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CHAPTER NINE
Stretching with a smile, Kendall sighed and realized that she wanted nothing more than to lay there and keep sleeping. What an incredible dream!
"Rise and shine sleepyhead..."
Kendall's eyes shot open and she realized that David was sitting on the edge of her bed, his shirt only partially buttoned and she was under the covers completely naked. "David..." She had no idea what to say. What did you say to someone you had just spent an amazing night with?
David laughed; he could actually see the gears turning in her head. What was she thinking? Was she going to say it was a mistake?
"Good morning, Kendall. I thought I better sneak out before Bianca woke up... no explanations, right?" Reaching over he brushed a strand of her curly hair behind her ear.
Sitting up Kendall tried to pull her wits together, "David... about last night..."
"Hey... there's nothing to worry about. We were just too friends enjoying each other's company, right? After all you are the one who suggested an affair." He didn't want to make her feel trapped, the last thing he wanted to was mess up the friendship they had.
"That's right I did... and I am not worried. In fact, I feel great... strange... but great..." Kendall reached out and took David's hand, "So let's not complicate things... I mean, I can't lose focus... not right now."
"I understand and I feel the same way. Don't rock the boat right? So let's keep it simple... two friends... enjoying each other... like I said." David stood up and kissed Kendall's forehead, "I'll give you a call later."
Kendall watched David leave her bedroom with a mix of emotions. How come she felt like she had just missed something important here?
David quietly shut the back door and walked around to his car. Did he handle that right? He didn't need any complications in his life, and he could keep his affair with Kendall from getting too complicated... right?
After putting on her pajamas Kendall tried to go back to sleep, but it was impossible. She tossed and turned and pulled the covers up over her head, but she could still smell David's cologne all around her and it wasn't doing anything to soothe the senses.
Finally she gave up and crawled out of bed. It was only five o'clock in the morning so she more than a little disgruntled with her inability to go back to sleep. But then an idea occurred to her... something she hadn't thought of doing since she was a little kid...
Walking over to Bianca's room she quietly opened the door. Bianca was all curled up under her covers, but woke up to the sound of her door creaking open.
"Kendall? What... what's wrong? Are you ok?"
"Yea... I am fine...um... this sounds silly, but I was wondering... can I... I mean...would you..." Maybe this was a bad idea, "I am sorry... go back to sleep..."
Bianca smiled and threw back one side of her covers, "Get in here you big baby! All you had to do was ask..."
With a giggle Kendall dove under the covers, "You know I can remember always wanting a sister do this with when I was little... and when I had the chance... I was so bitter... How can you ever forgive me?"
"Oh... come on! I was a little spoiled brat! And mom wasn't helping any... I used to pretend that my dolls were my brothers and sisters and we would stay up all night laughing and talking..."
"Did they talk back... you are nuts!!!" Both girls burst out in laughter and both felt so happy to have each other... that they had overcome all the obstacles in their way.
"Kendall? Do you think Miranda would want me to have a memorial for her? I mean, I hadn't thought of it, but it seems like I should... I just don't know if I can face it..."
"Sure... what ever you want... I am here and I'll help you do whatever you want to... no questions asked!" Kendall reached over and took her little sisters hand.
"Maybe we can plan something... something small, for the family... after we get this investigation over with... ok." Bianca squeezed Kendall' s hand and said a quick prayer of thanks to God for bringing her sister back into her life.
For the next two hours the girls talked about plans for the memorial service and who they should ask to attend. Though it was a sad topic neither cried, nor voiced the pain that was in each little detail.
"Bianca... can I ask you something? What was it like... being pregnant... sharing your life so completely...? I mean, if you knew then how it was going to be now... would you change your mind?"
Bianca smiled through her tears and looked at Kendall with her heart in her eyes, "No... I wouldn't change a thing... carrying Miranda... feeling her move inside of me, and then looking into that tiny perfect face... just for a moment it was all worth it. I need to say something... something that can not leave this room... something that I have to say because I just can't keep it inside anymore..."
Kendall wiped a tear from Bianca's pale cheek, "Ok..."
"I know in my head that Bess is Babe's baby... but in my heart... in my dreams... I still feel like she is mine..." With a mocking laugh she wiped her eyes, "I guess I am crazy, huh?"
"No sweetheart... you're not crazy... you're a mother... and you have the heart of a mother... one that is grieving for her child... and I understand... Every time I look at that baby I see Miranda... in my head I still see Miranda... I see you when I look at that little face... so I guess we are both crazy."
Hugging they lay in silence and thought about the child that had been taken from them and the child living only miles away.
It was only an hour later that Kendall walked into Chandler Enterprise... she was late but she didn't think JR would mind.
"Kendall, come in. What can I do for you?" JR stood up and walked over to his friend. No matter what was going on in his personal life he would always have time for her, she was one of the few people that truly saw him as someone other than Adam Chandler's son.
"I am sorry to bother you. I just needed to ask you some questions... do you have a minute?"
"For you sure... what's up?" JR sat down and offered Kendall the chair across from him.
"I want to thank you for not going to the police about Bianca... I don't know if I ever did..."
"Hey... it's all water under the bridge... I mean, if Babe believed in her... how could I not..." JR realized then that he almost had made a huge mistake... believing in Babe... what a joke...
"Look. I am going to jump right to the point here. Bianca and I are trying to find out just what happened that night... how Paul Kramer came to the rescue. Why the helicopter malfunctioned... none of it has ever really been looked at. For Miranda's sake... I feel like we need the answers... to help us heal, you know."
"That night was so crazy... so terrifying for everyone... are you sure this is a good idea? I mean it might be too hard on Bianca... push her too far..." JR wanted nothing more for Bianca to find peace, but not if it meant she might go near Bess again.
"No...trust me, Bianca is fine. She is going to be great, she's pretty amazing you know... so what do you remember?"
"Well, I remember coming up to the crash site. Greenlee was standing over Babe... You were by Bianca. David confirmed that they had given birth already and that time was critical... Kramer stumbled on to the site and gave some story about the helicopter malfunctioning... My father and Tad and I questioned him... and that was when he pointed out Bess to us... and told us that Miranda hadn't made it..."
"What did you think of this Kramer guy? Honestly, JR I mean, I just don't trust him for some reason..." Kendall didn't want JR to know that they had questioned him... not yet.
"Kramer..."Just hearing the guy's name made JR's blood boil, "That guy is a complete peace of shit... I don't trust him... not one bit!"
Kendall could feel agitation oozing from JR, "Why? It's not as if you know him personally."
"Let's just say he is part of Babe's past... a part that is going to come back and bite her in the ass."
"JR? It thought everything was going great... the big happy wedding being planned and all..." Kendall was surprised by the angry look on JR's face.
"Oh... there's going to be a wedding... for Bess' sake... but happy... People like us just can't be happy when it comes to love... you know that... Just look at you and Ryan."
She couldn't help it but she flinched, "JR... if you love Babe... you can make it work... you can be happy..."
"Happy? What does that mean anyway? A few days ago I would have said I was on top of the world... but now... who the hell knows... at least I have Bess..." JR stood up and walked to window and stared out.
"You know if you need anything you can talk to me, right?" Kendall stood up and walked over to her friend and placed a hand on his shoulder.
Turning JR got this look on his face that was part of the JR she knew and loved and part Chandler, "I know... you just take care of yourself and Bianca ok."
Bianca stood looking around the building. It definitely had potential... but could they afford it... could they pull it off? Jackson was checking out the paper work over at the bar and hadn't stopped looking serious since they walked into the place.
Kendall and Bianca had agreed that Jackson should go with them to help them look over everything, and to take a look at the lease paperwork. He had readily agreed because he was going stir crazy waiting to hear from Erica
"Hey! Sorry I am late... So what do you think?" Kendall walked up and looked over toward the bar area.
"It has atmosphere... it's going to need some work though... Can we afford this?"
Kendall was about to open her mouth about her idea to sell her Fusion stock when a familiar voice was heard from the door area.
"I don't know why you are here... or if I am welcome... but I am hoping you might need me..."
All eyes flew to the door. Erica stood looking pale and beautiful as ever... if not a little tired.
You could have heard a pin drop as Erica slowly walked towards her daughters. Jackson wanted to run and take the woman he loved in his arms... but he knew it wasn't his time... not yet.
"You're back..." Kendall didn't know what else to say, she wasn't angry...not anymore... life was to short to live with anger... it had taken her a long time to realize that.
Bianca didn't say a word, she took one step forward and wrapped her arms around her mother. Kendall knew then what she had to do... she walked over and wrapped her arms around her mother and sister...
In that moment old hurts began to heal and love was enough. They still needed to talk about everything that had happened, but for now the three Kane women took strength from each other and it was enough....
A special thanks to Jazz and purpleant! You two are the best reviewers a girl could have and have made writing this the most fun!!! Look for me to include you in someway down the line!!!
CHAPTER NINE
Stretching with a smile, Kendall sighed and realized that she wanted nothing more than to lay there and keep sleeping. What an incredible dream!
"Rise and shine sleepyhead..."
Kendall's eyes shot open and she realized that David was sitting on the edge of her bed, his shirt only partially buttoned and she was under the covers completely naked. "David..." She had no idea what to say. What did you say to someone you had just spent an amazing night with?
David laughed; he could actually see the gears turning in her head. What was she thinking? Was she going to say it was a mistake?
"Good morning, Kendall. I thought I better sneak out before Bianca woke up... no explanations, right?" Reaching over he brushed a strand of her curly hair behind her ear.
Sitting up Kendall tried to pull her wits together, "David... about last night..."
"Hey... there's nothing to worry about. We were just too friends enjoying each other's company, right? After all you are the one who suggested an affair." He didn't want to make her feel trapped, the last thing he wanted to was mess up the friendship they had.
"That's right I did... and I am not worried. In fact, I feel great... strange... but great..." Kendall reached out and took David's hand, "So let's not complicate things... I mean, I can't lose focus... not right now."
"I understand and I feel the same way. Don't rock the boat right? So let's keep it simple... two friends... enjoying each other... like I said." David stood up and kissed Kendall's forehead, "I'll give you a call later."
Kendall watched David leave her bedroom with a mix of emotions. How come she felt like she had just missed something important here?
David quietly shut the back door and walked around to his car. Did he handle that right? He didn't need any complications in his life, and he could keep his affair with Kendall from getting too complicated... right?
After putting on her pajamas Kendall tried to go back to sleep, but it was impossible. She tossed and turned and pulled the covers up over her head, but she could still smell David's cologne all around her and it wasn't doing anything to soothe the senses.
Finally she gave up and crawled out of bed. It was only five o'clock in the morning so she more than a little disgruntled with her inability to go back to sleep. But then an idea occurred to her... something she hadn't thought of doing since she was a little kid...
Walking over to Bianca's room she quietly opened the door. Bianca was all curled up under her covers, but woke up to the sound of her door creaking open.
"Kendall? What... what's wrong? Are you ok?"
"Yea... I am fine...um... this sounds silly, but I was wondering... can I... I mean...would you..." Maybe this was a bad idea, "I am sorry... go back to sleep..."
Bianca smiled and threw back one side of her covers, "Get in here you big baby! All you had to do was ask..."
With a giggle Kendall dove under the covers, "You know I can remember always wanting a sister do this with when I was little... and when I had the chance... I was so bitter... How can you ever forgive me?"
"Oh... come on! I was a little spoiled brat! And mom wasn't helping any... I used to pretend that my dolls were my brothers and sisters and we would stay up all night laughing and talking..."
"Did they talk back... you are nuts!!!" Both girls burst out in laughter and both felt so happy to have each other... that they had overcome all the obstacles in their way.
"Kendall? Do you think Miranda would want me to have a memorial for her? I mean, I hadn't thought of it, but it seems like I should... I just don't know if I can face it..."
"Sure... what ever you want... I am here and I'll help you do whatever you want to... no questions asked!" Kendall reached over and took her little sisters hand.
"Maybe we can plan something... something small, for the family... after we get this investigation over with... ok." Bianca squeezed Kendall' s hand and said a quick prayer of thanks to God for bringing her sister back into her life.
For the next two hours the girls talked about plans for the memorial service and who they should ask to attend. Though it was a sad topic neither cried, nor voiced the pain that was in each little detail.
"Bianca... can I ask you something? What was it like... being pregnant... sharing your life so completely...? I mean, if you knew then how it was going to be now... would you change your mind?"
Bianca smiled through her tears and looked at Kendall with her heart in her eyes, "No... I wouldn't change a thing... carrying Miranda... feeling her move inside of me, and then looking into that tiny perfect face... just for a moment it was all worth it. I need to say something... something that can not leave this room... something that I have to say because I just can't keep it inside anymore..."
Kendall wiped a tear from Bianca's pale cheek, "Ok..."
"I know in my head that Bess is Babe's baby... but in my heart... in my dreams... I still feel like she is mine..." With a mocking laugh she wiped her eyes, "I guess I am crazy, huh?"
"No sweetheart... you're not crazy... you're a mother... and you have the heart of a mother... one that is grieving for her child... and I understand... Every time I look at that baby I see Miranda... in my head I still see Miranda... I see you when I look at that little face... so I guess we are both crazy."
Hugging they lay in silence and thought about the child that had been taken from them and the child living only miles away.
It was only an hour later that Kendall walked into Chandler Enterprise... she was late but she didn't think JR would mind.
"Kendall, come in. What can I do for you?" JR stood up and walked over to his friend. No matter what was going on in his personal life he would always have time for her, she was one of the few people that truly saw him as someone other than Adam Chandler's son.
"I am sorry to bother you. I just needed to ask you some questions... do you have a minute?"
"For you sure... what's up?" JR sat down and offered Kendall the chair across from him.
"I want to thank you for not going to the police about Bianca... I don't know if I ever did..."
"Hey... it's all water under the bridge... I mean, if Babe believed in her... how could I not..." JR realized then that he almost had made a huge mistake... believing in Babe... what a joke...
"Look. I am going to jump right to the point here. Bianca and I are trying to find out just what happened that night... how Paul Kramer came to the rescue. Why the helicopter malfunctioned... none of it has ever really been looked at. For Miranda's sake... I feel like we need the answers... to help us heal, you know."
"That night was so crazy... so terrifying for everyone... are you sure this is a good idea? I mean it might be too hard on Bianca... push her too far..." JR wanted nothing more for Bianca to find peace, but not if it meant she might go near Bess again.
"No...trust me, Bianca is fine. She is going to be great, she's pretty amazing you know... so what do you remember?"
"Well, I remember coming up to the crash site. Greenlee was standing over Babe... You were by Bianca. David confirmed that they had given birth already and that time was critical... Kramer stumbled on to the site and gave some story about the helicopter malfunctioning... My father and Tad and I questioned him... and that was when he pointed out Bess to us... and told us that Miranda hadn't made it..."
"What did you think of this Kramer guy? Honestly, JR I mean, I just don't trust him for some reason..." Kendall didn't want JR to know that they had questioned him... not yet.
"Kramer..."Just hearing the guy's name made JR's blood boil, "That guy is a complete peace of shit... I don't trust him... not one bit!"
Kendall could feel agitation oozing from JR, "Why? It's not as if you know him personally."
"Let's just say he is part of Babe's past... a part that is going to come back and bite her in the ass."
"JR? It thought everything was going great... the big happy wedding being planned and all..." Kendall was surprised by the angry look on JR's face.
"Oh... there's going to be a wedding... for Bess' sake... but happy... People like us just can't be happy when it comes to love... you know that... Just look at you and Ryan."
She couldn't help it but she flinched, "JR... if you love Babe... you can make it work... you can be happy..."
"Happy? What does that mean anyway? A few days ago I would have said I was on top of the world... but now... who the hell knows... at least I have Bess..." JR stood up and walked to window and stared out.
"You know if you need anything you can talk to me, right?" Kendall stood up and walked over to her friend and placed a hand on his shoulder.
Turning JR got this look on his face that was part of the JR she knew and loved and part Chandler, "I know... you just take care of yourself and Bianca ok."
Bianca stood looking around the building. It definitely had potential... but could they afford it... could they pull it off? Jackson was checking out the paper work over at the bar and hadn't stopped looking serious since they walked into the place.
Kendall and Bianca had agreed that Jackson should go with them to help them look over everything, and to take a look at the lease paperwork. He had readily agreed because he was going stir crazy waiting to hear from Erica
"Hey! Sorry I am late... So what do you think?" Kendall walked up and looked over toward the bar area.
"It has atmosphere... it's going to need some work though... Can we afford this?"
Kendall was about to open her mouth about her idea to sell her Fusion stock when a familiar voice was heard from the door area.
"I don't know why you are here... or if I am welcome... but I am hoping you might need me..."
All eyes flew to the door. Erica stood looking pale and beautiful as ever... if not a little tired.
You could have heard a pin drop as Erica slowly walked towards her daughters. Jackson wanted to run and take the woman he loved in his arms... but he knew it wasn't his time... not yet.
"You're back..." Kendall didn't know what else to say, she wasn't angry...not anymore... life was to short to live with anger... it had taken her a long time to realize that.
Bianca didn't say a word, she took one step forward and wrapped her arms around her mother. Kendall knew then what she had to do... she walked over and wrapped her arms around her mother and sister...
In that moment old hurts began to heal and love was enough. They still needed to talk about everything that had happened, but for now the three Kane women took strength from each other and it was enough....