Title:
Stars
Summary: Calleigh sees something... but what did she see. I
suck at summaries lol.
Rating: PG
Calleigh sat
and watched the sun dip behind the buildings, the light disappear
behind the mangled horizon and her mind wandered to what had
disappeared from her life.
If something has never been does it
disappear?
Yes... it was too sad a thought to let it simply be a
path never taken. That took away from what it could have been.
The
broken soul she hid so well escaped at nights, when there was no one
to hide it from but herself.
When everything was quite and she was
alone, the cracks that were always there showed and the smile she
used so well to hide them from the world would go away.
Calleigh
loved sitting here on the fire escape.
She wouldn't recommend it
but she loved being here, alone, with no ones eyes to pry.
She had
always loved the stars.
When she was little she had watched them
trail across the sky and now 'all grown up' it had a calming
effect.
It helped put things in perspective when she watched these
great giants that were here long before her, shine.
These great
giants that would be here long after she was gone.
They were
reliable and no one person could put out there light.
She gave a
loud sigh.
She normally cried here.
But tonight tears wouldn't
come.
They weren't appropriate.
It wasn't that she cried
because something was wrong... It just got to her.
The world.
And
tonight something was wrong...
Something that seemed so big to her
was wrong.
But as she looked at the starts she knew she didn't
have to cry.
So many things bigger than this were fixable...
Every
day she talked to them, her 'friends' and they talked back, she
held conversations with each of them she smiled and laughed and they
all thought they knew her.
They didn't, but she had thought he
had.
It wasn't fair.
They never looked further, under her
surface.
He did.
With him she didn't have to ask he just
knew.
Not one of them saw the trails the tears left against her
checks.
Of course she never let them.
She shouldn't have been
looking... it wasn't her place to see.
She held no claim to him
or his heart...
But she had thought 'they', her and Horatio
had just been inevitable.
There was a knock at the door.
She
didn't want to answer it.
Wouldn't have... But whoever it was
just wouldn't give up.
As she climbed awkwardly through the open
window, she was glad she hadn't let the tears come.
"Hello."
She opened the door, leaving the chain on.
It was Horatio.
She
couldn't even smile she was so shocked.
"Hello Calleigh, may I
come in?" he said it softly.
How could she say no?
She shut
the door slowly, bringing her head out of the fog that had descended
upon her.
He walked in and stood in front of her, neither were
sure quite what to say.
"Yelina's leaving." It was a
statement, no doubt but she didn't know what to say.
"Oh."
That was all she could muster.
He didn't say anything else... he
looked nervous.
"Why?"
"You." He answered too quickly.
Something was there in her voice... it wasn't an accusation, he
wasn't angry...
Well what did that mean?
"Oh."
They
had seemed rather chummy today... but she didn't know... it was
only a hug... a glimpse of a kiss, maybe she had taken it out of
context.
She gave a small laugh and a nervous smile appeared on
her lip.
His eyes were looking past her now and she couldn't
help wounder what he was thinking about.
"When is she
leaving?"
"She's gone." She wanted to say 'oh' but
didn't, she just stayed quite. She didn't know why he was
here...
He suddenly focused on her. "Would you like to have
dinner?"
"Yes?" this was to strange.
His gaze fell to the
ground.
She hadn't sounded enthusiastic.
"Would you like a
drink?"
"No that's fine." He turned to leave.
"Horatio,
why is Yelina leaving?"
He sighed.
This was insane!
"Because
I told her that I didn't have feelings for her... well that's not
the reason on her resignation but it's the truth."
"You
don't?" she cared far more about that then when Yelina was
leaving.
"No." well he wasn't making this easy damb it!
"You
wanna come look at the stars?"
"With you? More than anything
else."
