Chapter Twenty-Seven
Why Can't I Stop Kissing You
Travis clutched me tighter than I thought possible. I could feel his body trembling as he cried. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him tight. Ray came over and rubbed my back. Half an hour later wee were sitting on top of the table talking. Travis told stories of his relationship and how he had always felt neglected by her.
"I mean she didn't even come to my birthday!" At his comment I looked up at him. His eyes were on mine. I knew what he was thinking. I was glad Ray had left a few minutes ago. It gave Travis and I a chance to talk. The only problem was we didn't talk. We cried. We went back to our position of holding each other and crying, it was sadly pathetic. I leaned up and kissed Travis on the cheek. We looked at each other for a moment before our lips met. I felt a rush of happiness; it had been so long since I had kissed him. But the next thing I knew he pulled away and stared at me with a look of shock.
"I can't do this. Not again, I won't! I have a girlfriend, I can't do this to her. I can't believe this is the second time I've had a girlfriend and I've cheated on her with you!" I looked dumbfound at him. I had no idea he had a girlfriend. I watched helplessly as he walked out the door. Once I regained my thoughts I ran after him. I caught up with him in the park. He was sitting on a swing. I couldn't tell if he was crying because a heavy rain was pouring but I figured that's what it was.
"Are you serious? Are you really dating someone?" He looked up at me and I saw that he really was crying. I walked up to him and wiped away his tears. It didn't really matter with the rain but it was a nice gesture.
"Yah, we started going out this afternoon. I've know her for awhile and...she asked me out and I said yes." I looked him up and down. Plaid shirt, denim jeans, army green jacket, this was still the same Travis. No matter how much he pretended to be this macho man he would always be the Travis I had spent high school so far with.
"W-what's her name?"
"Um...Lily, don't pretend you're happy for me because I know you're not." I looked at the floor in shame and then looked back at him. I was so close yet...so far.
"I really want to know, it just...Travis, don't you realize that this is my fault. I set you free in a way. I made you comfortable. Too comfortable." I paused and let the words really sink in. "But that's besides the point, what's her name?"
"Alexandria Renee, she lives around the corner from my house and I've know her since freshman year. She's a year younger than us." My heart plummeted into my stomach. So it was true, she wasn't just made up. Once again I had lost my chance.