You guys are gonna hate me for this chapter, but oh well there was nothing I could do. I'm sorry, I truly am, but I am just a slave to the story, after the first page the story takes on a life of its own and I can only write what it tells me... anyway, ENJOY!

Chapter 30

Why?

It was as if everything began to move in slow motion, or perhaps everything was moving at the same speed, but she was moving in slow motion. She ran towards her love and the man that had held her captive and she realized she would never make it there in time. She saw Morgead's arm raise slightly, sword held just above Jack's head. She was too far away. Thunder sounded in the sky, black clouds were beginning to form.

"Jack," she screamed, and she realized then that she was crying. Jack looked over at her, a look of shocked surprise upon his face. Time seemed to speed up then and Morgead's sword fell. She cried out, but stopped as she saw Jack dodge and grab Morgead's arm. He tried to get the sword from Morgead's hand but he proved too strong. The ocean began to roll and waves began to crash harder against the two ships.

Jack kicked him in the ass and Morgead went flailing towards the side of the ship. He hit the rail and caught his balance, but Jack kept up his attack. Morgead had just enough time to turn around before Jack punched him in the nose. She had made it to him by this point and she blinked as lightning split the sky, the wind was blowing so hard her hair was flying everywhere and she locked her legs to keep from being blown away.

"Saihrena," he whispered as she neared him. He pulled her to him and kissed her, it was a quick kiss, but it was filled with so much passion and love that it sent her reeling. She stood back as Morgead charged at Jack. Jack stepped aside and tripped him. He then kicked Morgead back to the rail and pushed him hard. Morgead's arms were flailing as he began to fall over the side. She smirked as he looked at her for help. Something was wrong though, Saihrena watched in horror as Morgead grabbed Jack and pulled him over the side of the ship. The sky was black and a drop of rain splashed against her cheek.

"Man overboard," Saihrena screamed. She ran to the rail and looked over, but neither man could be seen in the churning water below. She tried to jump in but someone pulled her back.

"Saihrena it's beginnin te rain, if ye go in there durin a storm I dun't think ye'll come out. Let me," Ana Maria said from behind her as she tied a rope around herself. Saihrena prayed for her love as the waves crashed against the ships. The waves were growing larger and a few were beginning to crash on the deck of the ship she was on.

"Find him Ana," she whispered as her friends dark head disappeared below the surface.

The crew of the Black Pearl was in mourning, but none as much as Saihrena. She was laying in her bed, hers and Jacks, crying. She didn't know what to do without him.

Ana had stayed in the water for what seemed like hours, though it was more like fifteen minutes. She had gone under countless times and swam around the ship. She couldn't find either of them. After the sharks appeared, undoubtedly drawn by the countless carcasses that had accidentally fallen in, the search had been given up and Jack was presumed dead. So she cried. There was nothing else to do, nowhere to go on this ship that didn't remind her of him so she embraced it, she lay in his cabin on his bed without him, where he would never be again.

"Saihrena?" A female voice said at the door. She didn't answer.

"Rena please let us in," a different more familiar voice said. "Fine, we're coming in whether you like it or not." The door burst open and she looked up to see Elizabeth and Kasha coming in, a determined look upon their faces.

"Saihrena you can't sit in here and cry for the rest of your life," Liz said laying a hand on her back.

"I know it hasn't been long, only a few hours, but we need you, and you need us Rena. Please don't do this to yourself. Jack wouldn't want everyone teary eyed and heart broken," Kasha said.

"So what am I supposed to do? Go on with my life as if nothing had changed?" Saihrena whispered.

"No, you are supposed to go on with your life happily, knowing that Jack died to save you. Live Saihrena, just live," Kasha said. "We are having rights for the dead, Gibbs is performing them. Come with us?" Saihrena looked from Liz to Kasha and nodded slightly before she realized Elizabeth was standing in front of her.

"Liz you're okay," she burst out, embracing her friend. Liz and Kasha burst out laughing.

"I'm fine, and there's more good news. Gabriella is awake," Liz said excitedly. "She can't leave her bed yet but when you're feeling up to it you can visit her."

Saihrena nodded, "I'd like that," she whispered, happier that they were there together. "If you wait a moment I'll change and we can go." The two girls nodded excitedly and helped Saihrena to her feet. She smiled slightly in thanks, a smile that didn't reach her eyes.

She walked to the chest at the end of the bed and opened it slowly. Glancing in she saw everything was there as if it had never been touched. She pulled out a beautiful black silk dress. It had black roses embroidered on the hem and the sleeves, and black lace at the collar. She undressed and washed her face in the basin on Jack's desk, then slipped the dress over her head. "Can someone button up the back?" She asked.

Elizabeth came over and buttoned the dress quickly. "There you go," Liz said when she had finished.

Liz and Kasha took her arm and walked her out of Jack's cabin slowly and onto deck. Everyone turned to look at them as they exited. Every pirate of the Black Pearl was on deck, except Gabriella who was too weak to leave her room. Every man that wore a hat took it off and placed it over their heart, then bowed to her. She stopped in surprise at this act of respect. She realized belatedly that they weren't giving her respect because she was a princess, but because she had been Jack's beloved.

Tears sprang to her eyes at this devoted act; they had all loved Jack and looked up to him like a father, a brother, a son, a best friend. He was gone now and soon another man would be picked for Captain. Gibbs cleared his throat and they all turned to him.

"Saihrena if ye could join me 'ere?" He asked. They were going to treat her as if she were his wife. She stifled a sob at that thought because now she would never be his wife. She held her head up high and walked to the starboard side of the Pearl where Gibbs stood. Jack had disappeared in the water at the point which they now stood. She looked over the rail and saw the sharks still circling the bloody water.

"Pirate crew o the Black Pearl, this is as sad a occasion as we ever saw aboard the Pearl," Gibbs started, taking Saihrena's hand in his warm grasp. "We 'ave lost friends, brothers, even sons te the depths that is Davy Jones locker, but today we 'ave lost more then that. We lost a leader, a friend, a lover, and the best Captain ever te sail these waters. We pray te any God that will listen te a bunch o pirates that Jack's soul rest in piece, 'e was a good man, a good friend, and the best pirate."

Tears were falling down her cheeks as Gibbs spoke, his words mirroring her thoughts and everyone aboard. She stepped to the side and looked over trying to see him in the water, to see anything. All that was there were sharks. She let her tears hit the ocean water below her, that being all she could give him, that and her undying love. Jack was gone forever.

Oh, I hope that wasn't too harsh for you all, though I must admit tears were falling down my cheeks as I wrote this. No, this is not the end, do not worry! I got my 12 reviews a little while ago so I put this up. Thank you all for your reviews, especially those that hadn't reviewed yet and finally did so. Keep it up! Let's get me to 200, what do you say? Don't worry again, I will update before I get to 200, probably this weekend. Well Review!!!