"Fall"
by Sara Jaye
My first Fushigi Yuugi ficlet in ages! :o I need to get back into this fandom, I miss writing for it. XD Anyway...this isn't much. Just some Amiboshi angst. Spoilers for up to episode 24.
(Fushigi Yuugi belongs to Watase Yuu, not me. I'm just borrowing the characters for awhile.)
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It is all my fault.The summoning ceremony is ruined. Everyone is angry and disappointed.
She is crushed. All her hard work, sacrifices and preparations had been for nothing.
And it is all my fault.
They believed in me. Every lie, every note I played, every moment spent with them...I was one of them. They cared about me, and I was forced to betray their trust.
By all rights, I should have been pleased with myself. Technically, they are my enemies, aren't they? I should have continued playing my demonic melodies and split their heads.
But I couldn't. For the life of me, I just couldn't bring myself to let them die. I was so relieved when that pitch broke my spell and saved them.
I ran. They followed.
Now I dangle over the swollen river. The girl I just tried to harm is grasping the other end of my flute.
She wants to save me. Even after all I did, she wants to save me.
She still calls me "Chiriko".
Why?
I just tried to kill you. I ruined everything you worked so hard for...why do you want to save me?
I don't deserve to be saved.
I don't deserve to live.
But dying would mean hurting yet another person. Someone I promised to return to after my mission was complete.
'Suboshi...'
Can I really break my promise?
My eyes drift back to the angry bandit and fighter standing behind the priestess.
...I can't...not anymore...
I look into her beautiful green eyes, my own filling with tears.
"Chiriko..." she whispers.
Lady Miaka...why? I want to ask, but my voice refuses to cooperate.
I look sadly at her.
I can't...I can't live like this anymore.
I close my eyes, and slowly release my grip on the flute. The water rushes at me as I begin to fall. My thoughts drift back to the one I left behind, one last time.
'Suboshi...I'm sorry...'
The icy waters embrace me, and I feel no more.
-End-
The strange thing is...I can actually memorize most of that scene, anime or manga. :o