Pretty Brunette
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Disclaimer : Never gonna be mine. Ever.
Warning : Shounen Ai!!
Summary : I can't even tell, coz maybe the storyline will change anyways. Gomen...
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---Part 6 A Kiss---
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(Squall's POV)
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"Squall!!!"
The door slammed opened, and there it is, a familiar blonde's standing on the way.
"Hey, look who's coming! It's Se........." before he managed to finish his words, I already pulled him away from our seats, trying to ran from Seifer's sight. "Hey,hey, what's........."
"I'll explain later. Let's just get out of here......" I told him as I grabbed his arm, headed for the back door.
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"Squall!!" Seifer rushed inside, searching for either Squall or Irvine, but they're nowhere in sight.
"Hey, have you seen a raven haired lady with grey eyes and cowboy-style brunette here?" I asked to the bartender.
"If I'm not mistaken, they probably went through the back do......" but he didn't care for another second and chased in instant. Rushing through the back door, running along the alley, and when he ended up on a street, there were no signs of his lover.........
"Squall!!".........no matter how hard he shouted......"SQUAAAAAAAALLL!!!"
"......................................................Damn........."
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(Squall's POV)
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"Huff huff huff huff........."
"What's the matter......huff......all of a sudden?" Irvine asked me curiously.
"No, it's nothing"
"Hey, I've told you not to lie to me," I stunned at his words, "there's obviously something wrong. Why did we run because of Seifer?"
"I've told you, it's nothing!" I said, half shouted, "Oh, I'm sorry......I didn't mean......"
"Nah, it's fine," although he said so, I can see awkwardness in his eyes, "anyway, would you like to go to the beach?"
The beach??
"It's right outside of this city, so it'd be easy if you want to go back here" and he smiled.
"...............Ok......"
"There, isn't it beautiful?" he asked as he showed the stunning landscape before us.
"Here, sit beside me......" he directed me to sit with him, so I did. And then, silence engulfed the two of us, again.
"......Is it boring with me?" he suddenly asked.
"Huh?"
"Because it seems that we fell into silence a lot more than having conversations, could it be that you're bored?" he asked me, looking down at the sand beneath us. I can tell that he's anxious.
"No, you're not boring, it's just......"
"Just what?"
".........Never mind......"
"See? That's why I told you that you're bored of me. Everytime I tried to explore you, you always eluded me. If you think I'm dull, then why didn't you just say so?" then he looked away.
"No! No, you're not dull at all. It's just......um......I ......"
He sighed, "well, I won't force you to tell me about yourself. That's your privacy, right? And if you said that I'm not dull, then I'll believe you. I'll believe in your every word, that's all I want you to know" He said as he smiled. A warm, tender smile. A smile that I've never seen it plastered on his face before. And it made my heart bloomed just to see it.
"Aaah, what am I talking about? I'm talking about nonsense......" and he looked away again, a little blushing. Hey, I've never seen him blush, even whenever I saw him with girls before. I couldn't help to smile at him.
"Thank you......"
I don't know why, but he just stare at me with his mouth half-opened. Is there something on my face or what??
"Uh, sorry. It's just rare to see you smile like that. No, I never see you smile so honest ever since," but suddenly he looked sad, "I never thought anyone would ever smile to me .like that......"
"Oh, how come? I can see that you have quite a lot of friends"
"Well, that's true, but......" he stopped for a while, "......I'm sorry for telling you this. If you mind, I'll......"
"No, I don't mind," I said, "please carry on"
"Thanks......it's always like that. I felt that I am the most unwanted person whenever I'm with my friends. Everyone always think of me that I'm just a playboy with no good. And among them, I felt that I'm the weakest one, even compared to the girls. They're good in magic. And the boys, well, they can fight with bare-hands. Of course I can, too, but compared to them, I'm nothing. And like I said before, they might think of me as a burden......"
"But all girls are crazy for you, right?"
"Ha ha, that's correct. But the love they gave me is just emptiness. They don't love me for what I really am, they just love my look. They said that they love me, without knowing my real self. But when I really fell for a girl, it always seems that she's not the right one. For example, I liked Selphie, believe it or not. But she never respond me no matter how hard I tried to be by her side. And then it's Quistis, but you know? She always think of me as an idiot playboy and had no interest in me at all. I just acted normally in front of them all, but deep inside, it hurts. I don't even think if they care about my existence or not......"
"Don't say that! I know that they really care for you"
"What makes you said that? You've just been around me for a week, how can you say that so simple!?" he said, half-shouted. Realized that he was just shouted at me, he apologized immediately, "I......I'm sorry......I didn't mean......"
"It's ok, I understand. .....................You see, I have a friend just like you. He's cheerful and also a playboy like you, and he felt the same feeling as yours. That's why I said that what you thought was wrong. I know that your friends really care for you, no matter how heavy you burdened them. I mean, of course someone with friends would be burdening his friends in vary ways, no matter how independent he is. That's the disadvantage of making friends......But the benefits are, once you've made real friends like them, they'll care for you, support you, ease your burdens and love you 'till death. At least, that's what I felt for my friends. No matter how annoying they could be, still, they're my friends and I love them......" and suddenly I realized that he stared at me, "well, my point is, it......it can't be that your friends hate you. I......um, what the hell am I talking about? It's......"
Abruptly, he laughed out loud.
"W......What?"
"Ha ha......no, it's just funny that I've never talked to anyone about this before, and I never thought I'd tell you or obtained such delicacy words from you. I mean, we've just met for a week, right? And yet I feel like you've known me for such a long time. Ha ha haaa......"
"What? Do you mean that everything I've said to you means nothing?"
"No, in fact, it really means a lot to me. It's just weird that I get such comfort from someone I've just met......a week ago. Thank you, thank you so much......" then he put his head on my shoulder. And it's odd that I didn't have the feel to shove it away. At that moment, I just felt that it was right.
But then, suddenly, Seifer's captured my mind.
The sand beneath me reminded me of Seifer......how his tender touch made my skin beg for more......
The salty scent of the beach reminded me of Seifer......how his scent always filled my lungs like the air breathe......
The gentle sound of the waves reminded me of Seifer......how his gentle voice called my name always made my heart stops beating......
The golden rays of the sun reminded me of Seifer......how his golden aura always enveloped me, ready to melt me whenever he came to me......
The head resting upon my shoulder reminded me of Seifer......how he always rests his head on me......
The warmth of my heart I felt now reminded of Seifer......how he warm hug he gave me always make me feel being loved by the world......
And somehow......somehow everything doesn't feel right anymore......
Suddenly he jerked his head away "What's the matter, Samantha!? Why are you crying??"
What? I'm crying??
When I touched my cheek, it's true, I cried!!
What do I cry for!? The last time I cried was......well......a week ago, but I understand the reason for last week's round. But now......why do I cry??
Could it be that because I can't forget Seifer??
No, I'm sure I've forgot him! It's been a week that we've been avoiding each other, and I'm sure I did a good job in that, right? But then again, what am I crying for??
"Why......"
"What is it, Dear? Is there something wrong? Have I said anything bad to you or......"
"No, nothing." I said shakily as I tried to wipe my tears off.
"Don't lie anymore, Samantha," he said as he grabbed my wrist, "I know since you cried on the balcony a week ago, your eyes seem to be telling me that you're lonely. I know that you're definitely hiding something from me. I won't push you to tell me, but won't it be more soothing if you tell me everything?"
"I......" I'm out of words......
"Go on, I'm listening"
"I..................I had a lover"
"Oh..." then he released his hold on me, "just like I thought, it'd be impossible if you haven't had a boyfriend yet."
"Yes, I HAD one. And I really love him, up until now. But he just look a t me as his toy, nothing more......"
He became curious brusquely, "Oh? And why is that?"
"I don't know! He always said he loves me, but then when he's bored of me, he tried to match me up with his friend so that he can sneak behind me and get a new lover! He never feels jealous whenever his friend tried to flirting with me in front of him, and unbelievably he's fine with all that! And what's shocking, he even slapped me...I can't stand it anymore..."
Hearing all that, he just hugged me.
"......but why can't I forget him? I've been trying to avoid him all the time and I did a good job in that, but still, I can't forget all the things we've been through, all the moments of love I've spent with him, and everything about him! I really love him, and after all we've been through, I was sure that he loved me too, but why did everything turned up into this way? Why..." and I ended up crying in his chest, and he happened to hugged me even tighter.
"Yes, cry as often as you like, cry as hard as you want. I'll always be here, so don't you worry of anything," then he gently touch my head, "why would you waste your time for someone who doesn't love you? Why would you waste your precious tears for him? Why would you waste tearing up your heart for that man? Just try to forget him..."
Then he released his hug and looked deeply into my teary eyes.
"Samantha, I love you..." .........what? "I know we've only met a week ago, and I know that you think I'm a playboy, which is true, but really, I've never felt this to any girls before. I've never got such comfort, such kindness, such care, such manners from other girls before. Not even from my friends, nor even from Quistis and Selphie."
And he just looked into me deeper, making my body and mind started to burn.
"I know this is too fast, but I really love you...I'll make you forget of that man forever, and I'll love you and protect you with my every fiber of being, and I promise that I'll never keep my eyes off of you to any other girls."
It made me laughed lightly, somehow, "you're silly, Irvine..."
"Yes, you may call me silly. You can call me anything you want. You can even do anything to me as you pleased. I just want you to know that I really love you, and I'm not playing with your feelings just like your lover has done to you."
"Irvine......" then he put his temple on mine.
"So, will you give me a chance?" he whispers, making my cheeks burned so bad. I never knew that he really felt this way for me, but sincerely, lately I felt a little love for him. Just a little, but it feels so much after what Seifer has done that night. Just a little, but feels really nice and comforting. And I couldn't help to smile at this.
Seeing me smile, he also smiled and said, "Can I take that as yes?"
And I nodded.
And a second later, he closed the distance between us by kissing my lips gently. A sweet kiss that just felt so right. A gentle kiss with innocent passion of love that he poured on me. A magic, heart-warming kiss that made everything seems to be so right. A kiss that started everything about us, and ended everything about me and Seifer...
I shouldn't have drowned so much that I didn't feel that a pair of stunned eyes were looking at us. And that green-jade eyes, belonged to Seifer only, and no other...
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To Be Continue..........
Author's Note : Sorry it took a reaaaaalllllllyyyyyyyyy long time to update and the story might get even worse (sob......). Aaaaaa, I'm confuse whether I have to stick Squall to Irvine or make him go to Seifer like he used to do. People, please help meeee!!! Which do you think is better? And don't forget to review! Flames are acceptable, so speak your mind everybody!!!