More to come... Enjoy... not finished by a long shot! I just am having so
much fun writing this that I don't want it to end... Serendipity
CHAPTER TWENTY
"WOW! What a night... can you believe it... mom actually kept Miranda all by herself for two hours... and then Uncle Jack came in... so what that is three hours! Things are really different now..." Bianca carried the baby into the house and headed for her room.
"I know... things are so different... you hungry?" Kendall called and walked towards the kitchen.
"Sure... I am going to give Miranda a bath... a sandwich would be great... No mayo!"
Kendall laughed... she knew that Bianca didn't like the mayonnaise because she considered it fattening... as if Bianca needed to worry about weight.
Walking into the kitchen Kendall turned on the light. Maybe she should start worrying about weight... she seemed to be gaining a little... maybe she was just bloated... but she always felt so full and heavy...
Opening the refrigerator she started to pull out the ham and a wave of nausea hit her... the very thought of ham made her gag. That was weird... maybe she was just too stressed out at the moment. Today had been hard on them all... watching Babe and JR had taken a lot out of them all.
Grabbing turkey and cheese instead she walked over to the counter and tried to shake off the queasy feeling.
She hoped she wasn't coming down with something... if they were going have opening night July fourth she couldn't afford to get sick... Besides that she might give germs to Miranda.
Grabbing plates she put the sandwiches on them and walked over to the table. Now all they needed were to big glasses of milk... and they would have a complete meal!
She wondered what David was doing right now... was he remembering the last three weeks and how much fun they had together? Did he miss her at all? Probably not. Pouring the milk she walked over to the table glancing at the phone on the wall... it would be so easy to call him...
Sighing she turned around and sat down. He didn't want to be complicated... and she didn't no if up was down or left was right...
"Well, she is out like a light... I didn't have the heart to put her through the whole bath fiasco so I just wiped her down with a wash cloth... besides how dirty could she get at mom's? What's wrong... you look kind of green...?" Bianca asked pulling out a chair.
"Nothing... just a freak moment of ham aversion... turkey ok?" Kendall asked taking a bite of her sandwich and trying to forget the "h" word.
"Yeah...it's great. You must be getting sick or something... milk too? Ok... who are you and what have you done with my sister?" Bianca laughed and took a sip of milk.
"I must be needing calcium... it was like a craving for milk... don't laugh... I read that when your body needs something it makes you crave it..." Like David, she thought but didn't say it.
"So... in you're reading did you find anything about relationships in there because you need all the help you can get..."
"Thanks... I don't think there is anything that can help me..." Kendall laughed only half-kidding.
"Well... let's look at this carefully... you loved Ryan... he married Greenlee... you moved on sort of to David... Now Ryan wants you back... so it all boils down to the same thing... do you still love Ryan?"
"I think I do... but then with David everything was so simple... no accusations, no jealousy... just the joy of us being together... But, it doesn't matter because I screwed that up... as usual... Changing the subject... let me ask... have you told Lena about Miranda?"
"I called and left a message... but, I haven't heard anything from her... but, the last time we talked she said she would be out of touch for a few days... She was going to take her mother to visit some family... I don't know...what do you say we change the topic again?"
They laughed and talked about the things that still needed to be done at the club in about a month.
"Man... I am beat... I am going to take a long hot shower... and then I am curling up in bed... I'll see you in the morning... night!" Kendall kissed Bianca on the head and walked to her room.
Bianca sighed, how can I help her... if I was really sure she was over Ryan it would help... Kendall and David had been so happy together... they looked like they really might have something good together... she supposed it would be best to let nature take it's course... but she hated to see Kendall sad.
Kendall woke up in a sweat... her heart was pounding and she felt like she was going to be sick. Sitting up she glanced at the clock... it was only four in the morning.
What if she really was sick? Maybe something was really wrong with her... should she go and wake up Bianca?
Sitting up she wiped her face and leaned her head on her knees. Her head wasn't hurting, but it was a little fuzzy.
Taking a deep breath she went through all the things in her head that could be wrong with her. Stress was the man thing that came to mind... her life had been like a roller coaster for so long now.
Pulling a pillow towards her she hugged it to her body... she missed David... missed talking to him until all hours of the morning, she missed laughing and playing around with him. But, was that love? Could it ever be? And could he ever love her?
The nausea faded away as Kendall drifted back to sleep wondering if she should risk everything to find out the answers to her questions.
David woke up and rolled over to reach for her. He knew that she would be curled up on her side, warm and wanting him... just him. But all he felt were cold sheets and then he remembered that he wasn't in her bed... that she wasn't sleeping next to him.
He hadn't woken up like this since Anna had left. There were times when he woke up missing her so much he felt like his insides were being ripped out... and now he was feeling like this about Kendall.
But, he didn't want to think about that. Tad had gone to Llanview to look for Paul Kramer and he hadn't called since yesterday. Apparently Paul Kramer was missing and no the FBI were looking into it.
Maybe someone else the weasel had messed with had caught up with him... that would be too bad because he would have liked to cause him some pain.
Getting up he walked over to his desk and picked up the tape recorder. Instead of listening to the interview he listened to her voice... it was light and sultry... and every once in awhile he would smile at the phony seductive quality she would throw in to get an answer... he missed her... more than he wanted to admit...
Turning off the tape he wiped his hand across his face... when did this get so complicated... he wanted to let her go... to run far and fast in the other direction... but something about her got to him... made him really feel again...
"Kendall? Are you still in bed? Mom and Uncle Jack are here... they want to talk to us..." Bianca peaked into her sister's room. Kendall had thrown pillows and sheets everywhere. It was obvious that she hadn't slept well.
"Are you ok? Kendall?" Bianca rushed in carrying Miranda.
"Ummmm, huh? Yeah, I just had a rough night last night... what did you say? Mom and Jack are here?" Kendall got up and reached for a robe, "What's going on?"
"I don't know... are you sure you are ok..." Bianca was really concerned at the paleness of Kendall's face.
"Yeah... fine... Let me brush my teeth and I'll be in there ok?" Kendall yawned and stood up fighting the dizziness that still was lingering.
"Ok... I'll go and tell them your up..." Bianca walked into the living room.
After brushing her teeth Kendall looked in the mirror and studied her face. She could not be sick... but there weren't any other options... Stress obviously... but why would it just be making her sick now? Wiping her face off she walked into the living room.
"Mom? Jack? What's going on?" Kendall sat down gingerly on the couch.
"Well... Jackson, shall we tell them?" Erica smiled up at Jackson with all the love in her heart.
"Girls... your mother has agreed to be my wife... again... and we would like you two to come and share it with us..."
"Oh my gosh! That's so great! Congratulations!" Kendall and Bianca stood up and walked over and kissed the happy couple.
"When's the big day? Are you going to plan another wedding?" Kendall asked hoping that they wouldn't say they wanted to wait and have a huge wedding.
"Well, Jack has agreed to let me have a beautiful society wedding... flowers, candles, the works..." Erica smiled at the alarm that was quickly hidden in her daughter's faces, "But, I quickly reassured him that this time I only want you two, Reggie of course, and Lily... and even Greenlee if he insisted."
At Greenlee's name both Kendall and Bianca groaned and even Miranda let out a shriek...
"Well, Miranda says that we promise to be good... As long as you two promise to go through with it... Or else, you two will have to answer to your granddaughter!" Bianca laughed, she hadn't seen her mother this happy in so long. "Oh, don't you worry about that... I am not going to let this woman out of my sight... Until after wedding!" Jackson reached over and quickly kissed a startled Erica on the lips.
Things couldn't have been more perfect... except at that moment all the nausea and dizziness that Kendall had been fighting came back with a venegance...
She ran out of the room and barely made it to the bathroom.
"Sweetheart, are you ok?" Erica was concerned for her eldest daugther's flight from the living room.
"Yeah, I am fine... I just think... I might have a stomach bug or something... don't let Bianca come near me... I might give it to her or Miranda..."
"Ok... honey, I am going to the kitchen to get you some ice water ok... you just stay there... and I'll get Jack to help you to bed..."
Kendall didn't want to move... but having thrown up she was starting to feel a little better.
A concerned Jackson knocked on the door, and calmly peeked in, "Are you ok... Erica said you might need me..."
"I am alright just still a little dizzy... Leave it to me to ruin the big moment..." She laughed feebly and tried to get off the bathroom floor.
"Well, let's just consider that my official roll as father has begun today... and I am going to carry you to your bedroom... ok."
Kendall was so moved by the father comment that she didn't argue. She let Jack tenderly pick her up and carry her to her room. Setting her down he helped her remove her robe and Erica came in carrying a big glass of ice water.
"Ok sweetie, Bianca is going to make you some toast in a bit, but she said you needed to sleep... so I want you to take a sip of this... ok, and try and get some rest." Erica fluttered like a nervous butterfly around her daughter.
"I am so sorry mom... here you are sharing such wonderful news... and I am ruining... I am SO sorry..."
"Oh Kendall, forget about it... you can't help these things... Ok...Jack and I have a lot to do today... the wedding is going to be tomorrow evening... a little soon... but we still have the license... and who needs all those frills... so you have to get some rest and get better ok!" Erica quickly kissed her daughter on the head and walked out of the room leaving Jackson and Kendall staring helplessly after her... She was Erica Kane... they both seemed to say in their heads and smiled.
"Thanks Jack... I mean it... I am so happy for you two!"
Jackson smiled and squeezed Kendall's hand," You get some rest, ok... call if you need anything..."
Kendall's eyes welled up with tears... it was like having a real family... something she hadn't had in a long time.
Shivering she pulled the covers up to her neck and turned over grabbing a pillow to hold close to her... What in the hell was wrong with her?
A little voice in her head whispered.... You know what's wrong dummy... You just can't face it yet...
Kendall closed her eyes as tears ran down her face... she couldn't be... no, it was impossible... she was on the pill... she couldn't be carrying David's child... there was no possible way....
Holding on to that thought like a life-line she closed her eyes and drifted to sleep.
CHAPTER TWENTY
"WOW! What a night... can you believe it... mom actually kept Miranda all by herself for two hours... and then Uncle Jack came in... so what that is three hours! Things are really different now..." Bianca carried the baby into the house and headed for her room.
"I know... things are so different... you hungry?" Kendall called and walked towards the kitchen.
"Sure... I am going to give Miranda a bath... a sandwich would be great... No mayo!"
Kendall laughed... she knew that Bianca didn't like the mayonnaise because she considered it fattening... as if Bianca needed to worry about weight.
Walking into the kitchen Kendall turned on the light. Maybe she should start worrying about weight... she seemed to be gaining a little... maybe she was just bloated... but she always felt so full and heavy...
Opening the refrigerator she started to pull out the ham and a wave of nausea hit her... the very thought of ham made her gag. That was weird... maybe she was just too stressed out at the moment. Today had been hard on them all... watching Babe and JR had taken a lot out of them all.
Grabbing turkey and cheese instead she walked over to the counter and tried to shake off the queasy feeling.
She hoped she wasn't coming down with something... if they were going have opening night July fourth she couldn't afford to get sick... Besides that she might give germs to Miranda.
Grabbing plates she put the sandwiches on them and walked over to the table. Now all they needed were to big glasses of milk... and they would have a complete meal!
She wondered what David was doing right now... was he remembering the last three weeks and how much fun they had together? Did he miss her at all? Probably not. Pouring the milk she walked over to the table glancing at the phone on the wall... it would be so easy to call him...
Sighing she turned around and sat down. He didn't want to be complicated... and she didn't no if up was down or left was right...
"Well, she is out like a light... I didn't have the heart to put her through the whole bath fiasco so I just wiped her down with a wash cloth... besides how dirty could she get at mom's? What's wrong... you look kind of green...?" Bianca asked pulling out a chair.
"Nothing... just a freak moment of ham aversion... turkey ok?" Kendall asked taking a bite of her sandwich and trying to forget the "h" word.
"Yeah...it's great. You must be getting sick or something... milk too? Ok... who are you and what have you done with my sister?" Bianca laughed and took a sip of milk.
"I must be needing calcium... it was like a craving for milk... don't laugh... I read that when your body needs something it makes you crave it..." Like David, she thought but didn't say it.
"So... in you're reading did you find anything about relationships in there because you need all the help you can get..."
"Thanks... I don't think there is anything that can help me..." Kendall laughed only half-kidding.
"Well... let's look at this carefully... you loved Ryan... he married Greenlee... you moved on sort of to David... Now Ryan wants you back... so it all boils down to the same thing... do you still love Ryan?"
"I think I do... but then with David everything was so simple... no accusations, no jealousy... just the joy of us being together... But, it doesn't matter because I screwed that up... as usual... Changing the subject... let me ask... have you told Lena about Miranda?"
"I called and left a message... but, I haven't heard anything from her... but, the last time we talked she said she would be out of touch for a few days... She was going to take her mother to visit some family... I don't know...what do you say we change the topic again?"
They laughed and talked about the things that still needed to be done at the club in about a month.
"Man... I am beat... I am going to take a long hot shower... and then I am curling up in bed... I'll see you in the morning... night!" Kendall kissed Bianca on the head and walked to her room.
Bianca sighed, how can I help her... if I was really sure she was over Ryan it would help... Kendall and David had been so happy together... they looked like they really might have something good together... she supposed it would be best to let nature take it's course... but she hated to see Kendall sad.
Kendall woke up in a sweat... her heart was pounding and she felt like she was going to be sick. Sitting up she glanced at the clock... it was only four in the morning.
What if she really was sick? Maybe something was really wrong with her... should she go and wake up Bianca?
Sitting up she wiped her face and leaned her head on her knees. Her head wasn't hurting, but it was a little fuzzy.
Taking a deep breath she went through all the things in her head that could be wrong with her. Stress was the man thing that came to mind... her life had been like a roller coaster for so long now.
Pulling a pillow towards her she hugged it to her body... she missed David... missed talking to him until all hours of the morning, she missed laughing and playing around with him. But, was that love? Could it ever be? And could he ever love her?
The nausea faded away as Kendall drifted back to sleep wondering if she should risk everything to find out the answers to her questions.
David woke up and rolled over to reach for her. He knew that she would be curled up on her side, warm and wanting him... just him. But all he felt were cold sheets and then he remembered that he wasn't in her bed... that she wasn't sleeping next to him.
He hadn't woken up like this since Anna had left. There were times when he woke up missing her so much he felt like his insides were being ripped out... and now he was feeling like this about Kendall.
But, he didn't want to think about that. Tad had gone to Llanview to look for Paul Kramer and he hadn't called since yesterday. Apparently Paul Kramer was missing and no the FBI were looking into it.
Maybe someone else the weasel had messed with had caught up with him... that would be too bad because he would have liked to cause him some pain.
Getting up he walked over to his desk and picked up the tape recorder. Instead of listening to the interview he listened to her voice... it was light and sultry... and every once in awhile he would smile at the phony seductive quality she would throw in to get an answer... he missed her... more than he wanted to admit...
Turning off the tape he wiped his hand across his face... when did this get so complicated... he wanted to let her go... to run far and fast in the other direction... but something about her got to him... made him really feel again...
"Kendall? Are you still in bed? Mom and Uncle Jack are here... they want to talk to us..." Bianca peaked into her sister's room. Kendall had thrown pillows and sheets everywhere. It was obvious that she hadn't slept well.
"Are you ok? Kendall?" Bianca rushed in carrying Miranda.
"Ummmm, huh? Yeah, I just had a rough night last night... what did you say? Mom and Jack are here?" Kendall got up and reached for a robe, "What's going on?"
"I don't know... are you sure you are ok..." Bianca was really concerned at the paleness of Kendall's face.
"Yeah... fine... Let me brush my teeth and I'll be in there ok?" Kendall yawned and stood up fighting the dizziness that still was lingering.
"Ok... I'll go and tell them your up..." Bianca walked into the living room.
After brushing her teeth Kendall looked in the mirror and studied her face. She could not be sick... but there weren't any other options... Stress obviously... but why would it just be making her sick now? Wiping her face off she walked into the living room.
"Mom? Jack? What's going on?" Kendall sat down gingerly on the couch.
"Well... Jackson, shall we tell them?" Erica smiled up at Jackson with all the love in her heart.
"Girls... your mother has agreed to be my wife... again... and we would like you two to come and share it with us..."
"Oh my gosh! That's so great! Congratulations!" Kendall and Bianca stood up and walked over and kissed the happy couple.
"When's the big day? Are you going to plan another wedding?" Kendall asked hoping that they wouldn't say they wanted to wait and have a huge wedding.
"Well, Jack has agreed to let me have a beautiful society wedding... flowers, candles, the works..." Erica smiled at the alarm that was quickly hidden in her daughter's faces, "But, I quickly reassured him that this time I only want you two, Reggie of course, and Lily... and even Greenlee if he insisted."
At Greenlee's name both Kendall and Bianca groaned and even Miranda let out a shriek...
"Well, Miranda says that we promise to be good... As long as you two promise to go through with it... Or else, you two will have to answer to your granddaughter!" Bianca laughed, she hadn't seen her mother this happy in so long. "Oh, don't you worry about that... I am not going to let this woman out of my sight... Until after wedding!" Jackson reached over and quickly kissed a startled Erica on the lips.
Things couldn't have been more perfect... except at that moment all the nausea and dizziness that Kendall had been fighting came back with a venegance...
She ran out of the room and barely made it to the bathroom.
"Sweetheart, are you ok?" Erica was concerned for her eldest daugther's flight from the living room.
"Yeah, I am fine... I just think... I might have a stomach bug or something... don't let Bianca come near me... I might give it to her or Miranda..."
"Ok... honey, I am going to the kitchen to get you some ice water ok... you just stay there... and I'll get Jack to help you to bed..."
Kendall didn't want to move... but having thrown up she was starting to feel a little better.
A concerned Jackson knocked on the door, and calmly peeked in, "Are you ok... Erica said you might need me..."
"I am alright just still a little dizzy... Leave it to me to ruin the big moment..." She laughed feebly and tried to get off the bathroom floor.
"Well, let's just consider that my official roll as father has begun today... and I am going to carry you to your bedroom... ok."
Kendall was so moved by the father comment that she didn't argue. She let Jack tenderly pick her up and carry her to her room. Setting her down he helped her remove her robe and Erica came in carrying a big glass of ice water.
"Ok sweetie, Bianca is going to make you some toast in a bit, but she said you needed to sleep... so I want you to take a sip of this... ok, and try and get some rest." Erica fluttered like a nervous butterfly around her daughter.
"I am so sorry mom... here you are sharing such wonderful news... and I am ruining... I am SO sorry..."
"Oh Kendall, forget about it... you can't help these things... Ok...Jack and I have a lot to do today... the wedding is going to be tomorrow evening... a little soon... but we still have the license... and who needs all those frills... so you have to get some rest and get better ok!" Erica quickly kissed her daughter on the head and walked out of the room leaving Jackson and Kendall staring helplessly after her... She was Erica Kane... they both seemed to say in their heads and smiled.
"Thanks Jack... I mean it... I am so happy for you two!"
Jackson smiled and squeezed Kendall's hand," You get some rest, ok... call if you need anything..."
Kendall's eyes welled up with tears... it was like having a real family... something she hadn't had in a long time.
Shivering she pulled the covers up to her neck and turned over grabbing a pillow to hold close to her... What in the hell was wrong with her?
A little voice in her head whispered.... You know what's wrong dummy... You just can't face it yet...
Kendall closed her eyes as tears ran down her face... she couldn't be... no, it was impossible... she was on the pill... she couldn't be carrying David's child... there was no possible way....
Holding on to that thought like a life-line she closed her eyes and drifted to sleep.