A/N: There is a Naraku/Kagome lemon in this chapter. I editied it a bit...so that I used tasteful language, hope it doesn't offend anyone. Thanks again for the reviews guys. I'll have the lemony part marked, so that anyone that doesn't wish to read it, can skip past it.

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Chapter Five
Guilty Pleasure

Kagome spent most of her morning in the study. She had found a book to read and wanted to retreat to a place she didn't think Naraku would bother her. In the early afternoon she heard a slight knock at the door, and then Chiyo came in slowly.

"Miss, I'm very sorry but Master Naraku sent me to retrieve you." Kagome looked at Chiyo and again saw a look of pity and sadness in her eyes. She knew exactly where she was being taken.

Kagome felt oddly numb. She didn't tremble or cry as she followed Chiyo to the bedroom that she now shared with Naraku. Again the servant knocked and announced her presence then was dismissed by him. Kagome stood near the door, not making a move towards him. Finally, he walked towards her and spoke in a quiet voice.

"I will now offer you my apologies, priestess. You spoke the truth about the shinju."

She stood unmoving; detaching herself from her body, which he would use however he saw fit. But she quickly noticed something about him was different. He stood looking at her but made no move to touch her. She focused on his eyes, trying to figure out what he was thinking and he gave her a soft look.

"Priestess, I know that you still refuse to accept that you are my mate, but what's done is done. You might as well allow yourself to enjoy it." He then brought his hands to her waist and pulled her closer to him. He moved her towards the bed and very slowly began to remove her clothes. He stood there looking at her for a moment before pulling her against him gently.

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She shivered when he brought his lips to her neck, slowly kissing her and running his tongue over her warm skin. His mouth soon found her ear and began to nip at it lightly. His left hand slowly slid to her breast and gently kneaded it, while the other moved to her back and lightly caressed her. The sensual touches and his hot breath on her skin were making Kagome's body react, though she was desperately trying to ignore it. She felt the hand that was on her breast slowly move down her body. He smiled when he felt how aroused he was causing her to become. "You are enjoying this, Priestess, are you not?" He whispered.

She turned her head away and again felt his mouth on her neck. He moved her against the wall and continued to kiss and nip at her neck and ear, his hand now on her shoulder holding her in place. All the while his other was now between her thighs exploring her. She felt her legs growing weak and closed her eyes tightly, ashamed that she was gaining pleasure from his touch.

He smiled wickedly at the scent of her arousal. Her body was beginning to become overwhelmed from his touches and he felt her legs begin to tremble. He pushed his body against hers to keep her balanced while his fingers were unrelenting in their pursuit. She tried to pull away from him when she began to peak and became sensitive, but he refused to stop, causing her to shiver and lean into him for support. He looked down at her, now resting against him, and softly kissed the top of her head before taking in the scent of her hair.

As soon as she recovered he began kissing her neck again and then slowly worked his way to her breasts. He brought both his hands up to fondle them while he teased the hardened nipples with his mouth. Kagome's mind was waging war with her body. She was thoroughly disgusted by the situation, yet her body was begging for him.

Naraku slowly lowered himself to her stomach, nipping and kissing every inch of her along the way. Finally, he reached her center and began to stroke her thighs, gently urging them apart. She tried to resist but he applied more pressure and in the end won the battle. He again began kissing her softly before slowly brining his tongue to her.

She shivered as he very softly teased and taunted her, causing her to tremble in pleasure despite herself. He heard her mew slightly as he was bringing her to her peak again; the feeling nearly caused her to collapse onto him. He chuckled to himself because no matter how hard she fought it, her body was enjoying him even if she wouldn't allow her mind or soul to share in the experience. Finally he could wait no longer, the taste and scent of her arousal was overwhelming him.

He stood and again began to kiss her neck as he pulled her to the bed. This time he put his arm around her waist and situated her onto her knees. He heard her whimper as he moved behind her and put his hands on her hips. He pushed into her gently, and curled around her body so that he could whisper to her.

"Don't worry priestess, I guarantee you will enjoy this." He could feel her trying to pull away and he reached down and wrapped his arms around her in what almost seemed like a comforting gesture as he began his slow, deep thrusts.

Kagome did her best to ignore the mixture of pain and pleasure her body was feeling. She felt dirty and ashamed at what was happening, made worse that her body was enjoying some of his touches and he knew it. Naraku's thrusts became more intense and the new position was putting him in deeper than she was accustomed to. She began to whimper in pain and he slowed himself slightly. He didn't want her to whimper this time; unless it was from the pleasure he was bringing to her.

She could tell he would be done soon and suddenly felt his arm circle around her waist again, and he began using his fingers to bring her pleasure. Within seconds she felt an electricity run through her. She dug her fingers into the pillow and tried to suppress her reactions and think of something else. However, it was useless. Soon she was involuntarily pushing back towards him, meeting him when he thrust into her.

Naraku could feel her body begin to quiver and knew that she would climax soon. This made him quicken his pace. He heard a soft moan escaper her lips before her body began to tremble violently. She put her head down and tried to hide her orgasm from him but it was a waste of time. He could feel her walls spasm against him, bringing him delightful pleasure, accompanied by the scent of her obvious gratification. With in seconds, he spilled his seed into her and then pulled away. She lay down looking ashamed.

He watched her for a moment and decided that he wanted to look into her eyes as he pleasured her. He moved over her, positioning himself between her legs. She again whimpered and he slowly brought his mouth to her neck, nuzzling her and then began to whisper.

"I'm not going to hurt you, priestess. On the contrary, I want to see you enjoying this." Again she felt his hot mouth begin to roam over her neck and shoulder taking in the sweet taste of her skin. He quickly kissed his way to her chest and began nipping at her lightly.

Naraku was kneading her right breast while he slowly ran his tongue over the nipple. At the same time his other hand again slipped between her thighs. She jerked at his touch, still sensitive from her earlier climax.

He smiled down at her and slowly brought himself back up to stare into her eyes. She closed them and turned her head, not wanting to see him. She suddenly felt his breath on her face and quickly opened them again. He slowly brought his lips to hers. Though they only touched briefly, it shocked her. He had never attempted to kiss her in an actual intimate way before. He gazed at her for a second before moving his lips back to her neck.

Kagome tried again to ignore her body but it was crying out for release. His hand was still between her legs teasing her into near bliss. She almost groaned when he pulled it away, but he quickly brought himself into her. His motions were long and deep. She wasn't in pain now and her body was trying to meet his thrusts despite her best efforts to stop it, disgusted with her self.

She felt a heat rising inside of her. The scent of her nearing climax was driving him mad. He finally began to drive into her hard. She cried out softly in both pain and pleasure, causing her to immediately feel dirty. He knew he would soon be done and he ran his fingers back down her body until they again reached their destination. He smiled at the look that crossed her face when he touched her. With expert grace he drove her near the edge. Finally she couldn't contain it. She let out a cry as her body began to spasm in delight. The intensity of her climax sent him into his own. He stayed there panting for a moment and then lifted himself from her.

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He could tell right away that she felt guilt and shame about her pleasure. Surely she had to be wondering what kind of a person she was, to enjoy something that she didn't consent to.

"Do not be ashamed that you enjoyed yourself, priestess." He said in a smug manner. He then ran his hand over her cheek. "I hope my apology was acceptable."

He stared down at her for a moment. Oddly he found that he enjoyed her more when she was enjoying him as well. He found her cries of pleasure more invigorating that the cries of pain he had drawn from her on other occasions. He continued to watch her and then turned away. The thought of her crying now as she had the other times disturbed him.

However, she didn't cry this time, but was washed with a sense of guilt. He quickly got up and left the room, hoping to avoid seeing her become distraught. Kagome pulled on her robe and lay in bed for awhile, contemplating her feelings. She realized that this is exactly what Naraku had wanted from her. He wanted her to feel guilt and shame. He was still trying to break her and to do this was just as effective, if not more so, than when he had hurt her.

Her thoughts then went to Sesshoumaru. She remembered the kiss they shared and felt warmth rush over her body followed by more guilt. Now she felt like she was riding a rollercoaster of emotions. She turned over and felt her eyelids growing heavy. Her last conscious thought was of Sesshoumaru, as she again relived her first kiss.

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Kagome was walking towards the home Sesshoumaru grew up in. The sky was clear and she could feel the beauty around her. As she came upon their family home she again heard his mother singing.

She walked around to the side and again found her sitting in a chair. This one rocked, and Kagome quickly saw that she was no longer pregnant, but cuddling her baby to her. Kagome moved closer and saw the adorable child. There was no doubt that this was Sesshoumaru. His golden eyes were open and surprising alert for such a young infant. His hair shone brilliantly and his markings were there, though they were much fainter.

She moved around to the other side and got a closer look at him. He looked content and did not fuss in his mother's arms. His mother gazed down at him with a look of pure love and wonder.

Kagome then heard Inutaisho coming in from the field. He called to his mate and she looked up and smiled at him. He came to her side and looked down at their child. Kagome saw that he too held a look of love in his eyes. She then offered the baby to him and he carefully took Sesshoumaru into his arms. Though he looked somewhat stiff, he also looked like a proud father. She went inside to get something and Kagome heard him begin to speak to his child.

"Someday this will all be yours. You will grow into a strong demon and rule these lands and all the people in them. You will make me proud, Sesshoumaru." Kagome noted the pride and love in his voice as he spoke softly to his baby. His mate then returned and took the baby back from him. He watched them softly and then left, returning to his work.

Kagome felt tears stinging her eyes. Sesshoumaru had no memories of this. If only he could see the love his father had for him. Then Kagome decided to follow Inutaisho. She quickly ran to catch up with him. She focused on him and could sense the shinju. She could feel a pulse coming from Inutaisho's very soul. He turned in her direction and looked around, then hurried on his way. It was like his soul was begging her to protect him.

The shinju itself was radiating power and Kagome's head began to throb. A familiar presence entered her dream and she was immediately snapped back to reality. Hitomi had been there. Kagome looked around and assumed that the demoness had not wanted her to see this dream. She focused her energy, but surprisingly could not sense Hitomi in the room at all. Never had Hitomi been in her own or anyone else's dreams without her being able to sense it when she woke.