A/N: hey look I updated again lol...........thanks for all the reviews and add me on ur msn, I enjoy talking to other authors. Okay I have to say..........their will be V/H fluff.........this is going to be a semi-depressing story.........not angst but depressing. Well enjoy the chap and the song in this chap is by Evanescence it's called Whisper.........I love this song and all her other songs she writes such depressing things and I like depressing lol...........well enjoy and my hand hurts so much cuz I punched this guy in the jaw....cuz he's an ass whole and he deserves it...lol and despite the immense pain because the dumbass had to have braces....which I broke....heh.......I am writing this chap....because I love this story it's one of my pride and joys....my other pride an joys r my other stories well enough with the talking.....read the chap and enjoy!


CHAPTER 19: Run away from it all

From previous chapter:

It was Dilandau's voice that snapped her out of shock, Hitomi buried her face in Dilandau's chest, and felt the tears slide down her face. Dilandau wrapped his arms around her and held her, trying to comfort her. But nothing could comfort her, she stood held by Dilandau, crying into his chest from the shock of what she just seen.


**I'm frightened by what I see
but somehow I know that there's much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
I can stop the pain if I will it all away **

It was Milerna who broke the silence that fell on everyone, it was Milerna who made Hitomi turn and face him. Dilandau still holding onto her waist protectively.

"Hello Van, Ukari." Milerna said, in an icey tone.

Van pulled himself from the auburn haired girl and shrugged not looking behind him "Milerna." he said placidly.

Hitomi choked back the tears "Van?"

Everyone watched as Van's shoulders tensed up and he turned and looked at everyone, his eyes on Hitomi.

"Van?" she asked again.

"Hi." he said slowly.

Dilandau pulled Hitomi close.

Ukari had a sad expression on her face, "Oh Hitomi I'm..........."

Milerna cut her off "Stupid bitch shut up."

Hitomi looked at Van and Ukari, she was betrayed by one of her best friends, who knew she liked Van.

"This is what it feels like to be stabbed in the back." Hitomi said quietly even though everyone heard her.

"You guys let's go." Gatti said.

"Okay." Hitomi agreed, she took one last look at Ukari, and than looked at Van. Their gazes locked, Hitomi looked away.

Dilandau put his arm around her shoulder, and the group walked away.

"Van, I feel bad." Ukari said.

Van didn't answer, he watched Hitomi until she was out of sight.

"Fuck." he mumbled.

**catch me as I fall
say you're here and it's all over now
speaking to the atmosphere
no one's here and I fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away **

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Hitomi sat in Folken's diner, sipping her coffee feeling like shit.

Ukari has every right, he's not my boyfriend, I should have told him sooner. Hitomi thought.

Hitomi knew that she shouldn't hate Ukari but Ukari knew, she knew that Hitomi liked Van and even than she made out with him. But Hitomi did hate Ukari she hated Van to.

I hate him and I love him, I'm such an idiot. Hitomi mused.

The door chime chimed and Hitomi didn't look behind don't turn away
her, she continued drinking her coffee.
**don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die **

"Hitomi." Van said, as he appeared in front of her behind the counter.

Hitomi looked at him, took a last sip of her coffee, put her money on the counter, got up and opened the door to leave.

"Hitomi!" he yelled.

Hitomi stopped, bent down and quickly tied her shoe and than left.

Van groaned and ran after her.

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**don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
don't try to hide
though they're screaming your name
don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
don't turn out the light
never sleep never die **

Hitomi knew he was following her so that's why she ran, she ran and wouldn't stop, she could hear the pounding of his footsteps following her. Hitomi couldn't help the tears that were streaming down her cheeks.

"Hitomi stop running!" Van yelled.

Finally Hitomi stopped not for Van, just because she felt if she ran anymore she'd collpse and hurt herself.

Van quickly caught up to her, "Hitomi, why are you being like this?"

"Being like what? You kissed her Van, you and my fucking best friend were swapping saliva, playing tonsle hockey, making out! Who the fuck cares what you call it, you were doing it!!!!!!!!"

"Why the fuck are you yelling at me, you kissed me a month ago, saying don't tell anyone and than you leave. You never called, you didn't write a fucking letter. What am I suppose to wait here twiddling my god damn thumbs hoping you like me! I'm not like that and you fucking no it. So don't go blame any shit on me."

"Fuck you Van!" Hitomi yelled, walking away.

Van grabbed her arm and Hitomi pulled it away "Leave me the fuck alone." Hitomi replied.

"Hitomi." Van said trying to make his voice kind, trying not to erupt in anger again.

"Fuck you." Hitomi yelled.

It started to rain, and even though it was raining Van could tell she was crying. They stood their looking at each other.

"Fuck you." Hitomi whispered.

Van stood their watching her, it hurt him to see her like this, right than and their he wanted to wrap his arms around her and tell her he was sorry.

"Hitomi!" a voice called out.

Van looked to his right at the black convertible (A/N: the top is up it's raining duh!), Dilandau was driving it.

"Hitomi I'll give you a drive, hope in."

"Hitomi." Van said.

Hitomi looked at Van sadly and opened the door to Dilandau's car and went in.

"Later Van." Dilandau said grinning.

Hitomi gave Van one last look before she slammed the door shut, and the car pulled away.

Van stood getting soaked, watching till the car was out of site, he than took a walk around the block in the rain before he went back to the diner.

**fallen angels at my feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me I fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall I begin
forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end **

A/N: hope u like the chap and thank you all my reviewers I love you all! In the none sexual way heh.........well thanks for the reviews and come some give me a flame........please!! This story aint that good....please lol.......well the next chap is comin out soon I promise!

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