DISCLAIMERS: I don't own Gundam Wing or the characters. I do own Liana and
other future original characters but that's it, I don't own anything else,
much to my own dismay *sobs*
A.N. I know the story is moving slowly but it will go faster after this. Also the beginning of this chapter is Heero thinking about things, mainly Relena, the same night as in the chapter before.
The Perfect Life
By Stardust
Chapter 8
Everyone had gone to sleep long ago, or so he thought, but his mind wouldn't let him rest. Thisbe. What had made him call his Gundam that? Was it because of Relena? Relena. He had always wondered why him. Why had he survived but all those innocents died? How could a weapon outlast its creator? He would have gladly given up his life to save another's. If it would rid his soul of its heavy weight, he would do anything. He was sure no one would understand how he felt, because no one had committed as many wrongs as he had, not even his fellow pilots. They had avoided killing as much as they could but he would kill indiscriminately as long as he completed his mission. Now that the war was over, and his mind no longer filled with missions, he felt the weight of all his crimes upon his soul. He had killed more people than he cared to count. The blood of countless souls bathed his hands. And through all of it Relena had been his light. Admittedly at the beginning he really did hate her even thought of her as an obstacle for his mission. By the end of the war she had become his first and most important mission, to protect her life by any means necessary. But now that he had lost her he realized just how important she was. Not only to the world and peace but to him and to his life. He realized now that she had done everything everyone else hadn't. She had stayed with him, even when he had told her to go, through everything. She had believed, when no one else would have, in him and in what he could do. But above all she had had hope in him. Hope that he wasn't only the Perfect Soldier but also Heero, a simple human being. To everyone else he was a soldier, more a weapon than a human being. And yet she believed in him while he was busy breaking her heart. Of course he hadn't meant to do that but back then he had believed it was necessary. If he got too close she would be smeared with blood too. He wouldn't have it. He would not ruin her pureness to relieve his pain. Suddenly her words came back to him. 'People see me as a symbol, a figure, a doll. not as a human with human needs and feelings!!' Indeed before she left he too thought of her as a symbol of peace, a pure snow white dove among dirty ravens. Now, now what he wouldn't give to be able to hold her in his arms and tell her all of the things he wouldn't tell her before. He looked down at his empty hands and longed so much for her warmth that he surprised himself. He knew and could admit to himself that he loved her more than life it self. But she was gone now and by the looks of it she wasn't coming back. He stopped himself from thinking more as he knew it could go on and on for listless hours. It wasn't the first time this had happened. At the beginning, when she had just left, he would spend days just sitting without sleep or food only thinking of his life and what was to come but most of all he thought about her. 'Stop it! And go to sleep.' With that mental order he forced his body to shut down and his mind to rest. In the morning when his mind was refreshed he would remember Nasha's reaction to the name of his Gundam and what it could mean. But for now his dreams were dark and shadowy as they were most of the time.
* * *
Mission Schedule: 0500 Everyone awake and ready. 0730 Be in Gundams and ready to go. 0800 Penetrate enemy base while guard's shift changed.
1000 Meet at their Gundams after their separate missions were
completed.
1200 Be back at Tokyo Base.
But as we all know things usually don't go to plan and fate dislikes to be pressured with mortal schedules.
The first misshapen, as agreed by everyone later, was a complete disaster, and not even an accidental one at that. Duo thought it his duty to prepare breakfast as he was normally the one who would eat the most out of the whole group. No one, not even Hilde, had eaten his cooking before and all were quite curious to know what it would be like. After breakfast it was decided that Duo would eat all he wanted but never put foot in the kitchen again. Not only had he used what seemed to be every plate, pot and skillet within the kitchen but had left the walls and furniture splattered with a grisly combination of unidentifiable substances. Simply cleaning the kitchen, as they couldn't leave the work to their host, had set them back a whole half hour. To say the least Heero was not pleased.
The transportation provided the next set back. Seeing as they would return tired from the mission they couldn't simply walk all the way from the base so they had decided to rent two cars. Heero, Duo, Hilde, Wufei, Sally and Nasha would go in the dark blue van while Trowa, Cathy, Quatre, Dorothy, Zechs and Noin would go in the dark green van. From the time it took them to make their way from the temple to the cars Wufei and Sally had entered a dreadful argument and refused to be in the same car together. The problem came when no one in the other car would change places with Wufei or Sally. Battle broke out. Twenty minutes later Quatre agreed to change sits with Sally and everyone pilled into the different vans.
Motion sickness had never affected Noin but for some strange reason, that was later attributed to Duo's mystery breakfast (though incorrectly assumed), the urge to heave proved to be too much even for Noin. She forced Zechs, who was driving, to stop the car and as soon as the van came to a stop she opened the door and the contents of her stomach would remain in their place no longer. The girls milled around Noin and tried to soothe her. After ten minutes a wobbly Noin was stuck back into the van by a peeved Heero.
An hour behind schedule, the P.E.T. finally reached the Preventers Base.
* * *
She was scared. No way around it. She couldn't help it. Yes, she had been trained and was good at piloting mobile suites. But this wasn't a mobile suite it was a GUNDAM, her Gundam. Never in her wildest dream had she thought that after she left she would end up where she was. She had planed to live a peaceful, normal and anonymous life in a little isolated corner of the world. Yet here she was. Why was she here? The question popped into her head and startled her so much that she stumbled back a couple of steps as if a blow had struck her.
"Whoa! You ok there, Nasha?" Nasha nodded and Hilde continued, "You should get your things ready. Heero says that we should be ready in five." With that she left for her gundam and turned to look back a couple of times. Something was wrong with Nasha and she would find out before the end of the day even if she had to kill Nasha to find out.
As she closed the cockpit and opened communications with the others she couldn't stop thinking. What was she doing? Why had she joined the Preventers? Why had she accepted the spot at the P.E.T.? To be with her friends? She realized that the answer was yes. When she had joined she knew that she could by some odd chance she might see them again and yet she had still joined. When she had been offered the position in the P.E.T. she had known that she would find at least five of her old friends. To her great surprise she found that all her old friends were in the team. She had felt such joy and giddiness. She had wondered what they would say but then she remembered that she wouldn't be their old friend Relena but the new member Nashada. At that realization her heart fell and she found that in the back of her head she had longed to see and be with her friends again. What she wouldn't give to hear them call her by her real name again.
"Earth to Nasha!!" The sound brought Re.Nasha out of her wonderings, she sighed briefly before focusing in the communication squares scattered around her screen, "You ready to go, beautiful?" Duo winked at her and she couldn't hold the smile back. It was good to be back among friends, even if they didn't know you were back.
"Ready when you are, handsome. But you most stop flirting or Hilde will kill us both, darling." She saw both Hilde and Duo blush and a small laugh escaped her trough
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A.N. Sorry for the short chapter but at least it is something. I kind of have a writer's block. But don't worry I won't give up the story. Please tell me what you think of my story! Good, bad, sucks or anything, as long as it is constructive. Also please tell me any ideas or suggestions about where you would like the story to go, I sort of have an idea already but anything is welcomed.
A.N. I know the story is moving slowly but it will go faster after this. Also the beginning of this chapter is Heero thinking about things, mainly Relena, the same night as in the chapter before.
The Perfect Life
By Stardust
Chapter 8
Everyone had gone to sleep long ago, or so he thought, but his mind wouldn't let him rest. Thisbe. What had made him call his Gundam that? Was it because of Relena? Relena. He had always wondered why him. Why had he survived but all those innocents died? How could a weapon outlast its creator? He would have gladly given up his life to save another's. If it would rid his soul of its heavy weight, he would do anything. He was sure no one would understand how he felt, because no one had committed as many wrongs as he had, not even his fellow pilots. They had avoided killing as much as they could but he would kill indiscriminately as long as he completed his mission. Now that the war was over, and his mind no longer filled with missions, he felt the weight of all his crimes upon his soul. He had killed more people than he cared to count. The blood of countless souls bathed his hands. And through all of it Relena had been his light. Admittedly at the beginning he really did hate her even thought of her as an obstacle for his mission. By the end of the war she had become his first and most important mission, to protect her life by any means necessary. But now that he had lost her he realized just how important she was. Not only to the world and peace but to him and to his life. He realized now that she had done everything everyone else hadn't. She had stayed with him, even when he had told her to go, through everything. She had believed, when no one else would have, in him and in what he could do. But above all she had had hope in him. Hope that he wasn't only the Perfect Soldier but also Heero, a simple human being. To everyone else he was a soldier, more a weapon than a human being. And yet she believed in him while he was busy breaking her heart. Of course he hadn't meant to do that but back then he had believed it was necessary. If he got too close she would be smeared with blood too. He wouldn't have it. He would not ruin her pureness to relieve his pain. Suddenly her words came back to him. 'People see me as a symbol, a figure, a doll. not as a human with human needs and feelings!!' Indeed before she left he too thought of her as a symbol of peace, a pure snow white dove among dirty ravens. Now, now what he wouldn't give to be able to hold her in his arms and tell her all of the things he wouldn't tell her before. He looked down at his empty hands and longed so much for her warmth that he surprised himself. He knew and could admit to himself that he loved her more than life it self. But she was gone now and by the looks of it she wasn't coming back. He stopped himself from thinking more as he knew it could go on and on for listless hours. It wasn't the first time this had happened. At the beginning, when she had just left, he would spend days just sitting without sleep or food only thinking of his life and what was to come but most of all he thought about her. 'Stop it! And go to sleep.' With that mental order he forced his body to shut down and his mind to rest. In the morning when his mind was refreshed he would remember Nasha's reaction to the name of his Gundam and what it could mean. But for now his dreams were dark and shadowy as they were most of the time.
* * *
Mission Schedule: 0500 Everyone awake and ready. 0730 Be in Gundams and ready to go. 0800 Penetrate enemy base while guard's shift changed.
1000 Meet at their Gundams after their separate missions were
completed.
1200 Be back at Tokyo Base.
But as we all know things usually don't go to plan and fate dislikes to be pressured with mortal schedules.
The first misshapen, as agreed by everyone later, was a complete disaster, and not even an accidental one at that. Duo thought it his duty to prepare breakfast as he was normally the one who would eat the most out of the whole group. No one, not even Hilde, had eaten his cooking before and all were quite curious to know what it would be like. After breakfast it was decided that Duo would eat all he wanted but never put foot in the kitchen again. Not only had he used what seemed to be every plate, pot and skillet within the kitchen but had left the walls and furniture splattered with a grisly combination of unidentifiable substances. Simply cleaning the kitchen, as they couldn't leave the work to their host, had set them back a whole half hour. To say the least Heero was not pleased.
The transportation provided the next set back. Seeing as they would return tired from the mission they couldn't simply walk all the way from the base so they had decided to rent two cars. Heero, Duo, Hilde, Wufei, Sally and Nasha would go in the dark blue van while Trowa, Cathy, Quatre, Dorothy, Zechs and Noin would go in the dark green van. From the time it took them to make their way from the temple to the cars Wufei and Sally had entered a dreadful argument and refused to be in the same car together. The problem came when no one in the other car would change places with Wufei or Sally. Battle broke out. Twenty minutes later Quatre agreed to change sits with Sally and everyone pilled into the different vans.
Motion sickness had never affected Noin but for some strange reason, that was later attributed to Duo's mystery breakfast (though incorrectly assumed), the urge to heave proved to be too much even for Noin. She forced Zechs, who was driving, to stop the car and as soon as the van came to a stop she opened the door and the contents of her stomach would remain in their place no longer. The girls milled around Noin and tried to soothe her. After ten minutes a wobbly Noin was stuck back into the van by a peeved Heero.
An hour behind schedule, the P.E.T. finally reached the Preventers Base.
* * *
She was scared. No way around it. She couldn't help it. Yes, she had been trained and was good at piloting mobile suites. But this wasn't a mobile suite it was a GUNDAM, her Gundam. Never in her wildest dream had she thought that after she left she would end up where she was. She had planed to live a peaceful, normal and anonymous life in a little isolated corner of the world. Yet here she was. Why was she here? The question popped into her head and startled her so much that she stumbled back a couple of steps as if a blow had struck her.
"Whoa! You ok there, Nasha?" Nasha nodded and Hilde continued, "You should get your things ready. Heero says that we should be ready in five." With that she left for her gundam and turned to look back a couple of times. Something was wrong with Nasha and she would find out before the end of the day even if she had to kill Nasha to find out.
As she closed the cockpit and opened communications with the others she couldn't stop thinking. What was she doing? Why had she joined the Preventers? Why had she accepted the spot at the P.E.T.? To be with her friends? She realized that the answer was yes. When she had joined she knew that she could by some odd chance she might see them again and yet she had still joined. When she had been offered the position in the P.E.T. she had known that she would find at least five of her old friends. To her great surprise she found that all her old friends were in the team. She had felt such joy and giddiness. She had wondered what they would say but then she remembered that she wouldn't be their old friend Relena but the new member Nashada. At that realization her heart fell and she found that in the back of her head she had longed to see and be with her friends again. What she wouldn't give to hear them call her by her real name again.
"Earth to Nasha!!" The sound brought Re.Nasha out of her wonderings, she sighed briefly before focusing in the communication squares scattered around her screen, "You ready to go, beautiful?" Duo winked at her and she couldn't hold the smile back. It was good to be back among friends, even if they didn't know you were back.
"Ready when you are, handsome. But you most stop flirting or Hilde will kill us both, darling." She saw both Hilde and Duo blush and a small laugh escaped her trough
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A.N. Sorry for the short chapter but at least it is something. I kind of have a writer's block. But don't worry I won't give up the story. Please tell me what you think of my story! Good, bad, sucks or anything, as long as it is constructive. Also please tell me any ideas or suggestions about where you would like the story to go, I sort of have an idea already but anything is welcomed.