place.
"So you're gonna take off n' search for more spheres? Without Tidus after all, eh?"
"We searched all over the main roads and the beaches but we couldn't find him. I'm sure he's okay. You know Tidus, he's probably playing blitz ball somewhere…"
"Yeah, blitz ball…right." Wakka sounded like he knew something that Yuna didn't.
"Well anyway, we have some sphere waves coming from Bikanel Desert, so I need to leave. The rest of the Gullwings are waiting for me. Bye Wakka, it was nice seeing you again."
"Laters Yuna. Didja say good bye to Lu?"
"Of course. Don't teach the baby how to blitz too soon!" Her voice is distant.
"How bout' before he can talk!?" Wakka chuckles.
It was quiet a few moments after that. I don't hear any rustling from the village, I think it's still early in the day. Wakka was always the first one in the group in Yuna's pilgrimage to wake up…
Then I hear someone kick the sand and let out a frustrated sigh. I peer around the pillar, to see Wakka walk off to his and Lulu's hut and then enter.
"Hmm…wonder what's troubling him?" It could be anything, Wakka could be really stubborn sometimes. I wonder if he was concerned about me…
I shake my head to take the thought out of my head and abruptly stop myself with my hands. I keep forgetting to not move my head so fast or suffer the consequences of my migraine.
I must stop wanting Wakka. And Yuna. Wakka is no longer available. I must accept that. And Yuna is a chocobo of a different color now. A bubblegum pink color. Blegh, no thanks, I much rather chew on something else. Gum! I wish they had gum in this Spira, it would take away this nasty taste in my mouth. I miss that about Zanarkand. I will not explain the scene between me and everyone else on Yuna's pilgrimage of me trying to explain what candy was.
Well, I better head off to the Item Shop. They should have the schedule for boats coming too and from Besaid in there. And so I could make some purchases, I still have gil leftover from Yuna's pilgrimage! What luck. Man, I remember fighting Sin, Seymour, my father, the Dark Aeons, and Yu Yevon as if it were yesterday…hey! It was yesterday! For only me though apparently.
I don't want to be seen by anyone, particularly Wakka, so I head around the back of all the tents and hide in the brush of the jungle until I reach the very last hut. I go inside.
My entry doesn't surprise the young woman kneeling at her "business counter."
"Well hello and good mornin to you! How may I help you?"
"Um, yeah, do you have the schedule for the fairy boats?"
"Yes sir, right here." She takes a look at a piece of paper that's on her counter. "The S.S. Liki departs for Kilika in 20 minutes in fact. It's an early bird boat, hardly anyone ever takes it. Good for privacy though."
"Thanks."
"No worries. Is that all? Would you like to buy some items for your trip maybe?"
"Yeah, sure, do you happen to have a sphere camera by any chance?"
"Yes we do! I got some from a trade merchant awhile back but haven't been able to sell many. They're a little expensive, but of great quality! Very clear video, I assure you."
"I'll take one then. And 10 Potions. Do you have any weapons?"
"The only weapon I have to offer is a normal blitz ball, a courtesy of the Aurochs. Sorry for the lack of selection."
"That's okay, I'll take it. I need some sort of weapon to defend myself."
"Yes sir." She's silent for a moment as she tallies up the amount for the goods in her head. "Your total comes out to 1250 gil."
I take out my wallet, count out the gil, and pay for my purchases.
"Thanks you, have a pleasant day."
I smile, nod at her, and then leave the grass hut. Good, no one is outside that recognizes me.
"Can you please do me this favor? I have a boat to catch! Here, you can have all this gil! Just please deliver that for me." I give a handful of money to this little native boy in hopes he'll do what I ask of him.
"Please. It's complicated, I can't do it myself. Thanks."
I run off, kicking up sand as I sprint to the boat.
The dark little boy takes a look at the small video sphere in one hand and then shifts his gaze to the gil in his other palm. He shrugs then jogs to the beaten path to his village.
"For me? Who's it from?"
"I dunno. But he was really tall n' had blonde hair n' had blue eyes…"
"Tidus! Tidus gave you this!?"
The boy shrugged. "I'm gonna go show mama that I'm rich!" He took off and left Wakka in a stupefied state.
"Why couldn't he jus'give me this n'person…" He turned on the small vid-sphere.
A picture of the lagoon leading to Besaid Village is shown, the part over the cliff.
"Hi Wakka. This is Tidus. Well, you probably figured that out by now. There's some things that I want you to know…but I'm too embarrassed to tell you in person."
The sphere camera is then set on the grass at an angle and Tidus appears on the screen. He walks a few paces in front of it, his back to the camera.
"I remember this place…you pushed me in here the first day I met you, you punk!" He chuckles.
"I miss those days…when we used to play around. When you used to grab me in a headlock and give me a noogie. Those were good times. Those were special times. I wish things could still be like that…"
A few moments pass in silence.
"I wish I was in control of my own destiny…but then again, if I was in control of it, I wouldn't have been taken from my Zanarkand. And I wouldn't have met you guys: Yuna, Rikku, Lulu, Kimahri, the Aurochs, everyone that I befriended here."
He turns around and looks directly at the camera, the white of his eyes tinted pink.
"And I ultimately wouldn't have fallen for you Wakka…"
Wakka's heart felt like it leapt out of his chest.
"I hope you aren't mad at me. I never got around to ask you if being gay was wrong in the teachings of Yevon, I was scared that you would reject me, and not be my friend anymore. Though, in the end, Yevon's teaching turned out to be…well, y'know. Lies."
The blonde blushed a bit.
"Anyway, I staid silent on the pilgrimage and didn't pursue more than a friendship with you. Which was hard, cause you have to admit, me and you were a little too "friendly" at times. There were so many occasions that I wanted to kiss you, or that I wanted to wrestle you just so you would end up giving me headlock and I could feel you against me…but that won't be happing between us anymore, huh? Things are different now."
Tidus wiped his eyes and shifted his gaze to a spot on the ground rather than the camera.
"I ultimately knew at the end that I couldn't be with you. I was essentially brought to this Spira to perform a task. Life is so cruel. It doesn't give you a map to follow. I'd like to think we choose our own paths…but what is mine?"
Tidus turns to face the lagoon again. "I wonder…what would have become of us, Wakka, if I hadn't faded away two years ago…"
An uneasy silence follows for a couple of seconds.
"Well anyway, I came back. Somehow. Fate seems to like to make my life a living hell. I have to live with the fact that I'm supposed to be dead, back when Zanarkand was destroyed many years to you all. I was supposed to accept my fate and be this hero and help save Spira, when I didn't want to do. I still can't believe Yuna decided, of her own free will, to be a summoner. She was willing to forfeit her life so everyone could have some peace, even if it wasn't guaranteed or for long. I'm not as strong as her. I know I wouldn't have been able to handle it all if you and everyone else weren't by my side. Life is so full of surprises, isn't it? I couldn't be more surprised when I came back now…"
Tidus breathes in deeply and continues to talk.
"I'm really happy that you settled down with Lulu, Wakka. Ignore my tears, y'know me, I'm such the cry baby. I know you will raise your son well. You had always struck me as the "father figure" type. Just don't let Lulu make him too quiet and scary when he grows up! I'm kidding. I just hope…you are happy with her Wakka."
He exhales a dragged out sigh.
"Forgive me for leaving in this manner. I just…can't seem to face you in person anymore. When I look at you…my heart aches. My eyes tear. My fists clench in anger. I don't like these feelings toward you. It's not like we were together, and that's assuming you share the same feelings about me. So I'm leaving Besaid, in search for my own happiness, for my own place to belong. On my own, without anyone's help. It's time for me to face reality head on, now that I've been given a chance to live my life to the fullest."
The blonde turns around and faces the camera.
"I hope, one day, I can see you again Wakka." Tidus' face is flushed and he is crying, but ironically, he appears happy.
"Have a good life." He goes up to the sphere camera and soon the video cuts off.
Wakka is crying and sniffling hard. He drops the small vid-sphere and covers his hands with his face.
Some people are already walking around the village, doing things of their own business. These people try to ignore Wakka and his obvious distraught, but can't help looking at him with concern. Only a few people have witnessed him cry once before, and that was when he had received the news that his brother, Chappu, had died in action as a Crusader.
Hidden crimson eyes look at the man sobbing behind the flap of his home. Lulu had witnessed the whole thing and overheard all that Tidus had to say. Her penetrating eyes turn into a glare.
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To be continued.
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