Ray walked away from me. Angry at what I'd just told him. That I loved him. Angry at me for not telling him before. Angry at me for putting him in a situation that he didn't need right now.
"How can you make me choose between you and Mariah?" he yelled at me, "you know I've got too many things to deal with already!"
"I'm sorry Ray. I had to tell you," I apologised.
"Kai, you normally think about these things, but...why now?"
When I tried to answer he turned his back to me head bowed, fists clenched. I knew he was angry so I gave up, he wouldn't listen now, maybe later. "I don't know," I finished lamely. The look he gave me then, he's gold eyes flashing dangerously and I knew I just made a mistake.
Then he walked away.
Into the road.
Into a bus.
/I pray you've heard /
The words I've spoken/
And here I am now in the hospital saying little like I usually do.
But you lay there uncomprehending.
/Dare to believe /
For one last time/
I hope you'll move, show some sign of life before I leave. Your mother and father are here. The rest of the bladebreakers are outside the room we're in.
I leave them outside the hospital, I know that they're worrying about me, but I don't care.
/And then I'll let the/
Darkness cover me/
I round the corner and tears spring to my eyes
I'm supposed to be the cold, unfeeling one I remind myself.
"Kai," Max touches my shoulder, I shrug it off and leave them again.
/Deny everything //Slowly walk away/
/To breathe again/
/On my own/
I can't stand to be around anyone. They're all so suffocating, trying to talk to me constantly, not like you Ray...
/Carry me away //I needed your strength
/To get me through this/
I remember when Tala was ill. You were there for me Ray, you know about my weak side and only you. Only you know how much I really care. Now who knows who can help me?
Years later
I've come to see you again. Mariah's doing well, she's engaged now but I know she still misses you, like we all do. When I think I've gotten over this I realise I haven't and I can't bear it.
I sit with you, knowing what's going to happen.
/Dare to believe/
/For one last time/
They've given up on you. I haven't and I never will.
I can't watch.
/And then I'll let the//Darkness cover me/
/Deny everything/
/Slowly walk away/
/To breathe again/
/On my own/
/On my own/