By: OtakuSailorV
Chapter 5:: Suppressed MemoriesCould it be? Could I, Akito Sohma, be harboring suppressed memories? How very strange. . .
And yet it is the only explanation I have for the strange visages that I have seen time and again, why I do not remember Arisu's death though everyone claims that I was present when it happened.
What did happen. . . ?
My head hurts so whenever I think about it. Damn it all. . .
I have wondered before if I should call Hatori in and see if he can unleash these memories that are suppressed – if they do indeed exist. I am leery of seeing them though. No, I am not showing fear. I am simply thoughtful on this subject. Would you not be too? For there must have been something terribly horrible that happened to suppress my memories so.
Tch.
I cast the idea aside once again. Maybe I am better off not knowing anyway. The rushing memories, so long kept hidden finally pulling to the surface would probably just make my already overly stressed body weaker. It is not worth my time.
". . .All the memories I have are beautiful in my mind. . ."
A song fleets across the back of my mind. The rest of the song is unknown, but those words are sung clearly in my mind. Strangely enough, the singer has Arisu's voice. I smirk at my silliness. So, even now she will not stop haunting me?
At times, I feel like I have forgotten her.
At times, her face is distorted, the length of her hair, the sweet tone of her voice. Whole scenes may be fringed in my memory, but the next day, they will be whole and untouched. What this means, I do not know, but I plan on correcting it if that is possible.
I turn my face from the pool of water that my eyes had been lingering on for so long. Shigure has come to visit again, and I do not want to be rude to him, now do I?
I smile at him hauntingly as he follows my gaze.
"What is troubling your mind, Akito?" He asks, smiling in the same strange way.
I turned my half-lidded gaze from him, watching a songbird in the branches of the tree. Lifting my hand, I let it alight on my index finger. My smile opens up, revealing my teeth in the smile as I watch it with detached fascination. 'Go on little bird. Fly away. I envy you, navigator of the free sky.'
Finally, when I see that it is making no plan to flee from me, I bring my hand back down, closer to my body and gently stroke it's head with my other finger. The heavy kimono around my shoulders slips slightly at my moves, but I take little notice. I'm not particularly sick at the moment, so the heavy burden is of little use to me.
Shigure watches this, awaiting my answer in silence. His eyes tell slightly on inner confusion. 'Aw, are you wondering about my behavior now, Shigure?' I scoff inwardly at the thought. 'Of course you are. I haven't acted this way for quite a while, have I?'
I turned and flashed a bright smile at him; a rather good impression of a true smile, if I do say so myself. He seemed stunned slightly at my reaction to his question. I suppose maybe I am in a better mood than I usually am, but it is no need for such surprise.
"Something. . .on my mind? No."
As if on cue, the bird that had been on my finger raised it's little wings and took to the air, beating them as hard as it could to get up in the sky. Shigure watches the bird fly away, a single feather floating through the air in its path. I follow his gaze and my smile softens as I reach toward the feather like a child. Oh, to be free would be wonderful.
Ack! It's short, I know. Gomen nasai. bow, bow
As a note, I'll be ending this series of fics soon. Maybe in another two chapters. I haven't decided yet. But it will be soon. Not to fear though! I'll wrap everything up nicely. small grin
On another note, thank you all for your continued support. This is not only my first FuruBa fiction, but also my first thing that was mainly written from first person. (And about Akito-kun) bow, bow So, your support is truly appreciated. Really, you make me so happy. big smile (Suddenly feeling very Tohru-ish)
Well, I'll be sure to see you all son! Ja'ne!!
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