Hey everyone! Thanks to everyone who reviewed! I'm glad that you guys understood that Sakura and Syaoran would get together in the end and that Paul is just like a temporary sort of thing. Yeah, couldn't have stressed that more huh? --; I just wanted to make sure that you guys wouldn't get mad at me, I hate it when people do. Makes me feel like I can't do anything right sigh. Well I hope you guys enjoy this chapter!

Just another note to everyone, I probably won't be updating as quickly now, I have a lot of things to do. Maybe I'll update at least once a week, or once every two weeks. I have to sort of figure out and plan how this story is going to go. So I admit, I have some writers block, but let me just reassure you that I'm not quitting on this story. I will be finishing the story, just slowly. But I still really appreciate your reviews!

I wrote some notes to all of you reviewers, some are longer than others, but I still appreciate them all the same! Thanks to all you guys!

The Amber Eyed Gladiator: Forbidden Games

By: Sakuratenshi89

Chapter Ten

The Palace, Rome, Italy, 87 A.D.

As Sakura was settling into the bed with the help of her personal maid, a very upset woman barged into her room, panting. She startled Sakura and had the maid scared half to death by the intrusion.

Sakura blinked and thought she was imagining things, "Tomoyo!" she squealed.

"Sakura! I can't believe it's you!" Tomoyo ran up and hugged her friend tightly. "It's been so long.

"I know," sighed Sakura happily.

Tomoyo frowned as she felt her friend's forehead with her hand. "You're burning up!"

"I'm fine, I just…"

"I'm going to kill him!" growled Tomoyo.

"Who?" asked Sakura curiously, "Don't go doing something rash Tomoyo. Who are you going to kill?"

"Why that fiancé of yours of course," said Tomoyo. "He said, promised, that he would take care of you for me, but look at you, you're sick already, and you're still up and about!"

"Well, I was getting ready to go to bed when a certain someone came barging in here, causing a racket," said Sakura dryly.

"Sorry," Tomoyo blushed. "I was overreacting I guess."

"You guess?"

"I'm just concerned," Tomoyo defended herself. "You're my best friend, and I care about you."

"Thanks Tomoyo," Sakura smiled. "Besides, I'm not really sick, I was just warm, Paul mistook that for being sick."

"You're going to bed whether you like it or not missy," Tomoyo demanded. She turned to the maid and dismissed her saying, "You can leave, I'll take care of things from here."

The young girl bowed and left the room, closing the door behind her.

"Tomoyo, you wanna sneak out?"

"WHAT?!"

"I said…"

"I know what you said," hissed Tomoyo angrily. "Are you nuts? We'll get caught; besides, we aren't supposed to be out by ourselves alone. If we get caught…well, I don't want to know what happens then. I don't want to find out either."

"Please Tomoyo?" Sakura put on her best puppy eyes look that could melt anyone's heart, and that included Tomoyo who always had a soft spot for her younger cousin.

Tomoyo sighed, "I could never say no to you Sakura."

"Yay!"

"How are we getting out?"

"Climb?" Sakura suggested. "I've done it before."

"Are you sure?" Tomoyo asked nervously.

"Yup! Help me find some sheets or something that we can tie to this post. Then we'll just climb down that 'rope'," said Sakura.

"Okay," said Tomoyo, hesitantly, being a goody-two-shoes, she had never tried this before. But she trusted Sakura with her whole heart, for she knew that Sakura would always sneak out of the palace, uncaught. Well, until her brother found out. She smiled at that thought, Touya (who kind of caught on after Sakura had done it three days in a row) made sure thing that he checked upon her everyday after he was done with his duties. He had been rather angry with her the first time, but stubborn Sakura hadn't backed down. He gradually grew used to the fact that his little sister wanted some freedom, and so his anger melted into frustration, worry, and later sympathy.

"Let's go Tomoyo!" Sakura called out to her cousin. "Are you okay? You were standing there daydreaming for quite a while."

"I'm fine Sakura, just thinking about the old days."

Sakura smirked, "Too bad Touya isn't here huh?"

Tomoyo laughed.

"Well, here we go!"

The Streets of Rome, Rome, Italy, 87 A.D.

"Where the hell are we going?" Syaoran growled.

Kanto shrugged, "I don't know."

Syaoran was about to rip his bloody head off, "What the hell do you mean 'I don't know'?"

"It means exactly what it means."

"Whatever," said Syaoran through clenched teeth. "I'll be leading the way from now on. No way am I ever letting you lead the way ever again. Let's go visit the Colosseum, I haven't seen that place yet."

"Want to get better acquainted with it, do you?" teased Kanto. "Plus, what's the point? We'd be wasting a trip. It's right next to the Institute, and we're practically on the other side of Rome. We might as well visit something here than go all the way back."

Syaoran remained silent; he just walked on, ignoring his friend.

Kanto had to almost run to catch up to Syaoran's long strides. Syaoran naturally had long legs and with that came a bigger stride, and somehow he made it look very natural, it wasn't at all awkward. (A/N: We all love a guy with a natural sort of swagger, don't we girls? wink. Syaoran is just like the perfect man sigh)

"Don't get too comfortable," warned Kanto. "You know of the things that could happen to you."

"Of course I do, do you think I would've agreed if I didn't know the conditions?"

"No, but…well, as your friend, I'm just warning you."

"Thanks," said Syaoran in a softer, but still cold tone.

"Well…well…well…if it isn't my cute little descendant?"

Syaoran's eyes widened and he groaned, "NO, not possible, why out of all places did he have to be here? Why do these things happen to me? Kami-sama, do you just love torturing me?"

"Nice to see you again too," came the all-too-familiar-smirk.

"Oh, my pleasure," Syaoran said sarcastically.

"Who's he?" asked Kanto.

"Him? You mean the most annoying person in the world who seems to follow me everywhere I go just to see me in pain and…"

"I'm Eriol Hiiragizawa," Eriol interrupted Syaoran's rambling.

"Kanto Hirashi. I have a feeling that we're going to get along just great," smirked Kanto.

"No you two are not getting together. It's already bad that I have a friend like him," Syaoran jerked his head towards Kanto (who exclaimed 'HEY!' like a minute after the remark). "I do not need two people who can irritate the hell out of me. And I especially do not want you to hang out around me Eriol."

"

The Colosseum, Rome, Italy, 87 A.D.

"Well, here we are," announced an excited Tomoyo. They stood in front of the gates of the Colosseum, Tomoyo admiring it's architecture, and overall structure and design. Sakura was sulking and mumbling.

"Here, you said that you'd take me to this really cool place you saw on your way here and you bring me here?!" shouted Sakura.

A few passing people stared at Sakura strangely, not noticing she was the princess.

"She's just really glad to be here," stated Tomoyo to the people calmly.

"Glad?!" screamed Sakura. "How can I be glad? You know how much I…"

Tomoyo clamped her hand around Sakura's mouth, silencing her friend. She hissed, "Are you crazy?! Do you want us to get caught? Besides, you sad that I could choose where we go today, and I choose the Colosseum." They entered the building (the guards recognized Sakura and allowed her to enter with Tomoyo, assuming that she was also royalty).

Sakura nodded reluctantly, "All right, but I'm not really happy about being here."

"I could've never guessed," Tomoyo stated wryly. Then she brightened up and giggled, "Well, don't think of the gruesome things, think of all those hot guys in the arena. There have to be some worth looking at."

Sakura turned bright red at the thought, 'Syaoran Li, he was so handsome, Tomoyo's right; maybe it will be fun…STOP! What are you doing Sakura?! You have a perfectly good-looking fiancé waiting hand and foot on you back at the palace and he adores you! Tomoyo has one too! What is SHE thinking?!'

"Ah hah! I knew there was something else behind your 'fever'," Tomoyo smirked. "Paul mentioned that you caught it right after your visit to the Institute. So did you meet a really cute, hot guy there?"

"Uh…"

"You can tell me Sakura? It's not like I'll tell Paul. I don't like him that much anyway," stated Tomoyo.

"Well, I guess there was a handsome guy there," said Sakura slowly.

"You guess?" Tomoyo said incredulously.

"Okay fine," said an irritated Sakura. "He was extremely hot."

"That's much better."

Sakura rolled her eyes.

"What does he look like?"

"Well…he has amber eyes and chocolate brown hair," sighed Sakura dreamily.

"Oh…sounds nice," Tomoyo said approvingly. "Muscles?"

"Lots."

"Not buff though?" winced Tomoyo.

"NO. He's lean but strong."

"You've got yourself a nice catch there honey," smiled Tomoyo. "Sounds like the perfect man."

"Yeah, but I'm engaged," said Sakura bitterly.

"By contract," reminded Tomoyo.

"One that I agreed to, and so did Paul," said Sakura sadly.
"But it's also one that you can break any time."

"No. I can't just break it off with Paul just because I met some really gorgeous man," Sakura rolled her eyes again.

"Sure you can."

"No I can't Tomoyo. You don't understand," Sakura began staring into the distance, getting distracted. They were halfway up on the stands, which was pretty far up, considering how big the stadium was. She had a beautiful view of the city. Then she looked down…

"Well, you could always have an affair," suggested Tomoyo. 'It would be so interesting.'

Sakura gaped.

"I know, it sounds outrageous, but it's really romantic…"

"No! I mean…"

"You'll do it?" asked an eager Tomoyo.

"NO!" Sakura pointed to a point behind Tomoyo. "Isn't that Eriol?"

Tomoyo turned and saw her fiancé waving from below, then she noticed someone else, "Hey, Sakura, is that…"

"Yeah," mumbled Sakura. "That's him all right, no mistake about it."

"You really did pick a good one," Tomoyo wiggled her eyebrows. "So how about that suggestion I just made? About having an affair? It would be worth it from what I can see. I wouldn't mind starting one with him myself."

"Shut up," said Sakura weakly, hitting Tomoyo on the arm playfully. "I'm a princess, I can't do that, I'd bring shame to my whole family."

"Unless somehow you get Paul's family to agree to cover the story."

"Tomoyo," Sakura said sharply. "It's simply out of the question. I can't do it."

"All right," said Tomoyo softly.

"I'm sorry Tomoyo," Sakura stated, sighing. "I know you were only trying to help."

"Are you hurting my fiancé?" came a teasing voice.

"Course I am," smirked Sakura. "What can I say? She's just so damn happy all the time? I just wanted to be like her."

Eriol laughed and hugged Tomoyo who gladly hugged him in return. "Funny, it seems she's everything but happy when she's in my presence."

Tomoyo frowned. "Why you…"

"Just kidding darling," Eriol laughed nervously.

"So there is something that the great Eriol Hiiragizawa is scared of," said Syaoran, walking up, smirking.

Sakura tensed up immediately as she heard the voice that had been haunting her ever since she left the Institute.

"Sakura, I want you to meet my cousin…"

"We've met," Syaoran said shortly.

"Well, I don't believe we've met," stated Kanto, coming up behind Syaoran.

"This is Kanto Hirashi," introduced Eriol.

"Pleasure, I'm Sakura Kinomoto."

"Pleased to meet you too, Your Highness," stated Kanto, bowing.

"You can call me Sakura, please," said Sakura softly. "I don't like the formalities."

"Very well…Sakura."

There was an awkward silence in the group, well, unless you count Syaoran growling softly. But no one really noticed, they were all lost amidst their own thoughts.

"So…my dear fiancé, what are you doing here out of all places?" asked Eriol curiously.

"I wanted to show Sakura the coolest place in all of Rome, if not, Italy," Tomoyo smiled secretly.

"And the most gruesome," gagged Sakura.

"Other people enjoy the games Princess," Syaoran pointed out.

Sakura blushed a little when he addressed her, but she covered it quickly and frowned saying, "Well, I'm not like most people."

'No, you definitely aren't,' thought Syaoran, he spoke calmly, "NO, I suppose you aren't."

"Of course she isn't, she's a princess!" commented Kanto.

"Yeah, but every royal person is still a human being. It doesn't matter," argued Syaoran, forgetting that he was in front of Sakura and the others.

"Wow, Mr. Philosopher."

Syaoran scowled, "Shut up Kanto."

"Hey love birds!" called Sakura as soon as the little fight ended; she watched Tomoyo and Eriol, who were making eyes at each other. It was rather sickening. 'Can't they do that stuff in private? Ha, who am I kidding, Tomoyo loves makes scenes, she loves the public.'

"Yes Sakura?" Tomoyo asked distractedly, her eyes never leaving Eriol's.

"Do you two mind?" Syaoran asked disgusted.

"Actually, we were just planning on leaving," Eriol said, smiling. He broke the gaze he had on Tomoyo and turned to Syaoran.

"We were?" asked Tomoyo, then realization dawned, "Oh yeah! We were!"

Syaoran rolled his eyes.

"Sakura, are you going to be all right with these two?" asked Tomoyo worriedly, looking at her cousin.

"Uh…sure…"

Tomoyo smirked at her, making Sakura frown.

"Great!" Tomoyo exclaimed, clapping her hands happily. "Well, we'll be off." She grabbed Eriol's hand and they left the Colosseum.

"Kuso (Damn!…I think that's what is means)!" Kanto cursed, startling Sakura and Syaoran who'd been watching Tomoyo and Eriol leave the huge stadium.

"What?!" asked Sakura, concerned.

"I completely forgot that I have to get back to the palace," Kanto said apologetically. "I'll get fired if I don't return. It must have slipped my mind that I was on my lunch break. I shouldn't have walked this far…Well, I'm sorry. Syaoran, I'll see you tomorrow."

Syaoran groaned, his friend was NOT leaving him with Sakura.

"It was a pleasure meeting you Prin…Sakura," Kanto began climbing down the steps.

"Wait!" Sakura shouted as Kanto was about to go out the entrance. "I'm going back to the palace too! We can go together!"

Syaoran's heart dropped. She didn't want to spend any time with someone like him. Someone who had a job she hated.

"No, it's okay, you're here for fun, go out and have some fun. You go with Syaoran, he'll take care of you, he's a good guy," and with that, Kanto left.

Now it was just the two of them, both wanted to be alone together, yet at the same time, they couldn't stand being alone together. (A/N: you know, you want to be with the person, but you also don't want to be with him/her because you don't know what to say or talk about. So this is the part where there's a really long awkward silence, hehe.)

' "He's a good guy,"' thought Sakura. 'That's what I'm afraid of.'

"Princess?"

"Huh? Oh, Syaoran, guess we better get going then. Is there any place in particular that you want to go visit? Now, I don't know Rome very well either, but I'm sure that some friendly Romans can help us find our way, we won't get lost…"

"Sometimes we don't have a choice," Syaoran said quietly, interrupting the rambling Sakura.

"What?"

"We were picked for the job, we didn't get an interview or choose the job," Syaoran had mistaken her previous silence for not being comfortable around a gladiator. He felt as though he needed to clarify things so she could be comfortable around him.

"Well, you could've turned the job down," Sakura said bluntly.

"Not all of us can."

"What do you mean?"

"We're bought, we have to obey, we really don't have a say if we want to fight or not."

"Well, some aren't bought, they voluntarily choose to become a gladiator."

"It might be the only they're good at."

"Fighting?" Sakura scoffed.

"It could be the only way to feed and raise their family."

Sakura remained silent, "I just don't see why any family would let a member of their family, their own flesh and blood, become a gladiator. It would kill me, knowing the possibility that my cousin, father, brother, or husband, might not be coming home one day."

"And yet people still hang on to the hope that one day that person just might come home."

Sakura started walking down the steps of the stands.

"Is that how you feel about your brother, what you said?" asked Syaoran abruptly.

Sakura's body went rigid as she stopped just one step above the ground level of the stadium, "How do you know about Touya?" Sakura demanded sharply.

"Sorry," Syaoran muttered. "I shouldn't have asked that question. I know, it's personal."

"No, I should be sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you. I apologize," Sakura said warily. "But really, tell me, how do you know Touya?"

"Well I was a prisoner of war, how could I not have known? He was the captain, we all knew. We were all informed when we surrendered."

"Good point."

They were silent for a few minutes (A/N: this happens a lot when you have nothing to talk about or write about in my case…hehe). Syaoran took this silent time to occupy himself by walking down the rather steep steps of the stands.

"Yes, that's how I felt about my brother," Sakura resumed speaking as Syaoran reached the bottom. She stepped down from the last step and they began walking to an exit. "It was painful, knowing that there was a chance he would never make it back home. But like you said, I still hoped that he would come back, I never stop hoping. I guess other people don't either."

"I imagine that it would be more painful to the soldier than anyone else," Syaoran spoke quietly as they walked down the streets of Rome, heading towards the palace slowly. "Especially when they do die. Everyday they live with the guilt that their loved ones are suffering because of them, they always regret leaving them in that state."

Sakura couldn't speak, Syaoran was a very thoughtful person, and his words made sense. They were simple, yet so full of meaning. He was right.

"Well, I guess you won that argument there," she smiled.

"Did I Princess?" Syaoran said amusedly. "I didn't even realize that we were arguing."

Sakura mock scowled at the amber-eyed gladiator. "You think that you're so funny don't you?"

Syaoran just grinned and Sakura felt as if she were melting into a puddle right then and right there. He was ten times more handsome when he smiled, but he was still very good looking (a god) without it too. She blushed again at her thoughts.

"I'm funny when I choose to be," Syaoran murmured, breaking the train of (rather naughty) thoughts running through Sakura's head.

Sakura laughed and said sarcastically, "Sure." She caught sight of a man advertising for a pasta restaurant (A/N: I don't know if they did have restaurants back then, but just please imagine that they did have one).

"I haven't had anything for lunch yet," Sakura mused out loud, then turning to Syaoran, she asked, "Have you?"

Syaoran shook his head.

"Let's eat in there," Sakura suggested, pointing to the restaurant.

"Sure," Syaoran shrugged, "It doesn't matter."

To Sakura, Syaoran looked as though he were worried about something, "Don't worry, this one's on me." She just assumed he was worried about how they would pay for the bill.

"It wasn't the money I was worrying about," Syaoran said slowly, a smirking coming onto his handsome face. "I was just wondering if they would have enough food to feed someone like you Princess."

"Why you!" Sakura growled. "You better be glad I'm a princess and I'm not supposed to be acting violet, otherwise you'd be on the ground, dead right now."

"I'm sure I would," Syaoran said wryly, still grinning at Sakura's red face.

"Shut up, let's go eat," Sakura snapped, touchy from Syaoran's comment.

Syaoran just followed her into the restaurant, grinning all the way.

A/N: I'm sorry, most of this is dialogue. I'm sorry for the cliff-hanging message I put at the end of the last chapter, I understood that most of you really well…got upset.

Personal Notes to the Readers for Chapter 9!!!

Sailor Universe1: Yeah, I thought I knew that they were pretty advanced in civilization, I just wasn't positive on the bathroom part, cause people in America had to use chamber pots and all, so…you know what I mean. Thanks for the clarification on that. :)

A Thousand Paper Cranes: Thanks about the good writing part (actually I started learning English when I was four, so it wasn't that hard for me, hehe --;). The bathroom parts make sense, I think, well you know more than I do, I just finished my first year of Latin. To tell you the truth, we didn't learn much; I probably know more French than I do Latin (cause my Latin teacher is also a French teacher), haha.

Archangel Rhapsody: Thanks :)

Dreamer: So, how was the meeting? Interesting? (Well, it might not seem interesting, well to me it didn't, but you're entitled to your own opinion, and as the author, I this chapter a bit boring, but it was fun to write…I'm contradicting myself…shrugs o well.)

Piccoleia Star: Thank you! I hope it is grins back.

Seniya: I don't ramble too much? Hehe.

kittyfaerie3000: I know, poor Syaoran, but he'll be thanking Kanto for this now that he and Sakura are well…unofficially friends.

me101: Thank you! I'm sorry I wasn't able to update that quickly. I had to fix some things and then I had a short vacation so I couldn't get near a computer.

pureiceangel25: Sorry, I couldn't update sooner. Thanks for the honor of receiving your first review smile. I appreciate it a whole lot. Well, eventually Sakura and Syaoran get married (but don't tell anyone I told you that, it'll ruin my entire story). Of course Touya approves, they're friends after all. I know it seems really weird, but I'm not completely following the manga. Touya likes Syaoran and admires him in this one.

dranius: Um…could you please clarify what you're talking about? I'm not trying to offend you or anything, I honestly have no clue what you're talking about. Are you saying when he asks her to get some rest? That as a response to THAT question she either faints or snogs him senseless?

Viky: Hehe. Thanks.

ToTaL cHaOs175: Tear thank you so much, it's nice to know that people out there appreciate my writing (even I sometimes don't myself).

Lil Cherry Blossom Angel: Arigatou. I can tell you this; Sakura already has a huge crush on Syaoran. Soon, it'll be developing into something much better, much bigger…well, keep on reading my story! I hope you truly enjoy it!

Cherry Princess Sakura: I updated! I hope this chapter is kawaii too!

SS43v3r: I'm sorry about the slow part…I'm trying to drag it out, make it longer…sorry. I'm sorry about Paul part too…sigh he's such a good character, I really hate to just throw him away…maybe I'll write a story about him…hmmm…not a bad idea. But you shouldn't be sad about Paul (you probably aren't), he'll find someone else; there are plenty of beautiful women out there for him…just not Sakura. Besides, Sakura and Syaoran are meant to be and you can't interfere with destiny, hehe.

Mecha-Griever: You're completely right; Syaoran and Touya's friendship will come later in this fic, I just haven't figured out when and how, hehe --; that's me. Always planning ahead (yeah, right). So, you're not suspicious. That's why I had them friends in the first place even though it wasn't like that in the books.

mycherrywolf: I know! Syaoran is a total hottie! My Latin teacher showed us a thing on the Colosseum and the life of a gladiator. The guy who was acting as the gladiator was a hottie, and so I was thinking that it would be a good story line and who else was better for the part than our very own Syaoran Li! Everyone wants a story where Syaoran goes around not wearing a shirt right? (Actually I think they had shirts in public, but when they're fighting they don't drool). I can't stand having an ugly character being the main male character; it makes me shudder. Besides, I think that all gladiators probably were cute guys, cause they all had muscles and worked out, and they were slaves, and European, most European guys are cute (notice I said MOST). Well I'd love to hear from you next time.

Qleo-chan: I know, I would have put the camera in here, except for the fact that well, you know, the camera hasn't been invented sigh, oh well, too bad, she'll just have to draw out the pictures. I don't know, maybe I'll just have Tomoyo be a more normal girl in this story, as normal as someone like her can be. I'll leave her without a camera or drawing pad, she'll just be a starry eyed, matchmaking, always scheming Tomoyo.

Heather-Hezzer-andHonaluki: Chamber pots make sense…hmm…doesn't really matter though, I don't think I'll have a bathroom scene, maybe a bath scene, but that's different. Keep those reviews coming!

pinky: I'm sorry about the terrible cliff hanger, I hope you're feeling better now though, I updated. I've relieved you of some of the stress and frustration you feel. Hehe. Yeah, well, you're reviews are still pretty long smile, but I love 'em; keep 'em long and coming! Thanks! (I'm sorry about that little episode, with you losing your really long review that took so long to write, you should tell me that joke one day, and don't forget to save your review or something this time wink).

Avelyn Lauren: Oh yeah –-;, hehe, I forgot about that little detail. You're right, there is some magic. I've been out of it lately; I just also remembered that scene where Touya noticed that Syaoran noticed that Yukito had an aura of magic around him. Man, I need to read my own story! Thanks for the reminder, without it; I would've forgotten I had magic in my story, haha. I found something on Adonis, here I got it from an encyclopedia: in Greek mythology, a youth of remarkable beauty, the favorite of the goddess Aphrodite. Traditionally he was the product of the incestuous love Smyrna (Myrrha) entertained for her own father, the Syrian king Theias (eww, that's really disgusting, isn't it?). Charmed by his beauty, Aphrodite put the newborn Adonis in a box and handed him over to the care of Persephone, the queen of the underworld, who afterward refused to give him up. An appeal was made to Zeus, the king of the gods, who decided that Adonis should spend a third of the year with Persephone and a third with Aphrodite, the remaining third being at his own disposal. Adonis became an enthusiastic hunter, and was killed by a wild boar during the chase. Aphrodite pleaded for his life with Zeus, who allowed Adonis to spend half of each year with her and half in the underworld. So he actually wasn't a god of anything.

Riley S: I know, I was so proud of myself for updating so quickly, two chapters in a row!

Cherry Jade: It makes this story really fun to write, when you get to write other people's thoughts (and their actions of course), especially their naughty ones, hehe.

AnimeObsessionFantasy: I know, but Syaoran had to have a friend, and more than one, and I couldn't let it be Yamazaki because he's Japanese, so I had to create another character. Of course, the character turned out to be like a mix between Eriol and Yamazaki, really talkative and scheming and a good friend all in all.

So thanks to all my reviewers and I hope that all of you guys enjoyed this chapter, and stay tuned for the next one!!!!!

Next Chapter...............I don't think I'm going to tell you guys, for the fear that some of you might kill me (jk), hehe.