I keep my eyes intently focused on that of Kai's, though he says nothing in answer to my question. I watch as he adverts his gaze and lowers his head, I sigh sadly but then he nods his head before looking back up into my eyes. I'm slightly taken back when I realise he's blushing. My heart races, 'he said yes' well he didn't exactly say it but in all the languages I have heard of a nod means yes, however my happiness begins to subside when the confusion of yesterday comes back to my mind. 'Why did he say yes now but no yesterday?' I stop thinking long enough to realise that Kai's no longer looking at me but at the blankets of the bed.
"Kai... are you ashamed of me?" I ask with a slight hint of hesitation, 'was I really ready for the answer to this question?' It was the only reasonable explanation that my mind could come up with for Kai's answer yesterday.

...Kai's POV...

I snap my head up in shock and open my mouth to say something but nothing comes out, I don't know what to say; my whole life I had grown up with the ability to avoid situations such as this. I know that I'm not a shamed of Rei, 'but how do I explain yesterday to him when I don't really understand what went on myself?' I stop mid way through my thoughts to see Rei looking at me, his eyes a mixture of pain and sadness at my lack of response. I cringe slightly; I hate the way I always seem to end up hurting him when he's been nothing but good to me. I watch as he goes to turn around and maybe even to leave, I quickly place my hand on his should. I don't want him to leave me.
"I'm not a shamed of you," I tell him sincerely.

I watch him my heart full of anxiety, he looks somewhat relived but I can tell something is still bothering him, something from yesterday that is still lingering in the darkest part of his mind.
"But why... why did you deny it?" he asks and its clear that this is tearing him up inside. I try and explain but find my self constantly stumbling over the same words, the same scenes again and again. I pause and look up at him, he seems to be debating something in his mind I want to ask what it is but I find that the best thing for me to do at the moment is to try and fix the mess I have made. I tell him of my hate of weakness, my inability to comprehend that I could have a weakness... I find my self rambling which probably not the best thing to do so I stop...
"...please forgive me," I ask of him in quiet desperation.

...Rei's POV...

We sit in silence, an awkward, heavy silence, and I find myself wishing he would say something; anything so that I wouldn't have to. However, I know that he wont say anything, it's my turn but what do I say. I want to forgive him that is clear in my heart, I don't think I could have found it in my heart to stay mad at him at all, but there's one thing that I don't want. For him to go back and become the bastard he once was; I don't want the pain to have been for nothing.

I know I cant change him and that I have no right two even try to change him, part of love is accepting people as they are, accepting both their good qualities and their bad ones. I'm willing to accept this but I have I feeling that I my haven gotten through to him somewhere deep within his heart and that knowledge is enough for me. I stop thinking, I think I have done enough of that in the past day to last me a lifetime. I move passively over to sit beside Kai his eyes, full of uncertainty, follow every movement I make. I pause and kneel beside Kai, smiling softly before wrapping my arms around his neck, nuzzling my face against his and in his hair...
"You're forgiven..." I whisper into his ear and he lets out a sigh of relief as though he had been holding his breath the whole time awaiting my final decision.

I feel at peace with myself, with my life once more as I feel Kai's strong arms wrap possessively around my waist.
"Thankyou..." I here him say ever so softly that even my keen ears strain to hear, though its worth it, It's a rare thing to hear Kai apologise. The good and the bad qualities, I'm happy for them all as they all attribute to what makes Kai, Kai. I smile in content, I've been given the ultimate gift; the love of my leader and I wouldn't change I thing.

The End

Hope you enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed writing it (and being able to finish writing it .)