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A/N: Omg I am so sorry everyone, I have updated for ages!!!! I have been busy though...........and I no I used to update practicly everyday before and now........practicly never......but I promise I will update at least every two days and some times every day!!! I promise!


CHAPTER 18: tears, promises, shock and than more tears


Hitomi looked to her right, Dilandau was happily munching on peanuts like a child.

I had to sit with him on the plane. Hitomi groaned.

"What?" he asked.

"Nothing, I'm just thinking." she replied.

"About?" he asked placing his peanut bag on the tray.

"My life."

"What's wrong with it?"

"Everything!" Hitomi said and let out a loud, long sigh.

"Like?" Dilandau asked.

"Everything, I hate my self. I cheated on Allen, I slept with you and I'm in love with Van and you!"

Dilandau looked at her and grinned "Your in love with me, eh?"

Hitomi looked bewildered "I didn't mean.........oh fuck!"

"Hey don't worry about it, so are you going to break up with Allen?"

Hitomi groaned, "I dunno I want to but............"

"But what?"

"But I don't want to."

"Your confusing sometimes, you no." Dilandau said.

"I know, it's just that Allen treats me so good and he loves me and.........."

Dilandau interrupted "God dammit Hitomi, you don't like him anymore. Just break up with him!"

"Why the fuck would you care?!" Hitomi yelled.

"Miss, Sir can you please keep it down your disturbing the other passengers." a passing by stewardess said to Hitomi and Dilandau.

"Sorry." they both replied at the same time.

The stewardess left and Hitomi glared at Dilandau.

"You idiot look what you......." Hitomi was cut off by Dilandau pressing his lips to hers.

He kissed her and than sucked on her lower lip for entrance, Hitomi pulled back and glared at him again.

"What the fuck, I'm yelling at you and you kiss me!"

"Shh." he said.

"I wont 'shh'!" she yelled.

Dilandau had to shut her up before they got into trouble.

"Hitomi shut up." he whispered.

"No!" she yelled.

Dilandau sighed grabbed her by the shoulders pressed her against the seat and kissed her. Hitomi lay limp under him, not kissing back.

I wont. She said to herself.

Dilandau kissed her again sucking on her lower lip.

Stop him. A voice said in the back of her head.

It's not that bad, you like it don't you. Another voice said teasing.

I don't. Okay maybe he is a good kisser but no. she argued.

Oh who cares just kiss him, you like him don't you.

I do but Van I like Van to. She argued.

Van is probably kissing a girl right now. The voice said.

Oh shut up! She told her inner voice.

She pressed her lips against Dilandau's and her arms in-circled his neck. This time she let him in his tongue crept into her mouth, and searched it. They pulled back breathless, Hitomi stared up at him, tears forming in her emerald eyes.

"Hitomi?" Dilandau asked.

Hitomi got up and ran for the bathroom, knocking over two stewardess's who were carrying platters of food. Hitomi looked the door, and than sat down, her arms crossed on her knee's her head resting on her arms. Just like in the girls washroom at school, Hitomi felt tears slide down her cheeks. She wiped them away and stood, washed her face. And decided on her love life right than and their.

"Van." she muttered.

She looked in the mirror once more and than opened the door to the washroom and left. They would be in the airport in New York soon and than she'd be back home. She'd break up with Allen and than tell Van the truth.


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Hitomi was walking in the park with a group of friends, it was her, Milerna, Miguel, Marie, Chesta, Gatti and Dilandau. They just arrived back from the airport in New York and Milerna insisted they go to the fall fair held in the park. Miguel had his arm around Milerna's waist, Chesta and Marie were holding hands, Gatti was looking around scopeing for chicks, Hitomi and Dilandau walked side by side in silence well the other's talked. Hitomi was thinking, she promised her self she'd tell Van, that she cared about him but she could never find him. When they first came back she rushed home, said hello to her mother and went to Folken's diner to tell Van...........but he wasn't there. He wasn't anywhere, so she hoped he'd be at the fair, she had broken up with Allen. Allen was shocked beyond words when she told him he just stood their with his mouth wide open, staring, Hitomi could hear his heart break.

"Hitomi?" Milerna yelled.

Hitomi was snapped out of her thoughts "Yea?"

"Did you hear a single word I said."

"No......sorry I was thinking about something."

Dilandau looked at Hitomi and no one saw the hurt in his eyes masked by the grin on his face, he knew who she was thinking about.

"It's okay but Miguel was saying we should go to lunch but he can't decided where to eat."

"Ummm there is that new sushi res..........." Hitomi began but she stopped and stared, stared at the sight before her.

"Hitomi?" Milerna called.

Everyone looked where Hitomi was looking.

Milerna put a hand to her mouth in shock "Oh Hitomi!"

Hitomi stared, she didn't feel the hands go around her and pull her close.

"Hitomi." Dilandau said quietly.

It was Dilandau's voice that snapped her out of shock, Hitomi buried her face in Dilandau's chest, and felt the tears slide down her face. Dilandau wrapped his arms around her and held her, trying to comfort her. But nothing could comfort her, she stood held by Dilandau, crying into his chest from the shock of what she just seen.


Stargazer: Sorry for the long wait.........I've been busy.....but I had a great b-day!

Dillie: Yea she did ^_~

Van: Yep we kept her busy

Stargazer: Liars you got drunk!

Van & Dillie: epp!

Stargazer: lol well hope everyone likes the chap!

Van & Dillie: Please review! We love you!