Shining Collection

Author's Notes: Sorry about the late update in Chapter 2.. our computer didn't want us to use the internet.. which meant no Ragnarok for me.. and what a great birthday for me.. and I was planning to update on my birthday. Oh but misfortune rules me! Life sucks. But anyway, here's your dose of Ryu/Shu!

Warning: OOC, Scene Changes, Typos, YAOI

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Chapter 3: Even if My Heart is Broken, You Still Shine

(A week later..)

His hug kept on running through my mind. I sighed as I curled up into a small ball on my bed, hugging Kumagoro at the same time.

A lone tear trailed down my cheek as a thought ran through my head. "Shu-chan ill never love me.. Kumagoro.." Another tear fell don as I sobbed and hugged Kumagoro tighter. "He loves Eiri-san.. not me.. and I'm sad because Eiri-san treats him like a.. a.. brat.."

I buried my face in my pillo and said, "Demo.. Shu-chan isn't like that.. he's not like that at all.."

 Overslept the next day ith the heavy feeling still in my chest. I didn't even feel like getting out of bed. I just wanted to stay at home.. but.. I wanted to see if Shu-chan was alright.. I didn't want to see him crying.. I wanted him to smile at me.. the smile which made him shine.

So, I stood up, got ready for work and got Kumagoro. Then, I heard someone knocking on my door. Curious as to who it was, I ran to the door and opened it. Then I saw a slightly frowning Tohma. "TOHMA! What brings you here, na no da?"

He walked in and answered my question in a disappointed tone. "I've called this house more than ten times and you weren't answering, Ryuichi-san.."

"Ah.. wari, wari, Tohma-kun.. I overslept.." I said sheepishly. I then saw the look of worry on his face. "Don't worry Tohma! Daijoubu, na no da! But.. thanks for your concern."

Tohma smiled and nodded. "I'm also here to pick you up, Ryuichi-san.. let's go."

"Hai, no da!" I said cheerfully as I got out of the door.

While in the car, I tried my best in hiding that heavy feeling in my chest by being cheerful. "Ne, Tohma.. what are we gonna do today, na no da?"

"We'll be recording for our comeback CD." Tohma answered.

"That we would fun! I'm so excited, no da!" I thought for a second and asked Tohma, "So.. Nori-chan's comin' too?" I saw him nod. I smiled even wider. Nittle Grasper's back again and reunited! I thought, "Will we be able to see Shu-chan there? Well, I'll find out soon enough.. I wish I'll see him happy not sad.. because it worries me..'

"Ryuichi-san?" Tohma's statement woke me out of daze.

"Nani?" I asked.

"Is there is something?"

"Iie.. betsuni.. nothing's wrong.." I said even though deep down.. there was indeed something wrong.

Tohma looked like he didn't believe me. "Really Tohma! I'm fine, na no da!"

Tooke de me o hikarasete mezameru monotachi matteiru

yoru no jouheki sasowarete utsurisumu mure no nuke gari ni

I sang with all my passion and love for singing. It would've been better if Shuichi was watching me.. but I guess I expected too much.

Ima mo todo kano hikari no yukue azayaki ni mau omoi o egakou

'Maybe if I see him later at their room.. I think that's a good time to talk with him..'

Michibiku kotoba ga koborete shimawanu you ni utsuru toki o oserenaide—

I stopped singing when Tohma and Noriko-chan stopped playing. "What's wrong? I-is my singing  bad, na no da?"

"It's not bad Ryu-chan.. but you seem.. preoccupied or something." Noriko-chan told me. Tohma seemed to agree with her.

"Gomen.. let's try again.." I told them as I held the microphone tighter. Maybe I was thinking about Shu-chan too much.. I should just get singing finished first and see him later.

The music stopped yet again and I looked up at them, confused. "You aren't singing, Ryu-chan! Just what is it running through your mind?!" Noriko-chan said with much disbelief.

My eyes began to fill with tears jus like a little boy's. "Gomen da yo! I.. I.. was just doing some thinking, na no da.."

Noriko-chan then ran up to me. "Don't cry, Ryu-chan! It's okay!" She looked up at Tohma and said, 'Let's take a break, Tohma-kun."

Tohma nodded and we all went out of the room. "I'll be back at 2 o' clock, Tohma-kun, ja!" Noriko-chan waved good-bye and left.

Tohma and I were walking down the hallway towards the cafeteria when we bumped into a hysterical Sakano-san. "Sakano-san, is something the matter?" Tohma asked Bad Luck's producer.

"Shindou-kun hasn't arrived yet! He's later than usual!" He said hysterically.

"Shuichi hasn't come yet?" I asked but I didn't let the disappointment go through my voice.

Suddenly, Hiro-kun, Shu-chan's best friend came and told us that Shu-chan was sick and was staying at Eiri-san's place.

"Shu-chan's sick?" I looked at Tohma. "Could I please visit him, Tohma? Onegai, na no da!" I just couldn't help but get worried about this pink-haired boy. I saw Tohma nod and I continued, "Hiro-kun, do you know any kind of treat that Shu-chyan likes?"

"Strawberry pocky's his favorite." He answered.

"Arigatou, na no da! Off to the stores then! Ike Tohma-kun!" I said as I I ran off towards the cafeteria.

I got out of Tohma's car while carrying a full plastic bag of strawberry pocky. "I'll wait here outside for you, Ryuichi-san.." He told me when he didn't come out of the vehicle.

"You won't go in, na no da?" I asked him.

"It's alright."

"If you say so.. se ya' later, no da!" I knocked on the door and called out Shu-chan's name. Why wasn't anyone answering my calls? Then the door opened slightly. It wasn't locked after all! And I was ther knocking like an idiot. So.. I walked in and searched for Shuichi. "Shuichi? Eiri-san? Anyone home?" I asked.

It was then when I passed by a hallway with a door opened. I looked inside but did not go in.  My eyes then widened with shock and jealousy as I saw Shuichi's lips on Yuki's.. They.. THEY WERE KISSING!!!

Out of shock, I droped the plastic bag of pocky on the floor and they both stopped kissing each other to look at what happened. My hands shivered as I got the plastic bag and Shuichi approached me.

"Sa-sakuma-san.. a-ano.." He said as he got the strawberry pocky, which fell on the floor.

The heavy feeling became heavier as tears threatened to escape from my eyes. "Shu-shu-chan.. I.. I heard from Hiro-kun you were sick so.. so.. I thought.." I paused and rubbed my eye with a free hand. "I-I thought.. I'd.. I'd visit you and all and give you.. some strawberry pocky.." I stammered nervously.

I breathed in deeply to stop the tears from falling down my cheeks. "Sakuma-san.. daijoubu desu ka?" He asked me, quite worriedas I gave him the pocky.

I forced a smile on my face, which made it harder for me to conceal my emotions. "Daijoubu, Shu-chan.." I turned my back at him and said, "I'm-I'm glad for you and Eiri-san.. ja na no da!" I said and ran towards the door.. anguish and agony filling my very heart and soul.

I ran outside the apartment and didn't even bother to get in Tohma's car as I ran towards my apartment, broken-hearted.

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Well, finished that part.. Poor Ryu-chan.. some of you might say.. but if you wanna know if he'll be happy or not, I have to continue the story. And if I will continue the story, I need your reviews.. SO PLEASE REVIEW AND GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO LIVE!! ARIGATOU NA NO DA!