AN: Hey peoples! Well, I'm going to update on this story now, so, yeah.
Hope you enjoy it!
Replies!
Nabob: Okay, the whole "God wants him to" I can explain that. It's like a little voice inside your head telling you something. It's like a feeling like you were supposed to, like it was going to happen. Yeah, it's just like a feeling kind of a thing. Yeah, I don't know how to explain it better than that. Oh, it doesn't matter if you're religious or not, I don't care. Most of my friends say stuff I'm against, but that's them, I don't care. And, well, I just got the idea of a girl with a CD player and thought of Miroku somehow, and I don't know how. But, yeah, Kohina is someone he once knew... so... yeah... things are going to be pretty cool in this chapter! It's going to explain Kohina and how Miroku knows her. Well, please keep reading! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Sadistic Shadow: Glad you like it! Yes, Sota does sound fake, but he's older. He's like, 17 or something. I forgot to add that in, sorry! Wells, please keep reading! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Aamalie: Sorry I didn't update sooner. I have other stories that I haven't updated on in forever! But, I hope you like this chapter! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Strawberrylover: Yep, Kohina, I hope what she is adds more... how should I put it... romance into his thoughts of Sango... or other way around... I don't know, I'm just going to put it in, see how it goes. Glad you like it though! Merci! That's thanks, hehe, French. Lol.
RobinluvsAmon ^_^
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Miroku, or any of the Inuyasha characters. But, Kohina is all mine! Yeah.
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Chapter Four-Kohina
I opened my eyes, the sun shining through my window and onto my face. I squinted my eyes, rolling over to the other side of the bed to hide from the sun. I hadn't slept all night.
My dreams kept me awake. My first dream was of Sango and I going to a movie, which I was pleased with, but, when I put my arm around her, she turned into Kohina. The next dream was Kohina and I walking in the park liked we used to, but Sango showed up, saw me and ran away crying.
What were my dreams trying to tell me? The sun was nagging at me to wake up, and I pulled the covers over my head. I closed my eyes, and my alarm went off. I groaned and sat up, the covers falling off of my bare chest, and I reached over, turning the darn alarm off. I yawned, rubbing my sore eyes with my hand, and pushing the rest of the covers off of my legs.
I walked to the bathroom and turned on the water. I sighed, letting my shoulders drop as I looked at the man in the mirror. About twenty years old, working at a church, and his ex decides to call him the same day he meets this great woman. Why do I deserve such torture?
I reached my hands into the cold water and poured it on my face, the water feeling like ice against my skin. Shaking my head, and reaching for the towel, I used my other hand and turned off the water. I used the towel to dry my face, and then I put it over my shoulder and walked out into the living room.
I sighed and fell onto the couch, my feet hanging over the other side. Turning my head, I saw the clock. 11:35, man, did I sleep in. I sighed and sat up, looking over at my answering machine. There were three messages. I wonder who called. Not even thinking, I reached over, pressed it, and fell back on the couch.
"Miroku? Are you there?" A female voice came through. "Well, you might be sleeping, or out or something. Well, this is Sango... I was wondering... since we had a good time the other day, maybe you could show me around a little bit. I live here, but I never get out enough. Well, call me back." She gave her number, said good-bye, and then hung up. "9:24 am," the machine said and then it beeped.
'Great, I can call her back and get Kohina off of my mind,' I thought.
"Miroku," a male voice said. "It's Inuyasha. Man, have I got news for you. You may not like it, but, you'll never guess who I found sitting by your apartment building when I walked by this morning. Yeah, I think she called you, too. It was Kohina. She was sitting there, probably waiting for you. By the way she looked, I bet she's still waiting there. Well, the boss is coming, and I'll get in trouble if I use the phone. Well, thought you should know. Later." He hung up. "10:13 am," the machine said and beeped.
'She might still be there,' I thought.
"Miroku," a female voice came through. "It's Kohina. Please, Miroku, please call me. I really want to see you again. I haven't been able to get you off of my mind for weeks now, and I have to see you. Please, call me. Miroku, please. Well, I love you... good-bye." She hung up. "11:28 am," the machine said and beeped.
I got up and grabbed the phone. I want to get this settle soon. I dialed the number, and fell back on the couch, listening to it ring one time... two times... three times...
"Hello?"
"Kohina, it's Miroku," I said, letting out a quiet sigh.
"Miroku! I didn't think you would call me!" She said, sounding glad. "Miroku, would you like to have lunch with me? I'm only going to be in town until tomorrow morning, and I really want to see you."
I sighed, "sure, why not. But I'm going to have a date after two, so, it can't be long."
"Oh..." now she sounded sad. "Well, that's fine. I'll meet you down at the bottom of your apartment building."
"You're already there, don't bother getting up," I said.
"Oh, okay," she said, now she sounded scared. "I'll see you soon, then."
"Yeah, bye," I hung up. Then I dialed Sango's number.
"Hello?" She answered.
"Sango? It's Miroku," I said. "Hey, want to meet for that get together, say around two?"
"Sure!" She said. "Where do you want to meet?"
"How about at the church?"
"Sure, I'll see you then, bye." She hung up, and so did I.
I got up and walked into my room. I have to look good, I guess.
~*~
I walked out of my apartment wearing a nice navy blue shirt and tan khaki pants. I wasn't too dressed up, but not too dressed down, either. It was great for the day. So, I walked down the hall to the elevator. It opened for me and I walked in, pressing "L" and it closed and moved. Once it went down to the lobby, it opened and I stepped out.
Sighing one last time, I walked to the door and opened it. I saw Kohina sitting on the steps. Her red hair fell past her shoulders a little bit, and she was wearing a black shirt and a long black skirt that went a little past her knees. She wore black high-heel shoes, and carried a small black purse. I walked down and she saw me. Her face lit up and she stood, a smile on her face. Her blue eyes shown bright, and her lips were a little hint of red, just like her cheeks.
"Miroku!" She said. I could tell she was fighting the urge to hug me, so I just kept my hands in my pockets. "It's so good to see you again! To be honest, I didn't think you would come."
"Well," I said, shrugging. "To be honest, I didn't want to. But, I figured that since I'm going to be out in town anyways, I could spend a few hours, for old time's sake."
She looked disappointed, good. "Well," she said, "shall we get going?"
We started to walk down the sidewalk.
~*~
We sat at a little restaurant, one that we went to before when we first started dating. It was called: "Mama's Café" and we went to a few dates here. It was a nice little place, great food, clean and the people were very nice. It was never that crowded, but it never ran out of business. We sat at a table in the back, with a window next to me at my left, and a window behind Kohina, ahead of me. We were served our food, and it was about ten minutes after when I started the conversation.
"So, how's Jake?"
She took another bite of her salmon. "I don't know," she said after she chewed. "He left me a month ago."
"Is that why you are here with me now?" I asked.
She looked at me, her eyes soft, "Miroku, I'm so sorry about what happened between us. I still think about you all the time, can we give it another shot?"
I looked at her firmly, "Kohina, do you really think I would forgive you after cheating on me? What kind of guy do you think I am?"
She placed her hands on her lap and looked at her food. "I knew you wouldn't be so quick to forgive me, but I'm really sorry. I thought after you'd see me now, and after you knew how sorry I was, you'd, maybe, give me another chance."
I leaned back in my seat. "It's not that easy."
She looked at me, her eyes pleading, "tell me why, Miroku. I want to know why you wont take me back. I want to know the whole reason why."
I sighed and looked out of the window. "I loved you. You were the first one in the world that I really, truly loved, Kohina. I thought what we had was special. I thought it would never end. In fact, the night I caught you with him, I was going to ask you to be my wife."
She sniffed, and I bet she was about to cry. Let her cry.
"When I saw you kissing him, when I saw his hands on you, when I saw your hands on him," I continued, trying to stay strong and not cry myself. "I felt like a knife had stabbed me a hundred times over. I was upset, but most of all, I was mad. I'm a man, I get mad. But, I'm a Christian man. I know how to deal with my anger. I know how to control it. But... I didn't know if I could do that then."
She looked down, her eyes wet. "I thought you would kill me right then and there if you had a weapon, or a chance."
"I wouldn't have done that," I said, shaking my head. I refused to look at her, so I kept my eyes outside. "I stood there, for about ten minutes, thinking if it was real, if that was really you, if you would even do that to me. But, once your lips left his mouth, and you said my name, it was all over. Everything I had ever thought and hoped, vanished."
She sniffed and brought her napkin to her eyes and wiped them. "I didn't know what I was thinking when that happened," she said softly. "I wish I could change it all."
I looked at her, she was crying, but she was faking it. She lied to me once, I wasn't going to believe her anymore. I shook my head and looked out the window again. "You can't change the past, but you can shape your future."
She looked at me, "what are you saying?"
"Kohina, leave. I don't want you in my life anymore. It pains me to say this, but, I can't stand the sight of you anymore. I can't bear to talk to you. If I do, I feel like I want to scream and, and do something terrible. Please, just leave me alone for the rest of my life."
She looked upset, but she nodded, grabbed her things, and left.
I hated to say it, I honestly did. But, it was true. If I saw her, I wanted to throw up. Every time I saw her, I saw Jake, her lips on his, his hands on her body that once belonged to me. Every time I heard her voice, saying something nice to me, I hear her saying those words to Jake as well. I hear her telling him things she never told me. I couldn't stand it.
I pulled out my wallet, paid the check, and walked out. Maybe see Sango will help clear my mind. I really hope so.
~*~
AN: What did you guys think? Yeah, it was long. Well, the reason I can write this kind of sad thing, is something happened to me in a similar way. I didn't see him kiss another girl, but, I can't stand to see him or talk to him. Yeah, that's about it. Sad, I know. I really loved him. But, most guys are jerks, and I found that out the hard way. Wells, I better get going now. I have to reply to so many reviews for my other story, I better get going now. Later!
Oh! A fan of mine and I are making a Witch Hunter Robin fic, and we would like people to read it. We don't have a title yet, but, I will let you know once we figure that out. It will be under her pen name, and it's Strawberrylover. So, yeah. Please read it once we make it! Thanks! Bye!
RobinluvsAmon ^_^
Replies!
Nabob: Okay, the whole "God wants him to" I can explain that. It's like a little voice inside your head telling you something. It's like a feeling like you were supposed to, like it was going to happen. Yeah, it's just like a feeling kind of a thing. Yeah, I don't know how to explain it better than that. Oh, it doesn't matter if you're religious or not, I don't care. Most of my friends say stuff I'm against, but that's them, I don't care. And, well, I just got the idea of a girl with a CD player and thought of Miroku somehow, and I don't know how. But, yeah, Kohina is someone he once knew... so... yeah... things are going to be pretty cool in this chapter! It's going to explain Kohina and how Miroku knows her. Well, please keep reading! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Sadistic Shadow: Glad you like it! Yes, Sota does sound fake, but he's older. He's like, 17 or something. I forgot to add that in, sorry! Wells, please keep reading! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Aamalie: Sorry I didn't update sooner. I have other stories that I haven't updated on in forever! But, I hope you like this chapter! Glad you like it! Thanks!
Strawberrylover: Yep, Kohina, I hope what she is adds more... how should I put it... romance into his thoughts of Sango... or other way around... I don't know, I'm just going to put it in, see how it goes. Glad you like it though! Merci! That's thanks, hehe, French. Lol.
RobinluvsAmon ^_^
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Miroku, or any of the Inuyasha characters. But, Kohina is all mine! Yeah.
~*~
Chapter Four-Kohina
I opened my eyes, the sun shining through my window and onto my face. I squinted my eyes, rolling over to the other side of the bed to hide from the sun. I hadn't slept all night.
My dreams kept me awake. My first dream was of Sango and I going to a movie, which I was pleased with, but, when I put my arm around her, she turned into Kohina. The next dream was Kohina and I walking in the park liked we used to, but Sango showed up, saw me and ran away crying.
What were my dreams trying to tell me? The sun was nagging at me to wake up, and I pulled the covers over my head. I closed my eyes, and my alarm went off. I groaned and sat up, the covers falling off of my bare chest, and I reached over, turning the darn alarm off. I yawned, rubbing my sore eyes with my hand, and pushing the rest of the covers off of my legs.
I walked to the bathroom and turned on the water. I sighed, letting my shoulders drop as I looked at the man in the mirror. About twenty years old, working at a church, and his ex decides to call him the same day he meets this great woman. Why do I deserve such torture?
I reached my hands into the cold water and poured it on my face, the water feeling like ice against my skin. Shaking my head, and reaching for the towel, I used my other hand and turned off the water. I used the towel to dry my face, and then I put it over my shoulder and walked out into the living room.
I sighed and fell onto the couch, my feet hanging over the other side. Turning my head, I saw the clock. 11:35, man, did I sleep in. I sighed and sat up, looking over at my answering machine. There were three messages. I wonder who called. Not even thinking, I reached over, pressed it, and fell back on the couch.
"Miroku? Are you there?" A female voice came through. "Well, you might be sleeping, or out or something. Well, this is Sango... I was wondering... since we had a good time the other day, maybe you could show me around a little bit. I live here, but I never get out enough. Well, call me back." She gave her number, said good-bye, and then hung up. "9:24 am," the machine said and then it beeped.
'Great, I can call her back and get Kohina off of my mind,' I thought.
"Miroku," a male voice said. "It's Inuyasha. Man, have I got news for you. You may not like it, but, you'll never guess who I found sitting by your apartment building when I walked by this morning. Yeah, I think she called you, too. It was Kohina. She was sitting there, probably waiting for you. By the way she looked, I bet she's still waiting there. Well, the boss is coming, and I'll get in trouble if I use the phone. Well, thought you should know. Later." He hung up. "10:13 am," the machine said and beeped.
'She might still be there,' I thought.
"Miroku," a female voice came through. "It's Kohina. Please, Miroku, please call me. I really want to see you again. I haven't been able to get you off of my mind for weeks now, and I have to see you. Please, call me. Miroku, please. Well, I love you... good-bye." She hung up. "11:28 am," the machine said and beeped.
I got up and grabbed the phone. I want to get this settle soon. I dialed the number, and fell back on the couch, listening to it ring one time... two times... three times...
"Hello?"
"Kohina, it's Miroku," I said, letting out a quiet sigh.
"Miroku! I didn't think you would call me!" She said, sounding glad. "Miroku, would you like to have lunch with me? I'm only going to be in town until tomorrow morning, and I really want to see you."
I sighed, "sure, why not. But I'm going to have a date after two, so, it can't be long."
"Oh..." now she sounded sad. "Well, that's fine. I'll meet you down at the bottom of your apartment building."
"You're already there, don't bother getting up," I said.
"Oh, okay," she said, now she sounded scared. "I'll see you soon, then."
"Yeah, bye," I hung up. Then I dialed Sango's number.
"Hello?" She answered.
"Sango? It's Miroku," I said. "Hey, want to meet for that get together, say around two?"
"Sure!" She said. "Where do you want to meet?"
"How about at the church?"
"Sure, I'll see you then, bye." She hung up, and so did I.
I got up and walked into my room. I have to look good, I guess.
~*~
I walked out of my apartment wearing a nice navy blue shirt and tan khaki pants. I wasn't too dressed up, but not too dressed down, either. It was great for the day. So, I walked down the hall to the elevator. It opened for me and I walked in, pressing "L" and it closed and moved. Once it went down to the lobby, it opened and I stepped out.
Sighing one last time, I walked to the door and opened it. I saw Kohina sitting on the steps. Her red hair fell past her shoulders a little bit, and she was wearing a black shirt and a long black skirt that went a little past her knees. She wore black high-heel shoes, and carried a small black purse. I walked down and she saw me. Her face lit up and she stood, a smile on her face. Her blue eyes shown bright, and her lips were a little hint of red, just like her cheeks.
"Miroku!" She said. I could tell she was fighting the urge to hug me, so I just kept my hands in my pockets. "It's so good to see you again! To be honest, I didn't think you would come."
"Well," I said, shrugging. "To be honest, I didn't want to. But, I figured that since I'm going to be out in town anyways, I could spend a few hours, for old time's sake."
She looked disappointed, good. "Well," she said, "shall we get going?"
We started to walk down the sidewalk.
~*~
We sat at a little restaurant, one that we went to before when we first started dating. It was called: "Mama's Café" and we went to a few dates here. It was a nice little place, great food, clean and the people were very nice. It was never that crowded, but it never ran out of business. We sat at a table in the back, with a window next to me at my left, and a window behind Kohina, ahead of me. We were served our food, and it was about ten minutes after when I started the conversation.
"So, how's Jake?"
She took another bite of her salmon. "I don't know," she said after she chewed. "He left me a month ago."
"Is that why you are here with me now?" I asked.
She looked at me, her eyes soft, "Miroku, I'm so sorry about what happened between us. I still think about you all the time, can we give it another shot?"
I looked at her firmly, "Kohina, do you really think I would forgive you after cheating on me? What kind of guy do you think I am?"
She placed her hands on her lap and looked at her food. "I knew you wouldn't be so quick to forgive me, but I'm really sorry. I thought after you'd see me now, and after you knew how sorry I was, you'd, maybe, give me another chance."
I leaned back in my seat. "It's not that easy."
She looked at me, her eyes pleading, "tell me why, Miroku. I want to know why you wont take me back. I want to know the whole reason why."
I sighed and looked out of the window. "I loved you. You were the first one in the world that I really, truly loved, Kohina. I thought what we had was special. I thought it would never end. In fact, the night I caught you with him, I was going to ask you to be my wife."
She sniffed, and I bet she was about to cry. Let her cry.
"When I saw you kissing him, when I saw his hands on you, when I saw your hands on him," I continued, trying to stay strong and not cry myself. "I felt like a knife had stabbed me a hundred times over. I was upset, but most of all, I was mad. I'm a man, I get mad. But, I'm a Christian man. I know how to deal with my anger. I know how to control it. But... I didn't know if I could do that then."
She looked down, her eyes wet. "I thought you would kill me right then and there if you had a weapon, or a chance."
"I wouldn't have done that," I said, shaking my head. I refused to look at her, so I kept my eyes outside. "I stood there, for about ten minutes, thinking if it was real, if that was really you, if you would even do that to me. But, once your lips left his mouth, and you said my name, it was all over. Everything I had ever thought and hoped, vanished."
She sniffed and brought her napkin to her eyes and wiped them. "I didn't know what I was thinking when that happened," she said softly. "I wish I could change it all."
I looked at her, she was crying, but she was faking it. She lied to me once, I wasn't going to believe her anymore. I shook my head and looked out the window again. "You can't change the past, but you can shape your future."
She looked at me, "what are you saying?"
"Kohina, leave. I don't want you in my life anymore. It pains me to say this, but, I can't stand the sight of you anymore. I can't bear to talk to you. If I do, I feel like I want to scream and, and do something terrible. Please, just leave me alone for the rest of my life."
She looked upset, but she nodded, grabbed her things, and left.
I hated to say it, I honestly did. But, it was true. If I saw her, I wanted to throw up. Every time I saw her, I saw Jake, her lips on his, his hands on her body that once belonged to me. Every time I heard her voice, saying something nice to me, I hear her saying those words to Jake as well. I hear her telling him things she never told me. I couldn't stand it.
I pulled out my wallet, paid the check, and walked out. Maybe see Sango will help clear my mind. I really hope so.
~*~
AN: What did you guys think? Yeah, it was long. Well, the reason I can write this kind of sad thing, is something happened to me in a similar way. I didn't see him kiss another girl, but, I can't stand to see him or talk to him. Yeah, that's about it. Sad, I know. I really loved him. But, most guys are jerks, and I found that out the hard way. Wells, I better get going now. I have to reply to so many reviews for my other story, I better get going now. Later!
Oh! A fan of mine and I are making a Witch Hunter Robin fic, and we would like people to read it. We don't have a title yet, but, I will let you know once we figure that out. It will be under her pen name, and it's Strawberrylover. So, yeah. Please read it once we make it! Thanks! Bye!
RobinluvsAmon ^_^