Name: Two of the same
Author: N170017
Feedback: Pretty, pretty please (lip quavering)! I'd really love it if you did... I don't know what I'm going to have happen next... so yeah. If anyone's even reading this and wants for it keep going please say so... otherwise it'll stay without any new postings for a while.
Note: Inspiration took over when I read some stories yesterday on this site. I'm not sure how to spell the names so I'm not gonna try, I know I'd only butcher them, but if I just happened to review your story yesterday I'd like to thank you. They were so great that I felt the need to try and put this story back on track. Thanks for all the really nice reviews so far. Also the song in this chapter is Coldplay's, The Scientist (I have that also written somewhere in the story but I thought I'd state it here too). As you might have guessed I don't own it cuz I'm not a millionaire so... now that I've said that, on with the story! Oh and I don't know exactly why but fanfic won't let my put my pov dash thingys that i usually use. So I'm really sorry if It's kinda confusing.
I fall into the passenger's seat. Plush black leather comfy-ness. Hmmm I was so tired. I glanced at the clock it read 12:12. Mom was going to kill me. The door beside me opened and in sat Angel. His arm touched my shoulder as he grabbed his seat belt, "Buffy I-I... Never mind."
I looked into his eyes. I wanted to kiss him; I just wanted him... What was he going to say? "Come on Angel tell me..." Why was he so distant tonight? He was usually distant to people but not to me. Never me. We were best friends who knew everything about the other... best friends, right...? I hated those words, I've decided. They keep me from Angel; they keep us apart.
"Just never mind," Angel mumbled back. There was the oddest vibe in the car as we drove off from the Bronze. I switched on the radio. Coldplay's The Scientist drifted to my ears. It was so beautiful.
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.
I looked at Angel; he was looking at me. I smiled. "What? Is there something wrong with my hair? Am I all messy? " I felt my head, my hair felt all right? The question was, was it? Tonight was so weird. There just isn't a way to describe it. So much happened today. So many new things. Wow, my life was so complicated.
Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
He laughed, "No..." Angel, hmm you could never call him vague. Never, ever. By the way that would be me being sarcastic. I love sarcasm... I wonder why? Hmm now that's, a thought to think about... Okay there I go getting off topic again.
"Then what?" I asked. He seemed as if he wanted to tell me something but he just kept watching me. I loved his eyes on mine. His dark, deep and soulful eyes.
Oh, let's go back to the start.
Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
"It's nothing, just thinking?"
"About...?"
Its only science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
"I don't know about us," he coughed quickly, "I mean, you know, our um friendship," Disappointment hit me full force, I thought maybe he was going to say something a lot more romantic about us. What was I smoking...? Angel didn't think about me like that. He probably hardly thinks about me at all. You don't spend that much time agonizing over your best friend, I guess that's if you aren't me.
It's only science apart.
Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
"Oh," I breathed in, and exhaled as I turned to the window. It was really dark now, I glanced again at the clock... 12:19. Mom was really going to kill me. She always hated when I was later, said it made her worry. By the time I made it home I was really going to be in trouble. I hope I'm not grounded, I have that date with Xander.
Xander, he was so cute! I use that phrase too much on him. Maybe it's cause that's all I can think about him. Just cute. I don't think he's perfect like Angel and I don't think I love him. Angel's presence in my life keeps me from ever being able to get in touch with Xander. Thoughts of Angel outlasted the Xander-ish ones. Wouldn't my life be so much simpler if I thought of Xander like I thought of Angel?
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh, take me back to the start.
I was just guessing,
At numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.
I stared at the stars; they were so beautiful... I wish I could live as a star. You're thinking I'm crazy, right? No, not really just they're so peaceful... so free. They don't worry about finding that one special person, about telling them you love them, and have always loved them in a way they never wanted, or expected. They don't have to worry about loosing their best friend because they love them more than they can stand. In the end they don't have to be confused about this said person. This person that you need to continue being. They don't have to live my life.
Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh, when I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' tails,
Comin' back as we are.
Nobody said it was easy,
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.
The car stopped. Startled I looked over at Angel. Why were we stopping? "We're here!" he stated. What? So soon? I looked out my window and saw he was right. I lifted the handle and pulled it open. The air from outside was so fresh. I moved over to get out but Angel's hand on my arm pulled me back.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
"Buffy," Angel declared out of no where.
"Yeah, Angel?" I asked. Maybe he would tell me about his mood... maybe... but somehow I doubted it.
"You know that I um... you know that..." Angel tried. I looked past him and back to the clock, it read 12:24. Icks, come on Angel hurray up, I don't have this much time.
"Spit it out Angel... Mom's already gonna be pissed at my late-ness?"
"Never mind then, I'll tell you later..." I looked really deep into his eyes but couldn't figure out what he needed to say. I didn't have the time to get into this so after he let go of my arm I scampered towards my house.
When I reached my porch I turned back to his car. I waved while he pulled away. I missed him already. I whispered, "I love you," although I knew he could never have heard. I wish he could have though then I wouldn't be stuck without him. He'd pull me close and kiss me and he'd love me... In my dreams!
(Angel's POV)
I pulled my car away from Buffy's house. I loved her so much... I wish I'd just finished telling her how I felt. "Buffy... I love you, I've always loved you, and I want you. Oh god I want you so much. We're best friends but we're so much more. I just- I just- I love you!" I mumbled under my breath.
I'm goin' back to the start.
Oh-ooooh... Aaaah...
Thank you for reading!