Chapter 7: The Urge

"So, kids, how was Six Flags?" Red asked cheerily as he poured some orange juice for Eric and Jackie, who both groggily sat down, wiping their eyes as they dug into their food hungrily.

"It was pretty cool." Jackie said, between gulps of juice and bites of bacon.

"It was ok." Eric said, in a contradicting tone that made Jackie's head throb with annoyance. "Especially the part where I got to make out with Donna."

Eric glanced sideways towards Jackie, anticipating her reaction.

But of course, she showed none, keeping herself very zen as Eric grumbled to himself.

"Eric, there are some things you just don't talk about during breakfast! No one wants to hear that!" Kitty laughed, shoving some eggs into her mouth as she folded her newspaper in half.
"Sorry." Eric grumbled, grabbing a piece of toast and buttering it slowly.

"Kitty!" Red sighed. "You're such a grouch in the morning."

"She's always a grouch." Eric muttered, smoothing his butter knife repeatedly over the toast.

Jackie shoved some more eggs in her mouth and watched Eric's hand, which was holding onto the knife tightly as flakes of burnt toast fell onto his plate.

"Eric, are you ok, son?" Red asked tenderly.

Eric lifted his head up in response, staring back at three concerned pairs of eyes and blinked slowly, letting the knife fall out of his grasp.

There was complete silence, except for the 'clink' of the knife hitting Eric's crumb infested plate.

"Good morning, everyone!"

Jackie gave one last look at Eric, wondering what was going on in that head of his as she turned back to the slider, where a vivacious redhead popped out, smiling from ear to ear.

Jackie rolled her eyes and went back to her food, trying to act 'zen' as Eric stood up, his chair practically falling to the ground as he ran over to Donna, kissing her on the cheek and marking his territory. It made Jackie's stomach tighten up. She didn't even hear what Eric and Donna were saying to Red and Kitty. Something about the weather? All she could focus on was Eric's hand, which was still pink from gripping onto that knife, stroking Donna's side, tenderly. It gave Jackie all sorts of urges and needs.

Jackie couldn't take it anymore, she needed to get away from Eric and his tempting hands.

Jackie stood up slowly, muttering some sort of excuse from the table and ran down to the basement, sighing in relief as she spotted Kelso.

"Hey you." Jackie said breathlessly, letting her body fall against Kelso's as she sat down on him and the couch. She leaned up on her elbows, trying to make herself comfortable as Kelso groaned. She finally stopped fidgeting as her bare legs lay across his knees, her head crookedly leaning against his shoulder.

She played with his fingers, walking them along her bare knee, laughing when he remembered how ticklish she was and began to move his fingers on his own.

He stopped when Jackie smacked him, coughing softly. She laughed some more and so did he and for a second, things were nice, reminiscent of the nights they stayed up together, waiting for shooting stars and swapping ghost stories.

Jackie stood up, pacing the room slightly, trying to form sentences in her head as Kelso stood up to shut the TV off, since it seemed like Jackie was ready to open up to him with whatever she was so upset with yesterday.

He sat back down on the couch, watching her pace from right to left, over and over again.

Sometimes, it was really hard to watch Jackie walk.

To Kelso, Jackie was like an ancient artifact in a museum.

She was beautiful and delicate and he could never touch her.

Even as she paced the room, her eyes glistening with thought, her brow furrowed in sweat, Jackie looked beautiful. Even though she was wearing Eric's old football jersey and a pair of gray shorts, her hair tied back loosely in a knot, her legs and arms covered in old scars from falling off bikes, climbing trees, and hopping over fences, she was beautiful.

But he could never touch her.

He didn't like her, not like that at least. No, he liked Laurie. But more and more, he'd notice how Jackie's eyes twinkle when she saw him, or how her smile would perk up when he'd tell a joke. He really wanted someone and he knew that she really wanted someone too... no, Jackie was like his sister. An extremely hot sister. Like Laurie and Eric. Except, he's pretty sure Eric never had sex dreams about Laurie, whereas Kelso...

Had a good imagination when it came to Jackie and whip cream.

It was normal, he figured. He was a boy, she was a girl, so of course his hormones would act up whenever she was around, in barely there shorts.

It was no surprise; in fact, Jackie caused his very first physical sign of arousal. She had been sitting on his lap, since there was no room in the Cruiser on that one trip back from school. They neared a red light, Eric said something funny and Jackie laughed and laughed, wiggling her butt slightly.

Kelso couldn't stop what he felt – sure, he felt guilty about it, but he was a boy and sometimes his boy parts didn't comply with his brain.

He told Jackie about it, though, in confidence. That's how close they were.

She knew that he'd wet the bed till he was 7, that he still hasn't kissed a girl, that he's liked Laurie since the first day her saw her, that for a while he questioned his sexuality.

And in turn, he knew that Jackie wasn't as tough as she let on, that she might have loved Eric, but she was too afraid to try, that she pleasures herself constantly since Eric is no longer an option, that she wears his jersey because she misses his body, even though she swears it's because she has no other comfy shirts to sleep in, and most importantly that she had sex with Steven Hyde.

And she liked it, a lot.

Kelso nearly giggled at the thought of his best friend sleeping with someone she used to refer to as the antichrist. But Kelso knew, first hand, that Steven was a pretty nice guy. Kind of strange at times, kind of snobby at times, but overall, he meant well. And he liked Jackie, for who she was. Not like Eric.

Eric Forman was Kelso's other best friend and he would die for him, but when it came to Jackie, he couldn't stand Eric's ignorant opinions.

"Jackie so wants me....Jackie's in love with me, she just doesn't know it...I caught Jackie with Steven, what a dirty slut!"

He didn't deserve to be with Jackie. He didn't know Jackie like Kelso did.

Then again, not many people did.

"Ok!" Jackie screeched, breaking Kelso's train of thought as she sat down in her chair, crossing her legs ceremoniously. "I'm ready."

"Shoot." Kelso nodded, lying back down on the couch, his hands propped up beneath his head.

"Remember how I told you that Hyde was high and probably didn't remember...that night?"

"Which night?" Kelso smirked as Jackie stuck her tongue out at him, with a lackluster smile. "Yeah, so?"

"Well," Jackie took a deep breath. "Apparently, Hyde wasn't as high as we thought."

"You mean...?" Kelso started, sitting back up to look Jackie in the eyes.

She nodded her head forcefully, "He remembers."

"So, that's a good thing, right?" Kelso smiled warmly, confused as Jackie shrugged. "I thought you liked it..."

"I don't know, Kelso." Jackie lifted her legs onto the chair, holding herself like a small, innocent child. "It's so confusing. I mean, parts of me really like Eric,"

"Let me guess which parts." Kelso snorted.

Jackie threw him a threatening look, "But Steven..."

Kelso raised his eyebrows in surprise. "You just called him Steven."

"No, I didn't." Jackie shook her head, letting her feet fall back to the ground.

"You care about him!" Kelso screamed happily, "I mean, I knew you liked him, but you really care about him. Do you...lov..."

"Say it and you're dead." Jackie said angrily, heading back towards her room.

"Ok, ok." Kelso laughed. "So, problem solved then?"

"How so?" Jackie called.

Kelso looked back anxiously as rustling sounds came from Jackie's room and she emerged, dressed in the same jeans she wore yesterday and a snug, yellow tee shirt she'd had since sixth grade. She let her hair fall loosely around her shoulders as she sat back down, grabbing an issue of MAD from the coffee table.

"You should ask Steven out."

Jackie smirked, complacently placing her shades over her eyes, trying to look very interested in whatever article she was reading.

"I don't think so, Kelso." Jackie chuckled, throwing the magazine back down and leaning back, tilting the chair with her.

Kelso sighed, leaning back on the couch. "So I guess you're back." He stood up, shoving his hands in his pockets. "You know, Jackie, sometimes I really wish you'd just stop acting all the time."

"Whatever." Jackie muttered, picking the magazine up again with a frown.

"Yeah, have fun being 'zen' and whatnot." Kelso muttered, slamming the door behind him.
Jackie rolled the magazine up and tapped it against her knee as Eric and Donna came charging down the stairs, flopping down on the couch together. Eric switched the TV back on, and the three sat in awkward silence as All In The Family came on.

Jackie's eyes darted to Eric's hand, which was quietly tracing circles on Donna's bare leg, where her short skirt was riding up.

"Get a room." Jackie muttered.

"Why don't you go to yours?" Eric replied, staring at Jackie intensely as he began to lightly kiss Donna's neck.

Jackie cleared her throat, trying to focus on All In The Family but the guzzling noises coming deep from Eric's throat sent familiar chills down her back.

"Can you not do that?" Jackie practically screamed, pinching herself to calm her nerves.

"Why, Jackie?" Eric lifted his head from Donna's neck, "Is it too much for you?"

"Eric..." Donna groaned, tapping his knee forcefully.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Jackie said nonchalantly, throwing the rolled up magazine down on the table as she stood up, pulling her tee shirt down and smoothing her jeans.

Eric stood up, in one swift motion, slowly walking past her and towards the freezer. Jackie stayed still as he pressed his cold hand against the side of her waist, gripping her tightly, his fingers pressing against her bare skin as he moved her out of his way and grabbed a popsicle from the freezer.

"Want one?" He asked, in a sultry voice.

Jackie looked back, shivers running up and down her spine as she shook her head in reply and began searching around the room for her car keys. She needed to get far away from Eric.

She knew what he was up to. Every time he was in one of his moods, he'd try to turn Jackie on. He'd blow in her ear as he walked past her; graze her ass with the back of his hand as she walked past him. He knew it drove her crazy. He knew the only reason she would ever come back to him was for the sex.

Jackie wasn't a sexaholic, she wasn't a nymphomaniac or anything like that. It's just that when she was that close to Eric, when their breath was as one, when he sent unbelievable waves of pleasure through her, and then she'd fall asleep in his arms, she'd finally feel whole again, while every other minute of her life she felt like something was missing, or someone.

Damn her parents for making her an emotional wreck.

She didn't need Eric and she didn't need to have sex with him to make her feel good again.
The only thing that came close to filling his shoes was that night with Hyde.

Jackie's eyes landed upon her keys, sticking out from underneath a book. She grabbed at them, muttered a 'later' to Donna and Eric, almost laughing at Eric's frustrated look and left the basement, quickly.

If she didn't find Hyde soon, she'd burst.

She couldn't believe where she was at that moment, parked in her Camino, tapping on the steering wheel as a cloud above her head clapped loudly with thunder. Drops of rain began to fall on the windshield. Jackie felt paralyzed, frozen. Why did she come here? She turned her head slightly to the right, wiping her hand against the cold window to clear the thick fog that had settled upon it. Her hair was starting to stick to the back of her neck and she felt extremely tired. She looked up at the looming mansion, barely registering the fact that someone opened the passenger door and slipped inside, shaking his curly hair so hard that drops of rain splattered onto Jackie's face, awakening her from her daze.

"Is there a reason you're parked outside my house?"

Jackie turned her head to face him, thankful her sunglasses were hiding her hungry eyes.

Jackie contemplated how exactly she should answer that question. She could tell the truth, she could make up some lie about how she was just waiting for the rain to pass or how she ran out of weed and was coming to see if he had any. But no drug could clear Jackie's head right now. Ever since she had done the deed with Hyde, she had this craving, deep within her center, wanting to relish in that experience once more and see what it would be like, if maybe, she stayed in his arms, till the sun rose. Maybe things would become clear, maybe she'd realize that the idea of her with him wasn't so impossible.

So many things rushed through Jackie's head at once, as Hyde smirked, waiting for her response.

She had really fucked up things for herself.

Her friendship with Eric would never be the same. Every time he was close to her, she wanted him, but only physically and she knew that the only way not to hurt him was to stay far, far away. Kelso was tired of her old 'zen' act, and frankly, so was she. But you can't just turn things like that off.

And Hyde...

She had felt things for Hyde that she couldn't even form into words.

It wasn't love; it wasn't lust.

She didn't know what it was, but all she knew, was that she wanted more.

She needed more.

Especially after Eric's little games, turning her on and leaving her dry. Well, not dry.

Drops of sweat and water perspired from Hyde's skin. His face was kind of scruffy, he hadn't had the thought to shave in a few days. It turned Jackie on even more. The rain pounded hard against the windows of the car, steaming up the windows and making it unbearably hot. Jackie pulled at the neck of her tee shirt and turned the volume knob on the radio, stalling before fessing up to why she was parked outside of the Hyde mansion. Hyde stripped off his denim jacket, throwing the soaking article of clothing into the backseat and pulling at his own tee shirt collar.

Jackie and Hyde stared into each other's eyes, each wondering what the other was thinking with extreme, pending insecurity.

"And now, a song for all those crazy lovebirds out there," Jackie snapped her attention towards the tiny car radio, where the strange voice poured out from, "We've got a lot of requests for this one, so here it is, 'When I Need You' by Leo Sayer!"

The first few guitar strums of the song began and Jackie closed her eyes, listening to the song and the rain beating against the window shield, preparing to make up some reasoning for why she had been there.

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you

She just didn't have it in her to tell the truth. She couldn't let Hyde know that she, Jackie Burkhart, might actually be falling for someone.

and all that I so want to give you
It's only a heartbeat away

Before she could react, she felt, cold, wet lips skimming the edge of hers. She moaned inaudibly, as one of his hands held her right shoulder, pinning her to the seat.

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
The back of her head hit the window, but she barely flinched. His other hand held her steady on her inner thigh, making her moist jeans cinch up and chafe her leg.

I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day

His lips left hers and Jackie smoothed her sweat and hair back, opening her eyes as he took off her sunglasses, casting them aside. Jackie heard them crunch beneath her as lay down, as uncomfortable as it was to do so in the front seats of the El Camino.

Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile

Hyde took the initiative and lay down on top of her, carefully, so as not to hurt her fragile form. She bit her lip, not being able to contain her excitement any further. The rain's melodic beat was in rhythm with Jackie's heart as Hyde lifted up the bottom of her shirt, planting small, sensual kisses on her stomach.

But you know I won't be traveling forever
It's cold out, but hold out
and do like I do

Jackie bit her lip harder, her whole body covered in a slick sweat from the humidity festering inside the car. Jackie wrapped her legs around Hyde's torso, forcing him to fall down on her completely. She groaned underneath the pressure, but couldn't stop. She wanted to feel him again, to be complete again.

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
and all that I so wanna give you babe
It's only a heart beat away

Jackie stared right into Hyde's crystal blue eyes as he helped her wriggle out of her jeans, so that they stayed comfortably at her knees. He pulled her shirt over her head, throwing it in the back, as she did the same with his. It's not easy when the road is your driver

Honey that's a heavy load we bear

Jackie placed her palms on his bare chest, lifting some of the weight off her own as they shifted their bodies to find a comfortable position. Hyde maneuvered one hand behind her back, fumbling with the clasp of her bra as Jackie got hotter and more desperate.

"Need help?" Jackie half moaned as Hyde sighed in frustration. Jackie lifted her body up softly, finding his hand and guiding him.

"You're so wet, it won't come loose."

They both laughed gently at how wrong it sounded but Jackie nodded in understanding.

"Just forget it." She lifted their hand out from underneath her back but he shook his head, determined.

He reached into the pocket of his jeans, producing a small swiss army knife.

"I'll buy you a new one." He said huskily as he snipped down the center of Jackie's black bra. He separated the two halves, his face glowing at the sight of her bare chest.

He immediately drew her right nipple into his mouth, caressing it softly with his tongue as Jackie moaned in anticipation.

He went on to the other as Jackie, with one hand, pulled at his jeans, lowering them quickly.

Hyde chuckled, telling her to be patient with his hands as he walked his index finger and middle finger down from her breasts to her stomach, to the tips of her panties, which were thoroughly soaked from sweat, amongst other things.

With one swift movement, he dipped her panties to her knees, along with his boxers, and slid his hard arousal into her walls, craving every bit of the pleasure he had received last time.

Jackie gripped onto his waist with her legs, his back with her hands, digging into his skin with her fingernails, biting her lip as he pushed deeper into her core, vigorously. It was so much more then what she had with Eric.

Once again, she felt that peak of not only pleasure, but emotion. Raw, unimaginable, hungered to be released, emotion.

Jackie felt her heart burst with orgasmic pleasure as they both came, within a matter of seconds, dripping in their own perspiration.

"No one's home." Hyde mentioned as the rain ceased its heavy flow.

Jackie shrugged, shivers running up and down her body as she tossed her ruined sunglasses out the window, a wave of cold air hitting her body.

Hyde pulled her up, next to him. Somehow, they had ended up in the back seat. Jackie's head was spinning as he sat in the driver's seat, buck naked and pulled into his garage, helping her out of the car, grabbing their clothes and rolling them up into a ball.

Hyde led Jackie upstairs, into what she assumed was his bedroom.

She felt sleep grazing over her as soon as her head hit the silk pillow. Hyde wrapped one of the crimson blankets around her half asleep body and climbed in next to her, dropping their clothes to the ground.

"So, why'd you come here, anyway?" Hyde whispered, surprised when Jackie moved in closer to him, lying her palms and head against his chest.

"I was horny," Jackie said lazily, letting her eyelids close fully for the first time in days.

Hyde smiled to himself and kissed the top of her forehead, letting himself fall asleep for the first time in days, as well.

Jackie knew that when she woke up, she'd have to tell him how she really felt.

Hyde knew that when he woke up, he'd have to tell Jackie how he really felt.

But for now, they could just sleep, feeling satisfied, complete, comfortable, and worry free.

But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out, but hold out
and do like I do...when I need you....