True Secrets

—Heavenstar3

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Chapter 3

It has been a week since Jubilee has arrived and she has been avoiding Logan. Not really ready to talk to him about why she left, where she went, why she came back. It was too much and too emotional, she couldn't talk to him just yet, but later tonight she was. They were going to have a conversation that would change both of their lives and relationships forever.

'Alright Jubilee. You are going to talk to him. Today. Don't be a chicken. It's Logan for goodness sake. You have known him like...forever. You can do this,' Jubilee thought to herself while pacing in her room. She stopped and sighed. "I can't do this," and flopped down on her bed.

She just laid there thinking about all she wanted to say to him, but didn't really have the guts to say it. Ever since she found out, she wanted to tell him, to confront him, to tell him how much she loved him. Mental pictures from her past entered her brain and that made up her mind.

"I'm gonna do it," she said to herself and with that headed down stairs.

It was a Saturday, so practically everybody was out doing something. Watching a movie, shopping, having some kind of romantic dinner (Scott and Jean), or something to occupy their time on this night.

Nobody was home except for Jubilee and Logan. 'Perfect. Now I can go and talk to him without being interrupted,' and headed towards the kitchen where she knew he was going to be.

When she entered, she saw him at the table reading a newspaper and a bottle of his favorite beer right in front of him. She almost lost her nerve. "Hey."

Logan looked up from his newspaper and looked at her. He grunted and turned back to his paper.

'Must still be mad at me for not speaking to him.' Jubilee went and sat across from him. "Wolvie, I want to talk."

He didn't even look at her when he answered, "Oh, now you want to talk."

"Please, Wolvie. You got to understand that this isn't easy for me. I wanted, before, to talk to you, but I couldn't."

He put his paper down, "And now you do?"

"Yes."

"Well, maybe I'm not ready to talk to you."

"You are being childish."

He looked mad, but also hurt. "Childish? No, Jubes. Childish is what you have been doing for the past week. Not talking to me. Pretending that I wasn't in the room. Not even saying 'Good Morning' or 'Hello' nothing," he said and got up heading for the back door.

She got desperate. "Where are you going?"

"Out," still heading towards the door.

'No, I can't just let him go and leave me again. Not this time. It's now or never Jubes.' Jubilee quickly got out of her seat and grabbed Logan's arm. "No you're not."

He turned towards her with a questioning face, "What?"

"You heard me."

"Listen kid. I don't listen to anybody least of all you," he said at the same time he pulling his arm out of her grasp. He turned back around still heading towards the door.

He reached the door, had his hand on the door knob, ready to open the door, when Jubilee's words made him stop in his tracks. "I love you."

He didn't know if he heard her right or not, so he turned back to her. She was standing there, a few feet away from him with tears in her eyes. "What?"

She sighed and closed her eyes. "I love you," she repeated. She reopened her eyes and he could see the love in her eyes. He knew she was telling the truth, but didn't want to accept it. "I have loved you for so long."

He wanted to know. He wanted to know everything, "If you loved me, then why did you leave all those years ago?"

"Because...," was all she could say. Tears running down her face. She looked like she was about to collapse and she would have if Logan didn't rush to her and held her in his arms.

"Because why Jubes?" Logan asked. He voice more gentler than before.

She looked up into his eyes and saw the same love in them as he saw in her. "Because I got sick and tired of everybody leaving me, so I decided that it was my turn to leave."

Logan looked confused. He pulled back so he could see her face. "What?"

Jubilee pushed away from him and sat on the kitchen table. "I left because I got tired of people leaving me. Leaving me alone. I got so fed up, that I decided to leave instead." She didn't even look at him while explaining this.

Logan looked hurt. He came and stood right in front of her, lifting her chin so she could look at him. He looked into her watery eyes and knew he needed more of an explanation. "Explain."

"All of my life my loved ones, the people I care about, the people I call family has left me. Whether it is leaving this planet forever or just leaving town, state, country, my life, whatever; they just leave. Leaving me alone," she said and looked at him thinking that was a good enough explanation, but it wasn't. "First it was my parents, leaving me alone in this world when they were killed. Then it was my gang friends, when they found out I was a mutant. Then it was the United States, when they found out also I was a mutant. That basically kicked me off of there protection list. Then it was here, my teammates. Remy left for awhile. Bobby, Jean, Scott, the Professor, you." She looked straight into his eyes. "After Magneto took out your adamantium from your body, you left. You left me here alone." By this time she had tears in her eyes. "All I wanted to do was comfort you and I understood that you need time alone because I know it hurt, but you left. You were gone much longer than usual and when that third month past, I...I couldn't take it. I had so much hate inside of me. Hatred towards you, towards my parents, towards everybody. And I just wanted to get away and leave you guys for once."

Logan couldn't believe what he was hearing. His Jubes left because of him. Him. Guilt started coming to him and he backed away from her.

Jubilee sensed his guilt and didn't want that. She didn't tell him all this so he could feel guilty. That was the past, this is now, and hopefully they could have a future. Together. She got off of the table and walked slowly towards him. "I didn't tell you this Wolvie to make you feel guilty. You were one of the reasons why I left, but also the main reason why I have returned."

"Why did you return, Jubes?" He asked finally finding his voice.

"To be with you. I finally realized that I love you more now than I did then."

"No, you don't Jubes. We can't be together."

Jubilee was pissed. "Why? Because of Jean!!! God, Logan." Using his first name for the first time. "Why do you always go for the women that are unattainable?!? She is married, Logan! Married to a great guy! I mean sure he can sometimes be a pain in the ass, but still a great guy!! Why do you go for the females who already have someone when the other single females are right in front of you? Waiting for you! I have waited for you to notice me for almost half of my life!! But your eyes always wander back to the unattainable Jean!!!" She wasn't finished with him yet, she just wanted to see if he could respond to any of her questions and to her sudden loud outburst.

She waited for Logan to say something, but he looked stunned and wasn't able to talk. 'Wow that's a first,' Jubilee thought. She waited for a few minutes, waiting for him to say something, but didn't. She just shook her head, "Why do I even bother?" and turned to leave.

Logan was still shocked at Jubilee's outburst. He couldn't say anything, but that didn't mean he couldn't think. 'Okay. She loves me. My friend, partner...loves me. She's right. Jean is married. Has been married for about five years now. Why can't I move on.' He kept staring at Jubilee's retreating form. 'I can't let her leave my life again. I need her. I want...her.' His mind made up, he moved for the first time since Jubilee's outburst and grabbed her arm before she could leave.

When he grabbed her arm and stopped her, Jubilee couldn't look at him. "What do you want Logan?" She was to embarrassed to even speak to me. 'This is great Jubes, make a complete fool of yourself.' She felt Logan grab her other arm and turn her towards him.

She still didn't look up. Logan just stood there with his hands on both of her arms holding her close, looking at her. 'She's the one I want. I love her.' He lifted her stubborn chin up and said, "Don't leave."

She was confused and excited at the same time, but wanted to make sure she wasn't misinterpreting his words, "Why?"

He took her face in his hands and wiped her tears away with his thumbs. "Because you're right. I need to move on. I just have been a knucklehead and just didn't see it. The most beautiful and intelligent woman that ever graced my life standing in front of me."

Jubilee's tears was coming down by the buckets when she heard these words, but still couldn't believe it. "What?"

He laughed. "The woman in front of me, the woman I want to be with, the woman I love."

"You're just saying that," she said, trying to look away.

"No, I'm not," he argued, pulling her face so she would look at him. "I've known it for a long time, but couldn't admit it. Like you, I have loved you for a long time. Jean...Jean was an illusion. You are real. You are the one I want."

She couldn't believe it. The man she had loved for so long is actually in love with her. She felt like doing cartwheels and just shouting for joy, but again she had to make sure. "Really?"

"Let me prove it to you," he said. He leaned in and kissed her. Gently at first and then he pulled away.

Jubilee just froze when Logan kissed her. Her eyes still closed when he pulled away. She slowly opened her eyes.

Logan could see that her eyes were glazed over. They stood there, looking at each other until Jubilee reached out to touch his cheek. To make sure that this wasn't some sort of dream. "Care to prove that again," she said with a smile.

And he did throughout the night and into the early morning.

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