Here I am
Beside myself again
I'm torn apart by words that you have said
All in all, I know we're falling apart
Where did you run to so far away?
And here we are to sing you a song
And there you are, asleep against the window pane
Just like always
You said you like to hear the rain sometimes
And all I can do is tell you the truth
And, oh, my eyes will tell you the same
Ender, Finch.
I need you. I really, really need you. Watching you is causing me pain, dear Remus. Just sitting there, head against the window, asleep like nothing has happened. But it did, don't you forget that. It's been a while now. I can't come back, I can't have what I want so much. I need to come back, I want to come back. I wouldn't even complain about being stuck indoors. I need to be solid again.
Being see-through is quite agitating.
But that doesn't matter. I can still see you.
Why can't you see me? Why wont you see me?
I've heard you yelling. At him. Telling him I'm dead. Telling him you'd go looking for me but there's nothing you can do. Nothing he can do.
I've seen you. He's always there. Doesn't he have a class to teach, the filthy slime ball. Why are you siding with him? Spending time with him?
I don't know why Dumbledore trusts him.
It's starting to rain.
You like the rain. When we were younger you'd always sit, by the window in the common room, or on the windowsill in the dormitory, and listen to it.
You'd just sit there. Just sit there and listen to the rain, like there was nothing else on earth.
Do you remember when I came and sat with you once. It was just you and I, the rain, and nothing else. There seemed to be no one else, nothing else.
Nothing else.
Nothing else.
Nothing else.
Now there's nothing else for me. I'm stuck here in this indeterminate state. Nowhere to go. No one to see.
Nothing but you. I can see you.
Why can't you see me?