Disclaimer: see Ch 1

A/N: Thanks first to the tp-fan and to Nancy. I try to go on with what you wrote. I don´t feel qite sure, cause it´s my first english ff and my 2nd at least but I hope it´s what you await.

Departure

Part 2

One day later

Dear diary,

This morning, and again in the afternoon I stood in front of the lab trying to enter it and tell both Syd and Broots about my plans, but I couldn´t. When I am in The Centre I am not able to show anything than my ´perfected´ mask. Thanks to ´Daddy´!!

The only place when I feel secure enough, is when I am around this little boy. May be it´s more that I feel overwhelmed by the pure joy he always shows after I enter his room. Today I started to name him Jimmy which he accepted easily. He fills my heart with joy and pride. Sometimes I feel like his mother, I adore him and he adores me. His pretty blue eyes are often kind of steering into my soul. I cannot hide my emotions from him.

Now what can I do to get him out?

Shortly before I left this eve, I wrote an e-Mail including an invitation for lunch tomorrow to Syd, Broots and Sam. We more or less go regularly for lunch together, so the PTB´s should not become suspicious.

Will I am able to tell them about myself and my plans? Hopefully they will support me and Jimmy. What do I do if not?

What would I give for a bottle of a rather fine Whiskey? But no, I won´t daze myself anylonger. I´ve done it too long yet it didn´t work anytime.

And what can I do to find Jarod? When I checked the news from San Francisco due to one of the voices, I found a hint in a story about a man who helped a little girl to find her long lost uncle after her father´s death. Broots will check this for me tonight, but I am pretty sure that my voices are right. This is Jarod!! After our lunch I will take the jet and head for San Francisco and I will find him.

Oh, mom, please give me the strength to tell them everything!!

- End of part 2