Numb: I Can't Feel You There Chapter 9: Haunted: Silver and Cold, AFI, a yu yu hakusho fanfic

Gabbi: My, my… I must say that this is quite the fic… I never had quick popularity… I get 11 reviews per chapter on this baby!

Bleubell- Umm… well… I think so…*watches*

Hiten- Nooow you're catching on… Happy endings? *sweatdrops*

Youko-love- *opens envelope* and the award for best supporting OC in a fanfic is… KUROIBARA XDDD;

Dancer- I wasn't really planning on doing it, but most of my fics are altered by the song lyrics. The strangling was something I had used when I studied the lyrics closely, so I like this thrill I get from randomly reading cool song lyrics.

Maya- sometimes you just gotta take a chance ^_^ I am an LP freak, too… so whenever the lyrics are on, I try to read it anyway… I don't really think the HxK is that strong, though… considering that my earlier fics were very romantic… that's what I noticed at least… they are less romantic now and get into the mind than the heart… so you can really feel the pain? I thought I was the only one… (AND YES! FRODO ROXS MAH SOXS!)

Johanna- OI! I am not some emotionless creature! And you are not shallow! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! C'mon guys! Let's all wish her a happy B-day!

Kurama: Happy (belated) Birthday…

Kuroibara: Hai ^_^

Gamgee X: Eat, drink, and be merry…

Merry: *terribly confused*

Allie- Your sick humor entertains me… I have to agree… if killing idiots was legal, I'd have a job… and there would be pretty much no one in my school… but that's okay…

Heh, the insane persona of an authoress… it's really funny…

Kaya- Thank you, Kaya-Chan! You really can? Oh… Frodo shall be tortured on Thursday ^.^

Thanks Minna-san! This song is Silver and Cold by the band with the coolest music vid, AFI.

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Numb: I Can't Feel You There

Chapter 9: Haunted, Silver and Cold, AFI

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~*I… I came here by day*~

Kurama awoke by the light of the sun. He was in a hospital room… once again… just like before…

First thing that came to mind was Kuroibara.

"Kuroibara…"

He ran out of bed, ripping off all wires of IV and things off of him.

~*But I left here in darkness*~

Kurama opened the door.

The halls were pitched black.

"But… the sun was out!" Kurama yelled. "The sun was shining… and AH!"

He was shoved to the ground, the door suddenly slamming shut.

"Where am I?! Kuroibara?! Hiei?! YOUKO! YOUKO ARE YOU THERE?!"

~*And found you, and found you on the way*~

He saw someone in the distance. He ran, realizing he went through a costume changed. He wore a Gothic outfit. Black surrounded him. He ran, not caring how or why it happened. He felt camouflaged against the darkness.

The figure became a girl. She wore a long silver dress with a round pearl ball. She wore her hair tied by a silver bow. Her hair was black, tinted silver. She wore Easter-like shoes, you know, the good ones that little girls clop around in church with perfect stockings, crisp white until noon. She didn't look at him.

She bounced the ball up and down. "He didn't see you when he died…"

"What do you mean?" Kurama asked, scared.

"He didn't see you… it was too dark… and you were like to night… he saw nothing but darkness when he died…" she whispered.

~*And now it is silver and silent*~

She looked at him, her eyes turned from the light blue they were, to deep silver.

"Come back, Kurama! Come back before Hell takes you too!"

"What do you mean?!" Kurama screamed. "Hell?! Kuroibara didn't go to Hell!"

"I won't ever see my brother anymore, Kurama! I will never see him again!"

~*It is silver and cold*~

"No! He didn't!"

"His soul is rotting, Kurama! You promised that we would meet again! But we didn't, Kurama! His soul had not been redeemed, and he is dead!"

"I didn't… I didn't want this to happen! I didn't mean to!"

It became suddenly cold. "You… you must be Lily-Anne…"

"Yes… Lily-Anne, the unrestful soul!" she cried. "Kuroibara was going to protect me forever! But he is in Hell! I am never going to see my brother again! Never!"

"No… this is not happening…" Kurama whispered. "No! I was helping! I was helping!"

For once, Kurama could not redeem his soul. He failed, and not a slight miscalculation, he broke the future of someone.

He fell on the floor. "Why don't these damn shadows consume me…"

"Because you still have 'hope', believe it or not…" Lily-Anne growled. "You can do something, Kurama…"

~*You, in somber resplendence, I hold*~

Kurama looked at her. "What?"

Youko came from the shadows.

"Get the hell away from me," Kurama choked out. "Get away!"

Youko held him. "Kurama, onegai… please come back… you can't stay like this… save yourself…"

"I made someone that cared Hell-bent…" Kurama whispered. "How can I redeem myself…"

"You need to realize that killing or Death is not the answer," Lily-Anne said. "You know that you became human to save yourself. And you know that you want to not do this so much…"

"I do…" Kurama snapped. "No brat will tell me not to."

Lily-Anne bounced her ball. "It won't matter to me… you only made it worse… not better…. I really don't care."

~*Your sins into me,

Oh my beautiful one*~

"Kurama… please… let's try and save ourselves… together…" Youko begged.

Kurama turned the other way. "I rather die… I'd rather die than ever having to face my fears like that…"

~*Your sins into me*~

Kurama ran.

"Dead, dead, dead… Kuroibara is dead…" Lily-Anne's haunting voice scared Kurama.

~*As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer*~

Kurama shook off the whispers and giggles and glares. He whispered prayers to save himself, not caring the effects.

~*And I'll beg for forgiveness*~

'I'm sorry, Kuroibara,' he thought, 'I'm sorry that you had to go to Hell… I'm sorry… I'm sorry…"

Tears stung at his eyes, but he did not cry. Only the weak cry. Only the ones who don't want to die cry…

~*(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one*~

"I give up… I give up…" Kurama hissed. "I give up… I don't want to live anymore… save my soul, someone… save my soul… I just want to disappear… I want to die! Can't they ale this?!"

~*Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing*~

"Dead, dead, dead, Kuroibara is dead…"

Kurama screamed. "Stop!"

~*So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink*~

His costume changed to total silver robes. It was like cold metal across his skin.

"Sing, Kurama, sing to save your soul…"

And so, Kurama gave in and sang:

~*Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me*~

"I am just some puppet now…" Kurama whispered. "What am I doing…"

Youko held him close. Kurama was helpless.

~*Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you*~

Kurama felt tired. Maybe what they say is true… humans can't do anything… humans are stupid… humans are depressed bags of shit that bitch about everything and want to die, something that will happen to them sooner or later…

~*In life's cold throws, I ask you to turn away*~

'I'm so pathetic… maybe it was good that Hiei died before me… I am giving in… I am giving in…'

"It's not giving in… if you don't try to struggle out…" Youko said.

Kurama tried to push out but gave up. "Ah… what's the use…"

"Kurama… this is not giving in… this is not giving in…" Youko repeated himself.

"It is… shut up…" Kurama whispered. "Shut up…"

~*Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you

Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn*~

"It's a good thing Hiei is gone…" Kurama said out loud. "He'd hang my head to see me like this… I wanna wake up… I wanna wake up!"

~*As they seep into me… oh my beautiful one*~

"Kurama… do not let your suffering bear a heavy cross against you… let me take care of this… please…."

"It was my fault. You stay out of this."

~*Your sins into me

Oh my beautiful one now*~

"Please…" Youko took Kurama's smaller head. "Please, Kurama… you don't deserve this… and you know it… and you know it…"

"Why? How? Why do I not deserve it? How do I know I don't?"

~*Your sins into me*~

"That, Kurama… you will realize someday soon… you just have to keep going to find out…"

Kurama sighed. "Shrouded in mystery… just like before…"

~*As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness*~

"It's not as bad as you think… it could be far worse… and you know it…"

Youko hugged him closer.

"…And you know it…"

Kurama closed his eyes.

~*(Your sins into me) Your sins into …*~

"I want to know how you do… I want to know how you know this…."

"Just sleep and you shall learn someday…"

"But Kuroibara and Lily-Anne…"

"You are human… you can't help some things… just close your eyes…"

~*(Your sins into me) Your sins into me*~

"That's it…" Youko whispered to Kurama as he dozed off. "That's it… you are just too beautiful to have to go through this pain… you are too beautiful…"

~*Oh my beautiful one*~

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