"It's too late"
Why did I say that?
Ten minutes later, I'm regretting it. I mean, I've always dreamt of a big surprise, and then the guy of my dreams asking me out, saying that he loves me.
And it was a big surprise. And he was the guy of my dreams.
So why did I feel like someone punched me in the stomach? So why did I scoot my chair back and then jump up and walk away, fast? And why did I feel like I wanted to cry? And never even speak to that worm Ray, who I thought cared about me?
He does, I know that, but I mean…it was a shock. He told them about sucking my thumb.
My thumb.
Honestly, does he think I want the whole school to know that? But, then, I knew he was trying to be sweet. I knew it. And it was! It really took guts! But then when he ran after me, something got inside of me...and the words, "It's too late; It's far too late..." just came out of me.
Why couldn't I bite my lip!? No, I just have to say it! And then I walk away.
Parker comes into the scene and tells me what I've been doing wrong. It was a big surprise, just what I wanted, and then all the things I had said five minutes ago seemed like the most dumbest, idiotic things I have ever done.
Logic once again ruins everything. Logic, actually, didn't ruin anything at all. Just...told me what I was doing wrong, and that moment of time, I didn't really want to be hearing my faults and what I did wrong.
So I walked back into the room and then he starts saying these great things about me, and about that he loves me...and a little fluttering went on in my heart.
At that moment, I wanted everyone to fade out, and then I run over to Ray, and give him a smile, and he smiles back and he kisses me and all would be forgotten.
But, ah, this is reality. And reality is harsh. Very harsh.
I go to Mickey's, and Ray's Mr. Popular. All the girls are over him, and twangs of jealously smack on my heart. I want to run over and say, "I'm sorry.." make him take me back. Tell him that's it not too late, and that I love him...
...and all those supermodel Britney Spear dolls will just get their bimbo butts right out of my one true love's view of me, the girl of his dreams.
At least, the girl of his dreams of an hour ago.
Really, Ray doesn't deserve me. I'm mean, and cruel, and don't realize a good thing that he's done until a few seconds after I screwed everything up.
It is too late. Not for him asking me out, but for me having even a small chance with the sweetest guy on Earth.
It is far too late.
And that's the end!!!!!! Well, of this little 2 chaptered POV story. I had to write this, seriously...it was like, CALLING for me. Now I shall shut up, and let you obsess over RFR with me.
Now I shall get back to writing into my other chaptered stories...
Allie