Chapter Sixteen: Standing Up to Snape and Hidden Truth's
"Pssssssst."
Hermione
refused to look behind her.
"Psssssssssst...Hermione."
The
whispering was growing louder, and was having the effect of a bee
buzzing past her ear. She frowned deeply and went back to writing
down the steps from the board, careful not to confuse any
ingredients. Hermione had been pretending to write for a good five
minutes now, all in hopes to seem to busy to assist Neville.
Potion's
class had turned out to be just what Hermione was hoping for. The
same. Snape hadn't shown her any more or any less attention, and he
wasn't overly malicious or cruel to her. He saved that honor for
Neville, who at this moment was frantically trying to get Hermione's
attention.
It
had only been a few days since the horrible meeting catastrophe, and
after extensive breathing exercises Hermione had gone back down to
the Headmaster's office and apologized, agreeing with him that the
plan was best for her safety.
The
worst of it all was that she still hadn't told Ginny that she
wouldn't be coming to the burrow in the summer. Every time it was
brought up in the common room or over meals Hermione would grasp at
the chance to change the subject.
Now
in Potion's class Hermione was determined not to get into trouble,
but felt that familiar ache to help a fellow classmate. She couldn't
help but feel satisfied when she ordered Neville to do things, she
felt like she was his own private Potion's teacher and in doing so
often felt a surge of power.
Many
called her bossy, and she didn't really let that get to her, she
simply liked things done her way and in that regard when it came to
ordering about in Potion's, Neville was an excellent pupil.
But
now she refused to help him, she wouldn't even turn around to
acknowledge him. If Snape caught her even trying to assist him, she
knew he wouldn't hold back the cruelty.
Knowing
her luck he'd slither over to them with that smirk on his face, and
say in a loud voice, Now now Miss Granger, is that any way for a
fiancée of mine to act? Ten points!
Moments
earlier Snape had gone through the class list, pairing up students
with rapid mumblings coming from his lips. To her immense relief he
had paired her up with Harry who along with Ron had started acting
like their old selves around her again.
"Ready
Hermione?" Harry asked with a smile as he motioned to the seat
next to her. Hermione nodded brightly and gathered her ingredients on
her desk and looked to Harry as he pulled the cauldron onto the
tabletop.
After
a few moments Hermione noticed that Neville was no longer calling her
name, and she breathed a sigh of relief. Soon she and Harry were
stirring and mixing and cutting. Everything was going splendidly, and
judging by Neville's lack of annoying calls to her, he must be doing
fairly well also.
Just
to make sure Hermione looked behind her...and held in a piteous sigh.
Neville had been paired up with Goyle who was currently laughing and
joking along with Malfoy and Crabbe on the other side of the room.
Hermione (Who was sure that due to Snape's enormous bias for his own
house) saw that he didn't even look up from the article he was
reading to tell Goyle to go back and assist Neville.
The
said Gryffindor was holding back choked sobs as he looked into his
empty cauldron, messily wiping his nose on the back of his arm and
wiping the tears from his eyes. Hermione was about to whisper some
directions when a cutting voice stopped her.
"Problem,
Longbottom?"
Snape's
voice cut through the air as Hermione looked up to see him smirking
mercilessly at the near crying boy. Everyone in the classroom looked
to see Neville sniffling once more, and blinking back the tear
droplets still on his eyelashes. Snape gave him an oily smirk of
contempt as he stood slowly, knowing this was agony for the
dunderhead.
Hermione
felt he heart go out for the poor boy, as it wasn't his fault he
didn't understand potions. Perhaps if Snape had given him half a
chance and worked with him, this wouldn't have ever been an issue.
But of course, big bad Snape couldn't lower himself to doing such a
thing, and now in turn was persecuting Neville for his own shoddy
teaching skills!
"N-no
sir. No problem." Neville said shakily, having gone instantly
pale the moment Snape even mentioned his name. Hermione prayed that
this would be the end of it, Snape would have finished his fun for
today. But it didn't stop.
"It
looks like a problem." Snape snapped, angrily standing and
walking slowly up the aisle that separated Hermione and Neville's
tables. Hermione and Harry watched the scene play out, along with the
rest of the class who were pretending to work but in truth looking at
Snape and Neville. "You haven't even started on your
potion."
"No,
please sir." Neville pleaded, trying to whisper his plea. Snape
although as the unfeeling bastard that he was ignored poor Neville's
whispered begging and went on surveying the boy as he circled him,
knowing that would only cause Neville to become more and more
nervous.
Goyle
chuckled loudly, along with the rest of the Slytherin's as Neville
looked to them embarrassed a moment before meeting Snape's dark
eyes again, trembling, much to the glee of one Malfoy.
Neville
seemed to be a bit of amusement for the Slytherin's in the class, too
often was he the butt of their jokes and entertainment. Sometimes
Draco would slip something into Neville's potion just to have it blow
up and have Snape scream at the poor boy. Time and time again the
Gryffindor's had defended Neville, but Snape with his usual bias
ignored them and now, with a crushing smirk he went on patronizing
the shaking boy.
"In
all my years teaching here I have never come across a more inept and
more moronic boy than you...Stop your blubbering Longbottom, it's
most unbecoming."
Hermione
clenched her teeth in anger as Snape said this, and with every tear
that Neville choked back Hermione found herself growing more furious
and more furious. Poor Neville was going to burst out sobbing in a
moment, and she felt herself blinking back sympathetic tears as she
viewed Neville's tearstained face. Had Snape no sympathy for him?
Did he not realize Neville's hardships? Evidently not.
"Your
blatant lack of talent amazes me at times." Snape was going on,
enjoying the chuckles from the Slytherin side of the room. "I
still wonder myself if you're not a squib."
Neville's
lower lip was trembling now and a feeling of pure black hate towards
Snape sprouted within Hermione and before she could even stop
herself, she saw red, her body shook and her hands curled into
furious fists as she yelled out;
"JUST
SHUT UP!"
Snape
whirled around with black, bottomless eyes filled with sudden fury.
His pale lips were twitching in anger and Hermione felt a lump of
fear form in her throat.
Harry
looked to Hermione in shock, had his long time friend the bookworm
just told a teacher, this teacher of all of them, to shut up?
Hermione Granger? The girl who cried and nearly fainted when they
spelled him that time in the shrieking shack?
Snape's
eyes were narrowed on Hermione's and she felt herself growing faint
but she still held firm. Poor Neville didn't deserve to be
humiliated. When Snape finally spoke to her his voice was venomous
and barely above a whisper.
"What
did you say to me Granger?"
Now,
this is the point in the horrid event where Hermione could have just
pretended to have said something else. She could have pretended to
faint, or even run out of the room screaming. In the end she did none
of these.
Instead,
with a well placed scowl on her face that rivaled that of Snape
himself, she looked up at the tormenter of many and said in firm
tone:
"I
said, Just. Shut. Up. You're being unnecessarily cruel and Neville's
trying his hardest."
At
this admonition one could have heard a pin drop in the dungeons. The
Slytherin's were looking to Hermione in shock and even Snape looked
close to sputtering as Hermione finally slumped back into her seat
and began crushing some beets feeling the pulsing in her temples
slowing. Snape was still glaring at her.
"Excuse
me?"
Now
after what Hermione had said and done she felt a sense of pride wash
over her, and that small look of thanks in Neville's eyes had been
all the payment she needed. But now that the heat of the moment was
gone, and no more was she to play the valiant hero, she felt more
scared than she had ever in her life.
What
could she say?
She
opened her mouth to speak, but nothing came out and she saw a flicker
of cruel amusement cross over in his bottomless eyes. Eyes that saw
nothing but shades of gray in life.
"I
thought as much."
Hermione's
cheeks burned with shame at the injustice of it all and she began to
write on her parchment, trying to deflect the looks from all around
the classroom. It had been a stupid thing to do, but it had to be
done.
Snape
was at the front of the class now, looking at Hermione with a strange
look in his eyes. The class hung onto his every word, pretending to
be working; they all knew what would happen next. The Punishment.
Snape
himself was almost speechless. Almost. This didn't happen very
much, but at Granger's outburst he had nearly gaped at her. Imagine
that little brat yelling at him? To protect Longbottom? Honestly,
there was house pride and then there was just being a nuisance.
He
was deeply offended at the gall Granger had displayed in telling him
to shut up, he couldn't imagine and more out of character and rude
thing to do when he was trying to strike fear into that dunderhead
Longbottom and get him to listen. That was the only way to teach;
intimidation.
She
was obviously taking this 'fiancée' thing too far and
thought she could walk all over him, in his own classroom! Well he'd
show her.
Although
he would have loved to personally deal with the little chit, his
evenings were full, and to be perfectly honest he refused to deal
with her longer than he had to. He knew he'd be seeing far too much
of her this coming summer. He just hoped the little baby would learn
her lesson with Filch.
"I
think detention for a week with Filch will change your attitude Miss
Granger." Snape said tersely as Hermione hung her head defeated.
Detention? Her? She blinked back humiliated tears as Snape continued
venomously, making sure his point was made.
"And
if that doesn't work, I'm sure expulsion will."
As
the weeks dragged on Hermione's spirits soon began to diminish. The
golden trio had only a few more weeks until the summer break, and
normally she would have been overjoyed at the chance to catch up on
some new reading. But she now realized what was to become of her
summer's destiny. She was doomed to a dismal summer with Professor
Snape. Just the thought of Harry enjoying his summer with everyone
else at the burrow, and waking up to a lovely breakfast cooked by
Mrs. Weasley, made Hermione sick. Professor Snape was sure to make
her summer as miserable as possible.
The
weather was warming up even more, and far too often Hermione fell
prey to a mid afternoon slumber outside under a warm beam of the sun
near the lake. The repetitive ripples of the water hypnotized her as
she dazed off many afternoons. It Seemed sleep was the only way to
elude what her life was slowly turning out to be; horrid.
After
that afternoon in Potions class, not only did the Gryffindors come up
after class and congratulate her on her outburst, even some of the
Slytherin's hadn't been so bad. Malfoy had stopped calling her
mudblood for a whole hour, and this had been a welcome commodity.
Neville
himself had come up with a box of cookies (sent by his Gran), and
giving Hermione a shy hug had handed them to her and thanked her
endlessly. She had been flattered by all the attention at first, but
by the end of two hours she was starting to understand how Harry felt
every day.
Filch
hadn't been so bad, her detention was only polishing trophies around
the school, and believe it or not that had been a big job, although
not as dreadful as washing bedpans by hand. Hermione suspected Filch
was easy on her from pity and as a normally proud girl Hermione would
have refused such an offer, but she couldn't help but welcome it now.
Another part of her was sure Filch was pleased someone finally told
Snape off.
Since
then she'd been near silent in class and Snape hadn't even given her
a second glance. They'd also not had any meetings since the last one,
and Hermione wondered if it was because they wanted to give her a
break or because they were at a loss. Neither ideas gave her a
confident feeling.
"Hey
'Mione." Harry said catching her on one of her relaxing binges
outside under the cooled confines of a tree. The shade was bringing
relief as she watched the lake glisten under the sunlight's watchful
gaze. She had been reading a new updated version of 'Most Potente
Potions.'
"Hey
Harry." She said sluggishly, her eyes closed as the back of her
head rested on the gnarled trunk of the tree. Harry looked around the
nervously before looking back at Hermione.
"Aren't
you worried to be out here on your own?" Harry asked a bit
frightened and Hermione could only offer a saddened laugh as she
shook her head.
"Dumbledore
assures me that Voldemort won't act again for some time, but just in
case..." she motioned with her head to her right of her as Harry
turned to look.
McGonagall
sat a few yards away under the confines of a black umbrella, reading
some book intently. Harry looked back to Hermione's smiling face and
sat next to her, much closer than normal and for a few moments they
sat in contented silence. Hermione wondered how many days like this
she would have.
"How
have you been?" He asked leaning his head against the tree trunk
as well, looking out to the lake as Hermione was before. She shrugged
lightly, scratching her calf absently as the grass tickled it.
"Fine.
I try not to think too much about the future." she admitted
sadly, looking to Harry's eyes a moment before breaking away. Harry
nodded, looking to her peculiarly.
"You
look happier." He said with a comforting grin.
"I
am." she admitted with a small smile, "The Headmaster
assures me this whole thing won't ever happen...but you know me. I
worry."
"You
won't have to marry that git Hermione, so don't even think about it."
Harry said determinedly pounding his fist lightly onto the lush grass
ground as Hermione laughed lightly at his boyish gesture.
It
was then that Hermione noticed how Harry was staring at her, very
intently and she looked to her hands a moment, not sure of what to
say next as the air around them changed and became a bit awkward.
"There's
something I need to tell you Hermione." Harry said softly,
thankful that Hermione wasn't turning around to face him as he spoke.
He licked his lips a bit, looking nervously to the oblivious Hermione
who said serenely in the grass.
Harry
absently moved his spectacles up the bridge of his nose and prepared
to speak when Hermione whirled around to look at him, her large brown
eyes wide as she offered a quizzical look at the boy who lived to be
humiliated.
"What
did you want to tell me Harry? Is it serious?"
Harry
shook his head, as he felt his stomach flip, stopping him from doing
something he may regret later. He internally berated himself for
being such a coward as Hermione looked back to him with a strange
look on her face as Harry gradually met her gaze and began to blush a
bit.
"Are
you alright Harry?" she asked concerned, "You look a bit
flushed. Have you been in to see Madam Pomfrey?"
Harry
sighed, shaking his head and assuring her that he'd just gotten a
little heated walking over to her. She nodded, accepting this excuse
out of awkward obligation. As if to clear the air, Harry moved a bit
away from her and cleared his throat.
"What're
you reading?"
Hermione's
face suddenly lit up, as she held up the copy of "Ponte's
Potions." from her lap for Harry to see. Harry wrinkled his nose
in question at the offending novel and she shrugged good naturedly,
smirking a bit at her friend's expression.
"It's
really a fascinating read." she explain whole heartedly, trying
not to look too obvious. But Harry a perceptive male at times looked
to her strangely, a small frown on his lips.
"But,
you usually don't read too much Potion's stuff." Harry said
carefully, "You're loads of chapter's ahead anyway."
"Don't
be sickened Harry." Hermione said softly, "But I suppose
I'm just reading up on potions in case..." Hermione trailed off,
not completing her last thought. She didn't need to. Harry was
already making a face at her expense and she felt her cheeks turning
red. She was already humiliated enough.
"...I
just don't want him to hate me anymore Harry."
"So
you figure if you read up on Potions he's going to like you?"
Harry asked loudly, hands on his hips as he looked to her from his
stance, standing a few inches away from her. "You think that if
you read a few books that when you two get married he'll be a
prince?"
Hermione
was surprised to see that he looked furious and squinted into the
sunlight to look closer at him. His lips were in a firm, thin line
and she couldn't help but notice the way his green eyes were flashing
.It figured though, if anyone hated Snape more than she did it had to
be Harry.
"But,
Harry..." Hermione delegated, "You think I want to
marry him?"
"That's
what it sounds like to me."
"That's
preposterous!" Hermione squeaked in indignation, shaking her
head in almost disbelief at the conversation they were having. "I'm
just being prepared. If I'm stuck married to Snape for the rest of my
life I want us to be able to be at least civil to one
another."
"This
is the stupidest thing I've ever heard in my life." Harry said
in a loud voice, gathering his belongings and standing angrily.
Hermione too stood, brushing the grass from her skirt and glaring
angrily at the boy she thought was her friend.
"Who
gave you the right to have say over my life? Your not acting like a
very good friend right now Harry!" Hermione bellowed furiously.
"Yeah
well, maybe I'm not your friend anymore, am I?" Harry
sputtered, screaming the first thing that came to mind.
Hermione
suddenly exploded into an angry bout of tears, pushing Harry's
shoulder as she rushed past him back into the school. McGonagall saw
this and gathering her book and umbrella rushed after Hermione
calling her name.
Harry
watched after Hermione as she ran off in a huff, her books clutched
to her chest as angry tears welled in her eyes. He angrily slammed
his fist against the tree trunk, confused at the emotions stirred
within him.
He'd
never be able to tell her the truth.
