Title: Solitude.
Author: Kristina Q.
Disclaimer: They don't belong to me. I just borrow them and have some fun!
Distribution: Anywhere you want just drop me a line.
Couple: None.
Warning: Profanity.
Rating: PG.
Notes: Jesse James POV.
You and I are the best of friends. Probably my best friend ever. We can talk about anything. Tell secrets and be sure that no one else will ever know them. We're like brothers and have been like that for many years.
Yet I carry a great secret I still haven't told you. I will tell you the day I believe we're both ready. That day will come. I'm sure. But I fear that day. What will happen? I can only hope you won't hate me for this.
I never decided this. Some things are just meant to be. I wish I could change these feelings I have but no matter how hard I try then I still feel this way about you. Over the past couple of years I've come to love you. More than a brother. Something I shouldn't. It's wrong.
I wanna tell you how I feel. I need you. I want you. Wanna touch you, hold you, kiss you and love you! But will you let me?
It's been hard for me to keep it secret. Sometimes I just look at you all the time unable to stop glancing. Your eyes seem like a reflection of the glittering sky at night. Your lips so full and perfectly curled into the sweetest smile. Your hair is silky and soft. You're irresistible in any possible way.
The sound of your voice sends shivers down my spine, shaking me to the very core. Every inch of skin you touch with your warm fingertips feels momentarily numb. Craving for you to touch me all over.
I wanna be able to love you.
I've been watching you at night when you sleep. Whenever we've shared a room. You look like an angel to me. Your pouty beautiful lips. Listening to your soft breathing. The way your body jerks when you're in the world of dreams.
I wonder what you could be dreaming. If it's a nightmare then I wish I could be able to step into your dreams and save you from whatever horror you could be facing.
Could you be dreaming about someone you love? Could it be me?
I think I'm going crazy… My thoughts are swirling around inside my head. I can't think coherent anymore. I can't stop thinking about you! I wish I could get you out of my mind. Before I lose it…
What did I ever do to deserve this? Everything's over now.
I love you, but you didn't love me. I ruined our friendship with my feelings. I should never have told you!
I saw the look of disgust on your face. I felt the tears trickle down my cheeks when I watched you walk out of the door. Walk out of my life. You left me with nothing at all. Only sorrow and solitude.
You could have done anything to me! Loved me. Held me. Touched me. Kissed me. Punched me. Beaten me. Hated me. But please don't leave me! Anything, just don't go…
The End #######
Author: Kristina Q.
Disclaimer: They don't belong to me. I just borrow them and have some fun!
Distribution: Anywhere you want just drop me a line.
Couple: None.
Warning: Profanity.
Rating: PG.
Notes: Jesse James POV.
You and I are the best of friends. Probably my best friend ever. We can talk about anything. Tell secrets and be sure that no one else will ever know them. We're like brothers and have been like that for many years.
Yet I carry a great secret I still haven't told you. I will tell you the day I believe we're both ready. That day will come. I'm sure. But I fear that day. What will happen? I can only hope you won't hate me for this.
I never decided this. Some things are just meant to be. I wish I could change these feelings I have but no matter how hard I try then I still feel this way about you. Over the past couple of years I've come to love you. More than a brother. Something I shouldn't. It's wrong.
I wanna tell you how I feel. I need you. I want you. Wanna touch you, hold you, kiss you and love you! But will you let me?
It's been hard for me to keep it secret. Sometimes I just look at you all the time unable to stop glancing. Your eyes seem like a reflection of the glittering sky at night. Your lips so full and perfectly curled into the sweetest smile. Your hair is silky and soft. You're irresistible in any possible way.
The sound of your voice sends shivers down my spine, shaking me to the very core. Every inch of skin you touch with your warm fingertips feels momentarily numb. Craving for you to touch me all over.
I wanna be able to love you.
I've been watching you at night when you sleep. Whenever we've shared a room. You look like an angel to me. Your pouty beautiful lips. Listening to your soft breathing. The way your body jerks when you're in the world of dreams.
I wonder what you could be dreaming. If it's a nightmare then I wish I could be able to step into your dreams and save you from whatever horror you could be facing.
Could you be dreaming about someone you love? Could it be me?
I think I'm going crazy… My thoughts are swirling around inside my head. I can't think coherent anymore. I can't stop thinking about you! I wish I could get you out of my mind. Before I lose it…
What did I ever do to deserve this? Everything's over now.
I love you, but you didn't love me. I ruined our friendship with my feelings. I should never have told you!
I saw the look of disgust on your face. I felt the tears trickle down my cheeks when I watched you walk out of the door. Walk out of my life. You left me with nothing at all. Only sorrow and solitude.
You could have done anything to me! Loved me. Held me. Touched me. Kissed me. Punched me. Beaten me. Hated me. But please don't leave me! Anything, just don't go…
The End #######