Day 10--13:12—The Forest
You know, I really don't get these Jedi... I managed to work up the courage and talked to Master Skywalker about maybe finding a way for me to introduce myself to Kyp and you know what he says?
"Don't let your infatuation obscure your visions of the Force."
And that was it. Infatuation? Obscure? What freaking visions??
"What is wrong is liking someone, Master Skywalker," I then asked, "He is handsome and seems so smart and wonderfully brave." I sighed happily, thinking of my 'encounters' I 'had with him' as I stared at him across the hall. I was so happy to see him in attendance at the last group lecture of the day last night, all dashing in his Jedi attire.
"It's that exactly," Master Skywalker scolded me, "You aren't paying attention to your lessons; you are day dreaming of someone you can't get!"
"Can't get?" I replied, haughtily, "I seriously doubt that. I'll just flash my beautiful pearly smile and he is mine."
"You are much too vain for your own good. A Jedi doesn't crave such things. Clear your mind; erase this childhood crush from your mind."
"Why is it wrong for me to love someone but you can unconditionally?" I retorted, frustrated. What was freaking wrong with this order and its hypocrisy?
"I beg your pardon?" Master Skywalker replied, looking especially shocked. "Whatever could you mean?"
"You are infatuated with Tionne. It is so obvious—you are practically wearing a sign on your shirt. "I love Tionne" it would say. I thought Jedi were able to repress such emotions; hide them from everyone else. I am disappointed." Teasing now, I winked at him, and I decided I had badgered him enough for today. He obviously won't help, so I might as well finish the lessons quickly, get to KP and then see Kyp at lunch. "So, more dancing fire today?"
Master Skywalker stood unmoving, though I continued to ramble and play with the flames in the pit burning beside us. "You can feel that?" he asked, "You can see those feelings? That isn't possible!"
"You weren't hiding them very well," I replied, not looking up from the flames as they wove patterning in the air.
"But I was!" he managed, whining a little as he stomped the ground. I wonder what Tionne sees in him... "No one should have felt that! Not even Tionne."
"Umm... okay, I didn't see anything. Now can I play with fire?"
But the master just wouldn't shut up. He kept raving on about powers and stuff, like it was some new fangled thing. It was like he didn't even know what the Force was, blurting on about not understanding. And to think my parents trusted my care in this loon. He at least did get me out of KP for the day and even got to leave the lesson early, saying something about meditating or something.
Not that goofing off all day was fun or anything. The Wookiee stole Raonie again, so they were gone, Kyp was gone, Master Skywalker has gone completely insane--I am left with the trees and the ants crawling my diary.
So, here I am sitting in the dirt, making my pen float in the air as I think. I gotta meet Kyp somehow, and I gotta get Master Skywalker out of this mental breakdown and I freaking gotta steal my friend back. Stupid Wookiee.
First things first--I gotta find Kyp.
"Hi, my name is Avaline. So you want to be a Jedi too?"
"Hello. It's pretty green here, huh?"
"I like cheese. How about you?"
"I once had a vision of Master Skywalker's bedroom"
"I am a princess, you know..."
Oh lord, I am so scrouged...