Okay, I had someone say that what Travis did was totally unlike him
and she no longer likes my story and you know what I have to say to
that? Bite me! This is TWO YEARS later, Travis can
change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Frankly I don't care if she never reads this
again because if she can't deal with that she'll hate what's coming
up.
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Chapter Nineteen
Ray had left a long time ago. I was sitting alone in my hospital room with noting but a CD player and a case full of CD's. I picked out my N.E.R.D cd. I know it's a total pop/rap cd but I just love it. I scanned for number six, Breakout. It was a somewhat sad song and fits perfectly with my mood. As the song played on repeat I let the tears flow freely down my face. During the middle of the song I heard a knock on the closed door. I figured it must be Robbie so I got quite a shock when I saw Travis enter.
"What are you doing here?" I winced at how hurtful I sounded.
"I wanted to see how you were doing. Lily I..." I decided to cut him off.
"Travis, you know how I'm doing. I know-I know it was you...outside my door when I was talking to Ray." My voice broke with the tears. "So what are you really here for?"
"Lily...is this, is this because of me?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Did you blackout because of me? Is this all my fault?" I saw small tears forming in his eyes. My heart ached to wipe them away. Instead of the small heart-wrenching tears that had been on my cheeks only moments earlier, my face was sopping wet from the flood of tears that were flowing down my face.
"I don't want to think that! I don't want to put the blame on you! Travis, kissing Ray was the biggest...mistake of my life. I regret more and more...every time I look at you...because all I can think about...is the look on you...face when you threw the lily at me. Travis, I just want to be happy! And...the only way I can be happy...is if I'm with you!" My voice kept breaking and my voice was hoarse, but the message got out and that's all that matters.
"I can't. I can't take you back Lily." He scrunched his eyes together as he paused and let the tears fall. "I already gave you a second chance. And you kissed Ray. I know you wish you could take it back but you can't. Some part of you must have wanted it since you didn't object. Mess up once, it's and accident; screw up twice, it's your fault. It's so hard not to forgive you because...I still love you...but what you did hurt way more than this. I'm sorry. I just...I have to go." He quickly turned around and walked out of the room. Blood was not reaching my face. I cried into my hands. A few minutes Robbie came into my room. I blurted out the entire thing.
"Why, why, why? Why me? Why is this happening to me? I can't believe I was so stupid! I just lost...the best thing that ever happened to me. If only he knew...if only he knew he saved me. Robbie, I was going to... Robbie...please help me? Please!!!" As I sat and cried into Robbie's shoulder I saw something outside my door. Travis ran past my room with tears in his eyes.
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Chapter Nineteen
Ray had left a long time ago. I was sitting alone in my hospital room with noting but a CD player and a case full of CD's. I picked out my N.E.R.D cd. I know it's a total pop/rap cd but I just love it. I scanned for number six, Breakout. It was a somewhat sad song and fits perfectly with my mood. As the song played on repeat I let the tears flow freely down my face. During the middle of the song I heard a knock on the closed door. I figured it must be Robbie so I got quite a shock when I saw Travis enter.
"What are you doing here?" I winced at how hurtful I sounded.
"I wanted to see how you were doing. Lily I..." I decided to cut him off.
"Travis, you know how I'm doing. I know-I know it was you...outside my door when I was talking to Ray." My voice broke with the tears. "So what are you really here for?"
"Lily...is this, is this because of me?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Did you blackout because of me? Is this all my fault?" I saw small tears forming in his eyes. My heart ached to wipe them away. Instead of the small heart-wrenching tears that had been on my cheeks only moments earlier, my face was sopping wet from the flood of tears that were flowing down my face.
"I don't want to think that! I don't want to put the blame on you! Travis, kissing Ray was the biggest...mistake of my life. I regret more and more...every time I look at you...because all I can think about...is the look on you...face when you threw the lily at me. Travis, I just want to be happy! And...the only way I can be happy...is if I'm with you!" My voice kept breaking and my voice was hoarse, but the message got out and that's all that matters.
"I can't. I can't take you back Lily." He scrunched his eyes together as he paused and let the tears fall. "I already gave you a second chance. And you kissed Ray. I know you wish you could take it back but you can't. Some part of you must have wanted it since you didn't object. Mess up once, it's and accident; screw up twice, it's your fault. It's so hard not to forgive you because...I still love you...but what you did hurt way more than this. I'm sorry. I just...I have to go." He quickly turned around and walked out of the room. Blood was not reaching my face. I cried into my hands. A few minutes Robbie came into my room. I blurted out the entire thing.
"Why, why, why? Why me? Why is this happening to me? I can't believe I was so stupid! I just lost...the best thing that ever happened to me. If only he knew...if only he knew he saved me. Robbie, I was going to... Robbie...please help me? Please!!!" As I sat and cried into Robbie's shoulder I saw something outside my door. Travis ran past my room with tears in his eyes.