Gabbi: Wow… the little ficlet that could… o_O;
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Gabbi: Yeah! Now that I can do bold, italics, and underline it's going to be so much easier!
Gamgee X: OOH! Clay Akien's on!
Gabbi: Aww! He's so cute! He's such a nerd!
Gamgee X: Yeah!
Gabbi: Replies:
Kaya-Anna- Nah, I am not the one that's good with the plots and stuff, I got friends like you to help me with inspiration! But the plot was kinda in my head for ages… it just took a song like Numb to stick out and ultimately do it. Plus, I dunno if you saw the music video, there is a girl that has scars on her arms from self-mutilation. Linkin Park Rules!
Dancer Of Falling Rain- That's such a cool name! Okay, I shall update so I don't face the wrath of a teenager… eeeck…
Bluebell- I pray you don't consider cutting yourself ever again. But the fact does help for the plot of this story. I was reading Confidential Confessions in a bookstore and that helps too. It told me tons of little facts about cutting as well. But please, don't cut ever again.
Dark Koorime0-0- So... you have learned that royal titles never lie?
DragonBlade- Please... you know me, I will be sure to continue!
Yami's-girl- I live to serve XDD;
Night Fox Hiten- blushes I am not that good… I am really bad and you all know it… ;
Gamgee X: Thanks for the reviews!
Gabbi: Yes! Thanks! This is a new songfic chapter. It is "I Miss You" by Blink 182… it's not a half-bad song… ^_^ ~*Song Lyrics are like this now*~
I still don't own the song, though.
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Numb: I Can't Feel You ThereChapter II: Reconcile
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~*Hello there, Angel from my nightmare*~
The girls were sobbing and crying loudly. The boys were trying to keep straight faces. It was like someone died.
It basically was. Kurama was in a hospital, and feared to have some sort of depression. But there was something that had people wonder.
Why?
Kurama was struggling, his nightmares in his unconscious state were horrid. Youko was like an angel and devil at the same time to him. Youko wanted to mend his wounds, but he refused.
~*The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want*~
He just went through the same dream, Youko would always come in a pure white rob with a strong rob. He would be facing him in pure white robes as well. But then he would take a thing of blood and dump it on him.
(A/N: Think Carrie…)
Kurama would end up covered in the crimson liquid, which would always match his hair, until at one point his hair got darker.
As the nightmare kept repeating, his hair slowly became black.
Whenever Youko tried to clean him, he refused and ran, always falling in a valley that was black and unpredictable. And then he would see Hiei, wanting to be with him and live... well... normal. And whenever he tried, it always would turn into Youko, trying to reach him, but then he ran again, then the dream repeated.
He wanted to wake up, but every time he tried, he didn't. And then the nightmare resumed.
~*Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends*~
He always got closer and closer, though. More and more, he saw Hiei. His thoughts always became a little clearer and his hopes did too. He wanted more than anything to be with Hiei, in a place that Hiei can finally go home to. They would never have to do things how anyone wanted them to. They could celebrate Hiei's birthday on the first day of winter for all he cared. They could go into times of pure bliss and just hope that it would never end…
~*(I miss you I miss you)
(I miss you I miss you)*~
Shiori, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Puu, and Keiko all waited in the waiting room again. Yusuke hated waiting rooms. They always gave him memories of a long time ago... but they didn't really matter now.
Shiori was still scared by what she saw in the bathroom. Her son surrounded in glass. Blood staining the tile... and what sounded like someone yelling at another person...
'Shuichi... I miss you... please be okay...' Shiori thought.
~*Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight*~
Hiei was by the hospital, in fact, in a lovely little tree.
He thought maybe if he slept a little, then maybe Kurama would be okay, but he just couldn't. Even though he knew that would always be what Kurama wanted him to do. He could see with the Jagan and also hear the doctors.
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"Nurse! Quickly! How's his heart rate?"
"Oh dear, oh dear, this hospital can't afford this...
"His heartbeat's really slow... I can barely hear it... it's really bad..."
"He just broke a mirror! We go through these depressed teens all the time! How hard can this be?!"
"It's bad... he lost a lot of blood. We have so little blood supply for a transfusion, that he is really just a shell..."
"There's nothing?!"
"Barely... at least his blood type..."
(A/N: What is his blood type? I want to say O or AB...)
~*I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time*~
The nightmares stopped, so now Kurama was in his own soul room to rest [1].
He looked gothic. His soul always reflected what he really felt. And he had his hair long and black. Strands were attached to the lace that made a canopy in the bed of the room. His lips had black paint on them and his eyes laid with a shadow behind them. His long neck was wrapped in a lace collar, the lace black. The top was all lace and he had a tank that was jet black. He wore long, flared black pants. He was barefoot, one foot dangling from the foot of the bed. All the reliving the nightmares made him feel like sleeping. He was exhausted.
~*And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight*~
Kurama still stayed awake, staring at the spiders that began to make his room their home. They had little cocoons wrapping around any food they could find, saving them like doggie bags. He wanted to hear a voice, even Youko's if he had to. He begged anyone to stop the torture he was going through. He wanted to feel. He wanted to live. He wanted to be awake, again.
~*Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)*~
He shook his head, thinking, 'No! Don't help me! I can hear you! You are laughing at me! I know you, Youko! Don't you dare! Don't you dare!'
He growled. He missed the human contact he had before.
'Are you okay, Kurama?' Youko asked, coming in with the same outfit, but it was drenched in white instead.
'NO! NO I'M NOT OKAY!' Kurama screamed.
Youko pinned him to the bed. 'I can make you...'
'YOU WOULDN'T DARE!' Kurama screamed, kicking. 'LET ME GO!'
Youko was too strong for him. He was too big... in every way. He could never push him off...
Youko sat down on Kurama's lower half, his tail gently caressing in between Kurama's legs.
'Stop...' Kurama whispered.
~*Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)*~
Youko laid on him gently, but then shifted his weight. Kurama gasped as his ribcage felt like it nearly snapped in half. 'You—'
Youko stuck his finger in his mouth and spun it around several times, feeling the saliva from Kurama. 'I'm not going and taking off my clothes or anything...'
'Ya... yakwo~' Kurama babbled nonsense.
Kurama tried to push his hand away. 'Gwe… waa…'
Youko sighed. 'Fine, I'll get off.'
He started to get off and slip away. He faced Kurama. 'You got to get up sooner or later. No matter what happens, people care about you. Whether or not you have flaws and crap.'
Kurama slowly got up from the bed, his hair stuck to the lace. 'I know...'
He started to walk to the door too. 'I better be going.'
~*Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)*~
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[1] Remember Yu-Gi-Oh!? I figured that using that would make a little more sense than something like a dream. Well, it is sort of a dream. I mean, two personalities going at it o_O;; anyways, Kurama wasn't conscious, so they were both there... I hope that makes sense... if it does not, I shall... repost it or something...
Gamgee X: That's it?
Gabbi: Tis a short song...
Gamgee X: Then just R&R! Thank you!
[Note: If you have any nice depressing songs, let me know. So far there are
-Tourniquet by Evanescense
-The Day that I Die by Good Charlotte
and... that's it... If you have any good songs for this story, please tell me. I want this fic to have a new song each chapter. Domo!