Summary: From beginning to end in song. Mac and Harm's past, present and future accompanied by various artists.
Pairing: Um… duh! Mac/Harm
Distribution: If you want it, take it but please warn me and tell me where its going (hhakahyperhappyhotmail.com)
Rating: PG-13 mostly because of alcoholism, and swearing.
Disclaimer: I swear I don't own the people you recognize. I only like to play around with them and make things go my way. DPB owns them along with Paramount and CBS.
Spoilers: Just about everything basically. Some of the cases won't be covered, of course but a lot of the major moments in the lives of Mac and Harm will be.
Author's Note: I'm doing my research for this one but there's no guarantee that I'll get everything right. Please correct me if I make a mistake. Thanks!
Also, in this one she's listening to the radio. I am well aware that Britney Spears was very young if born at the time this chapter takes place, but for the sake of the story, the song exists. Thanks for understanding.
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Mac
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1985
But now I know
That life doesn't always go my way
Feels like I'm caught in the middle
That's when I realize
I can't remember the exact moment my life spun out of control and I can't exactly say I'm in a good position to put it back, ha, as if I really want to. I have Chris, I have the bottle and I have Eddie. What else, really, does a girl need?
I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
And of course I chose that moment to zone into the radio and I remember all of my faults. I mean, really, my father, my mother… it had to have been my fault, I'm the only consistency in that relationship… where's my alcohol…
There is no need to protect me
It's time that I
Learn to face up to this on my own
I've seen so much more than you know now
So don't tell me to shut my eyes
Preaching to the choir, sister. I can deal with drunk men, I can deal with my life, and I'm going to do what I want with it! So take that fate and destiny. I'm going to do things my way or no way. Get over it!
I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
I'm not a girl! I'm a woman… eighteen and all… My marriage to Chris was my decision and I'm fine with it. Sure, we're usually too out of it to do anything and there's rare moments where we have an honest conversation but that's the way it is. I will not cry, I will not cry…
But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eyes
This girl will always find her way
I do things my way. I'm my own person. I am in control.
I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
Another gulp down my throat… I do things my way. I'm my own person. I am in control.
(I'm not a girl)
I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe
(Not yet a woman)
I'm just trying to find the woman in me
All I need is time
A moment that is mine (that's mine)
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl, not yet a woman
All I need is time, a moment that is mine
While I'm in between
I'm not a girl
I do things my way… I am my own person… I am in control…
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I know they've been short and I know they're not all that good really but I'm just kinda trying to get them over with so I can get into the friendship thing… I couple more of these chapters and then we can get to the good stuff!
I'm Not A Girl Not Yet A Woman is Britney Spears
Kavi Leighanna