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CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
Kendall sat on the porch... an early morning fog swirled around...
It was eerily quiet... the birds weren't even chirping...
Standing up she tried to go into the house, but the door was locked... someone began to call her name...
"Hello... who's there?" She turned and walked out into the fog... and her housed disappeared....
Suddenly Ryan and Greenlee were standing in front of her... they were smiling... and laughing... obviously in love... at one time it would have been a knife twisting in her heart... but today... it was as if she was seeing it through someone else's eyes...
Walking toward them she called out to them... and then she heard her name coming from behind her...
Swirling around she saw Bianca playing with Miranda on a blanket... She was laughing and talking to her child as if they were the only two left in the world...
And Lena was walking up to them and sitting down next to them... they looked like the perfect family... so happy... but again when she started to walk towards them the fog swallowed them up...
Starting to panic she tried to reach them... but came up with air...
This time she heard laughter behind her and she turned around...
It was Babe and JR... they were playing with a blonde haired boy... he was chasing a ball... and they were happy...
Everyone was so happy... but she was standing out in the cold... alone in a place that was unfamiliar...
And then she saw her mother and Jackson standing and staring into the distance... they were holding hands and talking softly... smiling and leaning on one another...
Kendall needed her mother and she needed to reach her but she couldn't... The fog was getting thicker and thicker and again someone was calling to her... first it was the voice of a little girl and then the voice of a little boy... calling to her and asking her to come and play...
She knew that she had to reach them... if she could then she would be happy... she would be free... and then she saw David... A sense of peace floated over her and she knew that if she could reach him before the fog came then she would be home...
But she wasn't fast enough... she started to cry... Why couldn't she find them? Why couldn't she reach them and tell them how much she needed them and loved them?
Was this was she had done to herself... Was David right to say she was playing with him? Did he really think she was so terrible? That everything they had experienced meant nothing to her...
She knew what she needed to do, but how did she get back...
"She's so pale Jack... why won't she wake up? We have had so little time... does she know how much I love her? We finally have something solid and strong... The hurt and anger is gone... But, is the price I have to pay to be happy... and her baby... I don't know if she could take it... I mean... She blames herself for so much already..."
Erica leaned over and kissed her daughter on the head, "Mother is her sweetheart... I gave you away so long ago... and I never expected this chance to love you and hold you... We were so angry for so long... all that time wasted... When all you wanted was my love? Oh sweet girl... you have my love... you are my love... you and your sister... you are my heart... please wake up..."
Erica turned and let Jackson lead her out of the room... It hurt to see her daughter who had been so strong... a fighter all her life... lying there...
Walking out into the waiting room she was amazed to see it full of people... Simone, Mia and Aidan, Jamie and Maggie, Palmer and Myrtle... JR and Babe...
The thing her daughter wanted most was to be loved... and she was...
Bianca stood up and walked over to her mom, "Is she awake?"
"No... not yet..." Erica wiped a tear from her cheek and smiled at her baby.
"I want to go and see her now..."
Bianca walked into the room... It was so quiet... except for the beeping... it took a moment for her to realize what it was... One was Kendall's heartbeat... steady and strong... and the other was the baby's heart...
Tears began to fall as Bianca walked over to Kendall...
"Do you here that? Kendall, it's your child... your baby is so young... so little... You always fought for me because I was your little sister... and you fought for Miranda because she was too little to fight for herself... Please wake up and fight for your baby... We need you... all of us...You know... David loves you... you need to wake up so he can tell you... don't be scared... Just listen to the heartbeat... follow it home..."
Bianca felt a hand on her shoulder, at first she thought it was David... but turning she looked and it was Ryan. He was staring at Kendall...
"Ryan?" She realized then that Ryan did love her sister... and he was scared for her...
"She is going to make it... Don't worry Ryan... I have to go check on Miranda... Can you stay with her until I get back?" Bianca squeezed his hand and walked away... She couldn't make Kendall's choice for her... she knew that whereever her heart was... it would be where it belonged...
"Hey... Kendall... it's me... Ryan... You sure now how to get to me... you win...ok... I love you... and I can't live without you... You tried to get through to me...and I threw it in your face... Please... let me make it up to you... nothing means anything here without you... Wake up... and yell at me... argue with me... please fight with me... please..."
Greenlee stood outside the door listening to her husband declare his love... and it killed her inside. She thought she had won when he had chosen her... but everyone was right... he would never love her...
Jackson saw his daughter and walked over to her, "Honey... are you ok?"
"Fine... I am fine... you said he would hurt me... you all did... But, I saw something... I saw something that was there... but I was wrong... he is back where he belongs..."
Greenlee turned and walked away... she knew someone else was hurting... and she knew where to find him..."
Kendall felt as if her head was splitting... she could hear someone talking and she tried to tell them that she was ok... that she knew where home was... she knew where she belonged... follow the heartbeat... follow it home...
She heard someone telling her she was a fighter... and another voice telling her to fight... Fight what? She was so tired... she was going to die... and if she had been pregnant, she had probably killed her child...
Why should she fight? When it was so easy to let go why should she keep fighting...
And then she heard another voice... telling her to fight... and all she could think was that she didn't want to fight anymore...
She tried to tell them... but nothing was coming out...
"No... can't fight... I don't want to fight..."
Ryan lifted his head... had he heard her... had she said something...
"Yes Baby... please fight with me... wake up..."
"I don't want to... please let me go..." Kendall didn't know why everyone wanted her to fight... weren't they always telling her that she fought too much... for the wrong reasons...
"I am not going to let you go... we aren't going to let you go..." Ryan grabbed her hand and yelled for the nurse.
"Oh... no... No yelling... please I want to go back to sleep... I want to be with..." Kendall started to drift back into the darkness...
"Ryan? What... what's wrong?" Bianca and Erica came rushing into the room.
Maria ran past him, "What happened?"
"I don't know... she was talking... she wanted me to let her go... She said she couldn't fight..." Ryan looked helplessly at the two women.
"Maria? Is she ok? What is happening?" Erica asked feeling dread creep in.
"I don't know... It looks like she is coming out of it... Her vitals are stable... you just have to let her wake up..."
"And the baby?" Bianca didn't care that Ryan was staring at her like she was crazy... she needed to know... for Kendall...
"It's still too soon to tell... I am sorry..." Maria turned and walked out of the room.
"Baby? What baby? Bianca..." Ryan was scared that he knew the answer.
"David? I knew you would be here... Are you ok?" Greenlee walked up to someone who had once been like a brother to her. She had known he would be at the boathouse... this was the one place where he could think he had once told her... the one place he could be close to Leo... someone they had both loved.
"Sure... I am great..." He said with all the sarcasm he felt.
"I am sorry... I am sorry that you were hurt by her... She doesn't care who she hurts to get what she wants... but it doesn't matter now..." Greenlee put her hand on his shoulder.
"What are you talking about?" David had a feeling that Greenlee had no clue what she was talking about.
"Kendall... don't worry though... she got what she always wanted..." Greenlee felt hurt and anger welling up in her.
"What do you mean? Is Kendall ok?" David was almost scared to ask.
"She's fine... At least if she wakes up she will be... Ryan is with her... just sitting there and waiting for her to wake up..." Greenlee said snidely, "She always manages to pull through no matter who she hurts... always the schemer... using whoever..."
"Shut up! You have no idea who Kendall really is... or what she wants... and I'll be damned if Ryan is the person who is sitting by her side when she wakes up... to tell her that her child..."
"Wait... David... you lost me... all the sudden you are her champion..."
"Yes... I am and I am the father of her child..." David pulled away and started to walk towards his car.
Greenlee started laughing, "Oh... that's rich... she told you she was pregnant... Come on! You can't be serious... this is just her way to pull Ryan in... and let me guess he could also be the father..."
"You know... I used to think you were pretty smart... but... I was SO wrong... You are SO wrong... let me give you something to think about in that bitter little mind of yours... Kendall doesn't even know she pregnant... and as for Ryan being the father... over my dead body..." Leaving Greenlee to her own company he strode off... He may not have fought for her before... but he sure as hell would now... Everything he ever wanted was with her... laughter... mischief... his child... his heart...
Greenlee stared out into the water... was she becoming the woman she had once accused Kendall of being... sitting down she tried to find the person she had once wanted to be... the person that Leo had knew she could be... the person the Ryan had once thought she was.
David couldn't have had a better cue...
"My baby... Lavery... Kendall is carrying my child..."
Turning to Bianca he looked at her with all the fear he felt, "At least I hope she still is..."
Bianca smiled... seeing David here she knew that she had been right... deep in her heart she knew that he was the one that would make Kendall happy... she just hoped that her sister would realize it.
"David... Listen... just listen..." Bianca took his hand...
The room was silent except for the beeping of the machines...
"I don't hear anything but the machines... what?" David looked around in confusion.
Ryan couldn't say anything... he just sat watching his dreams with Kendall slowly fade before his eyes...
"You will... just have faith... if you really believe... you will hear what I did... I heard they're hearts David... Kendall's and your baby's... All they have to do is follow the sound... all we all have to do is follow that... and they will come home to us..."
David smiled at Bianca... he had always thought she was amazing... but now it was confirmed...
Walking over he stood by Kendall's bed, "Follow the heartbeat... come back to us... I will make it up to you... everything is going to be ok..."
He felt tears fill his eyes...
Erica motioned to Bianca to follow her out, and Bianca took Ryan's hand to get him to follow.
He wanted to argue, but he couldn't... this was something they could work out when she woke up.
Taking the seat that Ryan had recently occupied he sat down and for the first time in longer than he could remember he prayed... silent tears streaming down his face...
Kendall slowly opened her eyes to see him crying and holding her hand... as if it were his last connection to life.
She heard a few words... but couldn't quite focus on what he was saying... she thought she heard lost... and then she managed to make out the word baby... and panic started to fill her... had she lost their child...
"The baby... oh David... I lost the baby didn't I...? I didn't even give him a chance... I am so sorry..."
David's head shot up at the sound of her quiet voice.
Tears were streaming down her face... as she tried to cope with the loss of her baby...
"Oh... Kendall... No... no... the baby is still here... listen... listen with your heart and you will hear it... it's heartbeat is strong... The baby is fine... I promise..." David didn't know how he could keep that promise, but he would make heaven and hell move to make sure it was true...
"I hear it... I hear it... it's beating so fast..." Kendall calmed down and squeezed his hand... and smiled.
Then she closed her eyes and knew that she was safe... the fog couldn't touch her...
She didn't need to explain... she didn't need to tell him...
But, David knew... he knew as sure as he knew that he loved her... everything would be ok...
It wasn't what she said, or didn't say... it was how she looked at him right now... how she had looked at him when she had said that she had heard the heartbeat of their unborn child.
They were going to be ok... and as she drifted to sleep he said a prayer of thanks and added one for his unborn child... hoping with all this heart that his promise hadn't been a lie....
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
Kendall sat on the porch... an early morning fog swirled around...
It was eerily quiet... the birds weren't even chirping...
Standing up she tried to go into the house, but the door was locked... someone began to call her name...
"Hello... who's there?" She turned and walked out into the fog... and her housed disappeared....
Suddenly Ryan and Greenlee were standing in front of her... they were smiling... and laughing... obviously in love... at one time it would have been a knife twisting in her heart... but today... it was as if she was seeing it through someone else's eyes...
Walking toward them she called out to them... and then she heard her name coming from behind her...
Swirling around she saw Bianca playing with Miranda on a blanket... She was laughing and talking to her child as if they were the only two left in the world...
And Lena was walking up to them and sitting down next to them... they looked like the perfect family... so happy... but again when she started to walk towards them the fog swallowed them up...
Starting to panic she tried to reach them... but came up with air...
This time she heard laughter behind her and she turned around...
It was Babe and JR... they were playing with a blonde haired boy... he was chasing a ball... and they were happy...
Everyone was so happy... but she was standing out in the cold... alone in a place that was unfamiliar...
And then she saw her mother and Jackson standing and staring into the distance... they were holding hands and talking softly... smiling and leaning on one another...
Kendall needed her mother and she needed to reach her but she couldn't... The fog was getting thicker and thicker and again someone was calling to her... first it was the voice of a little girl and then the voice of a little boy... calling to her and asking her to come and play...
She knew that she had to reach them... if she could then she would be happy... she would be free... and then she saw David... A sense of peace floated over her and she knew that if she could reach him before the fog came then she would be home...
But she wasn't fast enough... she started to cry... Why couldn't she find them? Why couldn't she reach them and tell them how much she needed them and loved them?
Was this was she had done to herself... Was David right to say she was playing with him? Did he really think she was so terrible? That everything they had experienced meant nothing to her...
She knew what she needed to do, but how did she get back...
"She's so pale Jack... why won't she wake up? We have had so little time... does she know how much I love her? We finally have something solid and strong... The hurt and anger is gone... But, is the price I have to pay to be happy... and her baby... I don't know if she could take it... I mean... She blames herself for so much already..."
Erica leaned over and kissed her daughter on the head, "Mother is her sweetheart... I gave you away so long ago... and I never expected this chance to love you and hold you... We were so angry for so long... all that time wasted... When all you wanted was my love? Oh sweet girl... you have my love... you are my love... you and your sister... you are my heart... please wake up..."
Erica turned and let Jackson lead her out of the room... It hurt to see her daughter who had been so strong... a fighter all her life... lying there...
Walking out into the waiting room she was amazed to see it full of people... Simone, Mia and Aidan, Jamie and Maggie, Palmer and Myrtle... JR and Babe...
The thing her daughter wanted most was to be loved... and she was...
Bianca stood up and walked over to her mom, "Is she awake?"
"No... not yet..." Erica wiped a tear from her cheek and smiled at her baby.
"I want to go and see her now..."
Bianca walked into the room... It was so quiet... except for the beeping... it took a moment for her to realize what it was... One was Kendall's heartbeat... steady and strong... and the other was the baby's heart...
Tears began to fall as Bianca walked over to Kendall...
"Do you here that? Kendall, it's your child... your baby is so young... so little... You always fought for me because I was your little sister... and you fought for Miranda because she was too little to fight for herself... Please wake up and fight for your baby... We need you... all of us...You know... David loves you... you need to wake up so he can tell you... don't be scared... Just listen to the heartbeat... follow it home..."
Bianca felt a hand on her shoulder, at first she thought it was David... but turning she looked and it was Ryan. He was staring at Kendall...
"Ryan?" She realized then that Ryan did love her sister... and he was scared for her...
"She is going to make it... Don't worry Ryan... I have to go check on Miranda... Can you stay with her until I get back?" Bianca squeezed his hand and walked away... She couldn't make Kendall's choice for her... she knew that whereever her heart was... it would be where it belonged...
"Hey... Kendall... it's me... Ryan... You sure now how to get to me... you win...ok... I love you... and I can't live without you... You tried to get through to me...and I threw it in your face... Please... let me make it up to you... nothing means anything here without you... Wake up... and yell at me... argue with me... please fight with me... please..."
Greenlee stood outside the door listening to her husband declare his love... and it killed her inside. She thought she had won when he had chosen her... but everyone was right... he would never love her...
Jackson saw his daughter and walked over to her, "Honey... are you ok?"
"Fine... I am fine... you said he would hurt me... you all did... But, I saw something... I saw something that was there... but I was wrong... he is back where he belongs..."
Greenlee turned and walked away... she knew someone else was hurting... and she knew where to find him..."
Kendall felt as if her head was splitting... she could hear someone talking and she tried to tell them that she was ok... that she knew where home was... she knew where she belonged... follow the heartbeat... follow it home...
She heard someone telling her she was a fighter... and another voice telling her to fight... Fight what? She was so tired... she was going to die... and if she had been pregnant, she had probably killed her child...
Why should she fight? When it was so easy to let go why should she keep fighting...
And then she heard another voice... telling her to fight... and all she could think was that she didn't want to fight anymore...
She tried to tell them... but nothing was coming out...
"No... can't fight... I don't want to fight..."
Ryan lifted his head... had he heard her... had she said something...
"Yes Baby... please fight with me... wake up..."
"I don't want to... please let me go..." Kendall didn't know why everyone wanted her to fight... weren't they always telling her that she fought too much... for the wrong reasons...
"I am not going to let you go... we aren't going to let you go..." Ryan grabbed her hand and yelled for the nurse.
"Oh... no... No yelling... please I want to go back to sleep... I want to be with..." Kendall started to drift back into the darkness...
"Ryan? What... what's wrong?" Bianca and Erica came rushing into the room.
Maria ran past him, "What happened?"
"I don't know... she was talking... she wanted me to let her go... She said she couldn't fight..." Ryan looked helplessly at the two women.
"Maria? Is she ok? What is happening?" Erica asked feeling dread creep in.
"I don't know... It looks like she is coming out of it... Her vitals are stable... you just have to let her wake up..."
"And the baby?" Bianca didn't care that Ryan was staring at her like she was crazy... she needed to know... for Kendall...
"It's still too soon to tell... I am sorry..." Maria turned and walked out of the room.
"Baby? What baby? Bianca..." Ryan was scared that he knew the answer.
"David? I knew you would be here... Are you ok?" Greenlee walked up to someone who had once been like a brother to her. She had known he would be at the boathouse... this was the one place where he could think he had once told her... the one place he could be close to Leo... someone they had both loved.
"Sure... I am great..." He said with all the sarcasm he felt.
"I am sorry... I am sorry that you were hurt by her... She doesn't care who she hurts to get what she wants... but it doesn't matter now..." Greenlee put her hand on his shoulder.
"What are you talking about?" David had a feeling that Greenlee had no clue what she was talking about.
"Kendall... don't worry though... she got what she always wanted..." Greenlee felt hurt and anger welling up in her.
"What do you mean? Is Kendall ok?" David was almost scared to ask.
"She's fine... At least if she wakes up she will be... Ryan is with her... just sitting there and waiting for her to wake up..." Greenlee said snidely, "She always manages to pull through no matter who she hurts... always the schemer... using whoever..."
"Shut up! You have no idea who Kendall really is... or what she wants... and I'll be damned if Ryan is the person who is sitting by her side when she wakes up... to tell her that her child..."
"Wait... David... you lost me... all the sudden you are her champion..."
"Yes... I am and I am the father of her child..." David pulled away and started to walk towards his car.
Greenlee started laughing, "Oh... that's rich... she told you she was pregnant... Come on! You can't be serious... this is just her way to pull Ryan in... and let me guess he could also be the father..."
"You know... I used to think you were pretty smart... but... I was SO wrong... You are SO wrong... let me give you something to think about in that bitter little mind of yours... Kendall doesn't even know she pregnant... and as for Ryan being the father... over my dead body..." Leaving Greenlee to her own company he strode off... He may not have fought for her before... but he sure as hell would now... Everything he ever wanted was with her... laughter... mischief... his child... his heart...
Greenlee stared out into the water... was she becoming the woman she had once accused Kendall of being... sitting down she tried to find the person she had once wanted to be... the person that Leo had knew she could be... the person the Ryan had once thought she was.
David couldn't have had a better cue...
"My baby... Lavery... Kendall is carrying my child..."
Turning to Bianca he looked at her with all the fear he felt, "At least I hope she still is..."
Bianca smiled... seeing David here she knew that she had been right... deep in her heart she knew that he was the one that would make Kendall happy... she just hoped that her sister would realize it.
"David... Listen... just listen..." Bianca took his hand...
The room was silent except for the beeping of the machines...
"I don't hear anything but the machines... what?" David looked around in confusion.
Ryan couldn't say anything... he just sat watching his dreams with Kendall slowly fade before his eyes...
"You will... just have faith... if you really believe... you will hear what I did... I heard they're hearts David... Kendall's and your baby's... All they have to do is follow the sound... all we all have to do is follow that... and they will come home to us..."
David smiled at Bianca... he had always thought she was amazing... but now it was confirmed...
Walking over he stood by Kendall's bed, "Follow the heartbeat... come back to us... I will make it up to you... everything is going to be ok..."
He felt tears fill his eyes...
Erica motioned to Bianca to follow her out, and Bianca took Ryan's hand to get him to follow.
He wanted to argue, but he couldn't... this was something they could work out when she woke up.
Taking the seat that Ryan had recently occupied he sat down and for the first time in longer than he could remember he prayed... silent tears streaming down his face...
Kendall slowly opened her eyes to see him crying and holding her hand... as if it were his last connection to life.
She heard a few words... but couldn't quite focus on what he was saying... she thought she heard lost... and then she managed to make out the word baby... and panic started to fill her... had she lost their child...
"The baby... oh David... I lost the baby didn't I...? I didn't even give him a chance... I am so sorry..."
David's head shot up at the sound of her quiet voice.
Tears were streaming down her face... as she tried to cope with the loss of her baby...
"Oh... Kendall... No... no... the baby is still here... listen... listen with your heart and you will hear it... it's heartbeat is strong... The baby is fine... I promise..." David didn't know how he could keep that promise, but he would make heaven and hell move to make sure it was true...
"I hear it... I hear it... it's beating so fast..." Kendall calmed down and squeezed his hand... and smiled.
Then she closed her eyes and knew that she was safe... the fog couldn't touch her...
She didn't need to explain... she didn't need to tell him...
But, David knew... he knew as sure as he knew that he loved her... everything would be ok...
It wasn't what she said, or didn't say... it was how she looked at him right now... how she had looked at him when she had said that she had heard the heartbeat of their unborn child.
They were going to be ok... and as she drifted to sleep he said a prayer of thanks and added one for his unborn child... hoping with all this heart that his promise hadn't been a lie....