Shining Collection
Author's Notes: WOW! I'd bet your reaction was: "WOW!! Coolk updated! And it's been soooo long!" Yeah. Indeed it has been sooooo long. I can't even remember my last update! Could anyone remind me? Lol. It's not that I'm busy, I'm just so darned lazy that's all. But still there was this sad thing that happened. I indeed was about to update this about 2 or a month ago... But suddenly… our computer had a virus in it and we had to get it fixed soooo… all my files were erased and it's good-bye to all my files.
I remember… 4 chapters of "Ill Travel Through Time" which was ready for an update any time were there… And now it's gone! cries long and hard All my efforts gone I tell you!! WHY?!
And it's back to school again!!!!!!! Which sucks, by the way… Damn it all. Specially now that I have Chemistry, Geometry, Trigonometry… and World History to tackle… I'll be busier than ever! Noooooooooooo! What's a junior like me to doooooo?!! So much frustrations…. But it's good that my insomnia's gone… sigh
Okay, enough chitchat. Here are my review replies…
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Akina Tsukana- Lol… just wanna test my brain into writing. Heh. I guess he's not that evil too. I mean… He JUST pushed Aizawa to a raging car right, right?!
"the girl… blah blah. I know that's you Natsue"- I love to disturb people, especially you. But you disturb me more than I disturb myself. Oh well. Here's what you wanted since I am soooo nice.
Dna18- No, I, the author am responsible for Tohma's thoughts. Lol. Forgot about it, sorry. Of course there'll be hintings! This is a yaoi fic after all!
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BTW, it's back to Ryuichi POV.
Shining Collection: Chapter 5: Kiss Shining
I looked at the clouds up at the light blue sky. Why were they so high? They're like Shu-chan… he's so hard to reach… or Shu-chan could be the stars, which are even farther away… I just wish… I'll get a bit closer… I… I want to reach him… to reach Shu-chan…
I closed my eyes and felt the wind. Shu-chan was also like the wind… so fast… I couldn't chase him…
I laid on the grass and looked once again at the clouds. I smiled as I saw a cloud that suspiciously looked like Shuichi. "Shuichi…"
"Yes, Sakuma-san?" I heard Shuichi's voice say.
I woke up from my reverie to find out I was at Tohma's room with Shuichi. My cheeks reddened a bit but my childish voice covered it. "Ano… iie… betsuni, Shu-chan!"
Shu-chan looked at me with a look that told me, 'Sakuma-san… about what happened last Thursday…' I knew he was about to say it… so I had to cut him off quickly.
"Ne, Shu-chan, you wanna draw?" I asked.
Shuichi smiled and said, "That'd be great!"
What were we doing in Tohma's office in the first place, you ask? Well, Tohma-kun was away and I was there and Shuichi came in.
So I got my sketchpad and coloring materials. I'd better be careful… Tohma wouldn't like it all if he saw drawings on the floor!
I looked at Shuichi, quietly drawing something on his sketchpad. I blinked as I looked at it and frowned just a bit. I recognized the blonde hair all to easily. Eiri-san yet again… Always him… never me…
I looked at my own drawing and sighed… It reminded me of that day… When I saw them kissing… As much as I wanted to forget it, I couldn't… I just couldn't… It was stuck in some part of my mind and was hard… really hard to erase… No matter how positively I looked at it… the pain was still there.
I always did tell myself the past few days… 'At least he's happy… at least he's well now… at least he liked the strawberry pocky…'
I stared at my drawing… so lifeless… so not shining… so… not me… I felt that my drawing represented the sad Ryu-chan now…
I heard Shu-chan tear off the paper and crumpled it. He got a new color… brown and started drawing. 'Hmm… I wonder what or who Shu-chan's gonna draw…' I thought.
It was a few minutes later when I gave up on drawing… it depressed me for some reason…
"Hmm… Sakuma-san…"
"Shuichi! Don't scare me like that, na no da!" I said, still in shock. Shu-chan just came out of nowhere then to my side.
"Sakuma-san, you look depressed… but I hope this can cheer you up!" He then showed me a drawing of a brown-haired man who was singing on stage… It was a few seconds later when I realized who he drew.
"That's… that's me…"
"Hai! This manner suits you best, Sakuma-san! I don't want you to be depre—" He stopped short when he noticed I was crying. "Sakuma-san… what's wrong? I-is my drawing no good?"
I smiled happily and wiped my tears with my handkerchief. "Nothing's wrong Shu-chan! Your drawing's the best I've seen ever, no da! And I'm just so happy!" I hugged him and thought, 'He cares for me! He really does!! Oh, Shu-chan… my Shu-chan…'
"Konnichiwa, Tohma!" I greeted Tohma the next day as I entered his office. I got Kumagoro and showed him to Tohma. "Kumagoro asks if you're fine, na no da!"
Tohma chuckled heartily as usual and answered, "Hai, daijoubu, Kumagoro-san…" He looked at me when I was smiling widely. "You're so cheerful today, Ryuichi-san… did something happen?"
I shook my head and smiled, "Iie! Nothing happened, Tohma! Or if something did happen… maybe I've forgotten, na no da!"
"So you have… what have you been doing when I was gone?" He asked.
"Ahahaha! I remember now, na no da! We were coloring, na no da! It was so much fun!" I answered. "And you know what, Tohma?" I said in a semi-serious tone. "He cares for me and doesn't want to see me depressed… I'm… I'm so glad, na no da…"
"Ryuichi-san?" Tohma asked worriedly as jewel-like tears filled my eyes. "Then why?"
"Why am I crying? I don't know… Maybe I'm happy? Who knows?"
There was a long pause of silence… and it was then I looked up at Tohma all happy again, "That's why I've decided to tell him today, na no da!" I smiled, a genuine smile… not like the ones I show everyday…the true smile… "I'm gonna tell him how I feel… I'm gonna ask him to go to the park after dinner…"
Tohma smiled at me. "Well then, ganbatte, Ryuichi-san!" He said cheerfully.
"Arigatou, Tohma! You're a true friend, na no da! DAISUKI!" I said and hugged him right over his table.
He chuckled and replied, "Ore mo…"
I released him from my clutches, said good-bye and got out of the door. The only problem now was how to invite Shu-chan…
"How, how, how?" I thought out loud. I had my head down and was thinking when I bumped into HIM… literally… "Ah! Shu-chan!" I looked down at the floor nervously as the color red invaded the flesh of my cheeks.
"Ohayou, Sakuma-san! Ii tenki desu ne?" Shuichi said as he looked out the window at the clear blue sky.
"H-hai, no da!' I replied quickly. "So… uhh… Shu-Shu-chan…" I looked at my shoes and said shyly… "Would you… would you like to go to the park later… after dinner… when you're free that is…"
Shu-chan smiled and replied, "I'd be glad to go, Sakuma-san! I'll see you later then, I still have work, ja!" He said and ran off towards their recording room.
I smiled widely and jumped up in the air while I said, "YATTA!"
I sat down a bench that night and waited for Shu-chan to arrive. I looked at my watch a quarter past eight… I've been there waiting for him for almost an hour now and every minute I had to wait made me more nervous. 'What will he say? What will he think of me? Will he hate me? Or will he love me back?' I thought as I waited longer on the bench.
It was a few minutes later when I heard someone with a familiar voice singing my song. "Shuichi?" I stood up and saw him, singing with a smile plastered on his face.
"Sakuma-san! There you are! Sorry I'm late!" He ran towards me as he apologized. "Sumimasen!!"
"Heki, heki! As long as you're here, it's fine by me!"
"Umm… what do you want to talk about?"
"Nothing much! I just wanted to spend some quality time with you, na no da!" I smiled. "You're pretty special! Not many people get to spend time with me…"
"I do feel that way! And I have you to thank, Sakuma-san!" He said happily as he sat down the bench.
"Does Eiri-san make you feel special?" I asked.
"Well, sometimes… I mean… I love him very much and whenever he loves me back, I feel extra special!" Shuichi answered.
"Sou ka…" I paused and breathed in deeply. This was the moment of truth. I have to tell him now. "Well, would you feel special if I loved you?" I asked nervously.
"Extra super special… but I doubt you would… I mean… I'm just an amateur singer… and… and…"
"Well, maybe you feel extra super special…"
"Huh?…" He asked, quite confused.
"Because… I really am in love with you…" I said and placed my lips on his with much hesitation.
When I broke the kiss, he stared at me… shocked and utterly confused. "Sa-Sakuma-san… do-doshite?"
"I couldn't stop it, Shuichi… I couldn't stop this feeling… All I want now is for you to love me back… please…" I said hopefully as I held his hands in mine.
"Was that why… last Thursday you…" He stuttered.
"Hai… and I felt sad… because…"
"But you know that I love Yuki and I have no intentions on cheating on him…" I love him and I would give everything I have to him…" He said and took his hands away from my grip.
Tears threatened to escape my eyes just as that very day when my heart was torn apart… And here was my "aisuru hito"… tearing it to shreds once again… "W-What about me?"
"I love you too, Sakuma-san… demo… it's not the same love I have for Yuki… I love you as my friend and idol, Sakuma-san… and I guess my feelings can't surpass that… Gomen nasai…" Shuichi said and looked at my eyes with those violet orbs of his.
"Daijoubu… you don't have to say sorry… I was the fool who fell for you anyway… Sorry if I wasted your time… You could've spent it with Yuki… but I…" I said and smiled sadly. I tried to stop my tears… but I guess… I guess… I was too vulnerable at the moment and they all flowed down my cheeks.
"Sakuma-san?" He asked, surprised at my sudden outburst of tears.
"Daijoubu… I… I… have to go now… Ja!" And I ran again… I ran away from him for the second time… and this time, my heart felt like paper, which was just then… torn to shreds and thrown at the waste bin…
Omataseeeeeeeeeeee!!!! WOW! How long? Okay… I already asked that… Oh well…
Who here is sad for Ryu-chan?? Hehe… You guys wanna know more? Review and tell me your opinion and I'll continue… Well, it IS longer than chapter 4, right?
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KK… Guess that's all for today! Hope you enjoyed reading! And we're half way done! What? Did I hear someone groan? Sorry guys… Can't make it longer… 4 more chappies to gooooo… I wonder what fic I'll do next… Maybe the BalmungxKite I was planning… Maybe, yeah…
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Chapter 6: Make Me Shining
Shuichi has a concert… Will the Legendary Sakuma Ryuichi come? What conflict will these two singers encounter now?