Summary: From beginning to end in song. Mac and Harm's past, present and future accompanied by various artists.
Pairing: Um… duh! Mac/Harm
Distribution: If you want it, take it but please warn me and tell me where its going )
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I swear I don't own the people you recognize. I only like to play around with them and make things go my way. DPB owns them along with Paramount and CBS.
Spoilers: Just about everything basically. Some of the cases won't be covered, of course but a lot of the major moments in the lives of Mac and Harm will be.
Author's Note: Skipping though, skipping though, too lazy to actually to the 63 chapters I'd wanted to do in the beginning… AU now folks, don't hurt me!
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Chapter 18
If I Was the One/A Girl Can Dream
Harm and Mac
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I see the way he treats you
I feel the tears you cry
And it makes me sick
And it makes me think
There's nothing I can do, baby
'Cause your lover is my best friends
And I guess that's where the story ends
So I've got to try,
To keep it inside
You will never be,
Never be mine
"Harm? You never did tell me if the Admiral gave us the weekend," Mac said, entering Harm's office.
"Good morning to you too, Marine," he answered, flipping the picture he was looking at upside down.
"Ha, ha. New flavour of the month?" Mac asked, her voice holding an air of teasing.
"Love of my life," he responded without thinking.
If I was the one
That was loving you baby
The only tears you'd cry
Would be tears of joy
And if I was by your side
You'd never know
One lonely night
And if it was my arms
You were running to I'd give you
Love in these arms of mine
If I was the one
In your life
Mac stared at him wide-eyed. Had she heard him correctly? Had he really just said he'd found the love of his life? She turned her glance away and to his shelf.
Well Mackenzie… then she noticed the missing frame. With awe and hope written all over her face she snatched the picture he'd laid on his desk.
"Harm?"
If I could have just one wish
I'd wish that you were mine
And I'd hold you near
Kiss away those tears
I'd be so good to you, baby
You're the one I want next to me
But I guess that's just not meant to be
He's there in your life
And here in your light
And you'll never be
Never be mine
Harm was scolding himself for his infinite stupidity. Maybe if he pretended he didn't say anything, she wouldn't question it. How could he be so stupid? He'd most likely single-handedly screwed up their entire relationship.
Meanwhile, Mac had to take a good look at the picture. After all, it could be a picture of her doppleganger haunting his memories.
But what would Diane be doing at her godson's christening?
When I was a child the story would say
Somebody would sweep you off your feet some day
That's what I hoped would happen with you
More than you could know
I wanted to tell you that my heart's in your hands
I prayed for the day that I would get the chance
Just when I worked up the courage to try
Much to my surprise
You had somebody else
'Cause these feelings I keep to myself
Mac was stunned. How could it be? Could it really be true? Did he really just refer to her as the love of his life?
It brought innumerable questions to her mind. How? When? What changed? He couldn't say anything before but all of a sudden, he'd voiced his love? She needed clarification.
I may never get to hold you
So tight
I may never get to kiss you
Good night
I may never get to look deep in your eyes
Or so it seems
I always will be wishing
You were mine
I think about what could be
All the time
All the happiness that I could find
Baby, a girl can dream
She'd spoken his name twice, the first louder than the choked upon second. He had to acknowledge her or risk losing her.
"That's her, the love of my life. She had been for many years now."
"But…" Mac was speechless. She didn't know how to respond. She'd waited for this moment through their time together, but when he'd gone away to flying, she'd all but given up on that dream.
"The Admiral gave up until Wednesday at 0800."
If I was the one that was loving you baby
The only tears you'd cry
Would be tears of joy
And if I was by your side
You'd never know
One lonely night
And if it were my arms
You were running to I'd give you
Love in these arms of mine
If I was the one
In your life
"Harmon Rabb! You do not just drop something like that on a woman!" Mac squeaked. Harm stood and closed the office door, pulling the blinds in the process. If Mac was going to chew him out, he'd rather have her do so away from the prying eyes of the office.
"Honestly, Sarah, I didn't expect you to hear me. I should have known better because you know me," he said, squatting in front of her. He took a deep breath, gathering his courage for the next words.
"However, I do love you, Sarah. I have for as long as I can remember."
And if it were my arms you were running to I'd give you
Love in these arms of mine
If I was the one
In your life
Mac stared at him, allowing his obviously sincere words sink into her suddenly scrambled brain. He loved her!
Her reply, the only reply she could muster out of her incoherent mind would be simple, but she was sure they would also be the most important she'd ever say.
"I love you too, Harm. I always have."
All the happiness that I could find
Baby, a girl can dream
Songs are:
A Girl Can Dream by PYT
If I Was the One by Ruff Endz