Author's Notes:
I've got one CD with that song and on that CD it's very slow, very touching. I love it. I hope you'll like it too...It's strange to end this. But it's cool. My first story with more than one chapter finished.
Disclaimer:
See chapter 1
Song:
"Don't Explain" by Billie Holiday/arthur herzog jr.
Don't Explain
"...." - talk
'....' - thoughts
Hush now, don't explain
Just say you'll remain
I'm glad that you're back
Don't explain
"I....Seto, I...."
"Shh, Yami....There's no need to explain yourself. You're back, aren't you? You're not that distant creature with those empty eyes anymore. You're back to the boy I know. Will you stay? Will you be here?....Please....I need you to tell me you'll be here, I can't...can't let go."
'...Because you're all I have. Thousands of boys and girls are in the clubs at night. I saw them all. Night after night I went there to find some distraction from your eyes that seemed to call to me, enchanting me, bewitching me, killing me with their burning beauty. No one has eyes like yours. It seems you can't make me feel happy anymore...but there's also no one who can make me feel the way I do when I'm around you....I was so lonely without you. I'm dependent on you, addicted to you. I hate myself for it but I hate myself even more when I can't be with you. Not that I could ever tell you that. I have no words to tell you, but I have to try at least....'
Quiet, don't explain
What is there to gain?
Skip that lipstick
Don't explain
"Yami....you have to know....."
"I already know....shh, don't bother....I know why....Your words can't heal any damage. You have lipstick on your cheek....
But I don't care. That can't hurt me anymore."
'I know who you've been with. And I am sure you know who I've been with. But what does that matter anymore? ...
Don't ask me questions I can't answer. I don't know what the future will bring. I don't know if I'll stay, I don't know if you'll stay. I just know that this is a moment given to you once in your life – you just have to find out what it means. I don't know, don't know anything but how good your arms feel around me. Why can't I just hate you? Instead I'm somewhere between hell and heaven and don't know what to do.....'
You know that I love you
And what love endures
"I...I can't. Can't live without you anymore. I can't live with you, but I can't live without you...What am I about to do, Yami?"
"If only I knew, love...."
"....Love?...."
" I love you Yami, I love you. Don't say anything, I really do. I...I don't know how to make you believe."
"You don't have to make me....I do. I do believe you. And I love you too. You know how strong love can be, that love can survive even the darkest times. I don't know if ours can."
'But there is love. Love that none of us can deny anymore. Love that we finally have to admit to.'
All my thoughts are of you
For I'm so completely yours.
"Irresistible....that's what you are, Seto. I can't....turn away when I look into your eyes."
"Yami...I...."
"We have done horrible things. You know how I suffered, don't you?"
Cry to hear folks chatter
And I know you cheat
'I wish so much you knew how many tears I have shed only because I heard you had been at the club. I wish you knew how often I imagined you with another boy or girl, making love to someone else, and not to me. I wish so much you knew all the pain you caused me. So I did what you did. To make you feel the same way....'
"I know, Yami.....I felt the same."
"You did?"
"Hell, Yami.....I did."
"I....I see."
"You're glad I did, right? No, don't defend yourself. I know already."
Right or wrong don't matter
When you're with me, sweet.
'Because both of us just did the same horrible things. And I don't know if I'll ever be able to forget them. I only know that it doesn't matter what either of us did, now, here, where I can hold you, where you can be with me. The past can't be erased. I know that better than anyone. You can only change the present. And it feels good that way. Together.'
So hush now, don't explain
You're my joy and pain
"I don't know what's going to happen when we get up from here"
"We don't have to get up yet, Seto."
"Alright."
"There's no need to talk, right?"
"No. Let's just be quiet, Yami"
"Ok. Let's try."
"...hnnn....I fell asleep, didn't I?"
"You did, love. But I don't care."
"Are we still not getting up"
"I don't think so."
"You make me laugh, you know, Seto? You make me cry so much but then you make me laugh."
"I know"
"Look, the sun's already up."
"Yeah."
"I think..."
"I think we should get up."
"Well..."
"So...."
"Let's see."
"I understand"
"We don't have anything to lose, after all"
My life is yours, love
Don't explain
Thanks to:
mic1211: for all your reviews and encouragement, for doujinshi's and tapes, for mails and character analyses, for quotes and the Palace....and for simply being there! Hope you like this!
Nenya 85: for encouragement and discussing the characters, for inspiration and giving me an understanding of the characters! I'm looking forward to more of "Deja Vu"!
Shadows of chaos61: for feeling with them and telling me to write on! Looking forward to more of "Second Time Around"!
cute-Baka: for compliments and trust in my writing skills, for mails and ideas-brainstorming!
Silver Wing 147: for loving the songs and supporting the fic although you're not a big Yami/Seto fan! Concerning your list of songs...just send me a mail about what you want to have in that list and where you want it.
Blue September: for loving the angst in this couple and supporting the fic!
Hope to see you all again next time!!! Hope you liked the ending!