Disclaimer: I do not own the character Kana Sohma, nor do I own "Take Me Away" written by Avril Lavigne.
Warning(s): The warnings are mild in the chapter. There are a few parts where language may be the cause, but other then that this is a pretty safe chapter.
Summary for the chapter: After hearing upon what Akito has to say, and witnessing her lover in severe pain, Kana is slowly breaking inside. Also an unexpected visitor makes a stop to see her.
Hold Me Closer
Chapter 2: Take Me Away
Written By: XBlackfireX
"This is all YOUR fault! Your worthless! Do you hear me?! Worthless!"
The door slowly opened to her home as she entered. The rain had mercilessly chosen to drench her and she had tried to outrun it. Her heart felt as if it could explode at any moment. Her eyes remained in the widened position they had been when seeing, hearing, and feeling her lover's pain. Kana Sohma had been rejected. She slowly brought her left hand to her face, noticing the beautiful ring that had been given to her. Bringing her hand down she removed it and set it on the nearby table. Her shoes made somewhat of a sloshing noise as she walked across the room to where he and her had slept comfortably. She sat on the bed still in a haze of some sort.
"Ha-Hatori! You're bleeding!" She had stood to go over to him.
"Stay back you filthy bitch! Can't you seen you've done enough! Leave now!"
Keeping a hand on his bleeding eye, Hatori turned and watched as Kana began to back away, her eyes keeping focus on Akito. He had reached out a bloody hand to her, hoping she would stay as he longed for her to do.
"Kana." His voice had been shaky, filled with an undying pain.
"Do I have to repeat myself again! Get the fuck out of my house! GET OUT!" Akito, breaking free of Shigure's grasp, threw a chair to make his statement as violent as possible.
"I'm sorry Hatori........." Without further thought, she ran from the room hearing only Akito's loud shouts, and Hatori's cries of pain. Her world had died along with every strain of happiness.
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside
All I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do
You do if you knew
What would you do
"It's all my fault," she whispered into the silence of the room. Her vision became blinded by a screen of warm tears, no sooner falling down her face. Her eyes shut tight, her shoulders shaking, she turned and began crying as if her heart had been torn out, cut up, and pieces burned. She held a pillow within her grasp, the same pillow Hatori had been lying on. She inhaled his wonderful scent, it only bringing more pain and tears onto her.
"It's my fault! I'm such an idiot! Why couldn't I have been braver? Why did he had to suffer for me. I, I needed to protect him. He knew Akito wouldn't take to the idea as nicely as he wanted, but he took that risk for me. For an unworthy bitch like me!"
All the pain, I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what, was never said
Back and forth, inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
"Kana, may I come in?"
The weeping female's eye shot open at the soft voice that had called to her. Sitting up and she found that man that had been her and Hatori's biggest support. Smiling, Shigure entered her room and sat on the edge of her bed. About a month before, Hatori and Kana had invited a few close friends for a small get together at Kana's apartment, therefore Shigure remembered the exact location.
"Please, Shigure-san, I'm sorr—"He had placed a hand on her mouth as to stop her from saying anything more on the matter.
"He's in pain but we've managed to wrap up his injured eye." Kana's tears continued to trail down her face as now they stopped where Shigure's hand covered her mouth. "Kana I know what Akito said has hurt you deeply, and I know that is a wound that will never heal on you, but please I only want the best for you and Ha'ri. You two belong together," he paused as the female had removed his hand from her mouth and began to speak.
"No Shigure-san he doesn't deserve someone as unworthy as me. Akito-san was right, he was right about everything!" she began to cry again as Shigure noted that Akito's words had taken a greater effect on her that he had realized.
I feel like I'm alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
'Cause no one understands
"But your not unworthy dear," he picked up her chin and brought her eyes to view his. He suddenly wished he hadn't done that. Her eyes held so much pain so much sadness, it affected him as well. "If anything your more than worthy. If Ha'ri thought you were unworthy would he had slept with you last night?" Kana's eyes widened wondering how the hell he had found out.
"But," she began, her voice tear-strained, "we can't get married. Akito-san has spoken. Hatori was injured because of my stupidity!"
"Stop blaming yourself! It's not your fault things turned out like this!" The dog had raised his voice slowly hoping to get his point across clear enough for her capability to process. She inhaled through her nose which was clogged due to her constant cries. She shook her head denying what she had thought to be true.
All the pain, I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what, was never said
Back and forth, inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
"Hatori loves you Kana and you know that. And if loosing his virginity to you doesn't say that then I don't know what will. You're everything to him Kana. I knew that when he told me he was going to propose to you." Kana's cries slowed to a stop as Shigure had stated something that had interested her. Had Hatori gone to him first when consulting whether to ask for her hand in marriage?
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"Oh Ha'ri I don't know what do say!" Shigure had embraced the dragon tightly and actually had lifted him a few inches from the ground. Hatori gave into a smile as Shigure had put him down.
"So you think she'll accept?" he asked, his voice taking a tone of excitement.
"Of course she will. She loves you! Oh I'm going to cry," the dog stated, placing a hand over his eyes that were filling rapidly with unshed tears of joy.
I'm going nowhere on and on and
I'm getting nowhere on and on and on
I'm going nowhere on and on and off
And on and off and on
"Your overreacting you know that?"
As Shigure had removed his hand, he noticed tears too filling the doctor's as the both of them stood outside alone. Without further explanation he had embraced him yet again. To his surprise Hatori had raised his arms around him. The two them stood like that for a few moments.
"Uncle Shii now doesn't that sound adorable."
At hearing that Hatori pushed away from him, his shimmering eyes widening at the thought of him becoming a father so soon. Shigure had laughed placing a hand on the other male's shoulder. Hatori reached into his pocket and had pulled out the small box that contained the small piece of love that would have a huge impact on the both of them.
All the pain, I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what, was never said
Back and forth, inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
"And so he loves you."
"He may love me Shigure-san, but what has happened today will never be forgotten. How can he forgive me when something like that happened?"
"I think he has already forgiven you."
She looked at him once more before leaning over and leaning her head onto her arms that had somehow propped against his lap. Although her cries had stopped, tears remained to trail down her face. Shigure began stroking her hair trying his best to comfort her. After a few moments he noticed the female had cried herself to sleep. He slowly arose and covered her before standing at the door keeping his eyes held on her. He sighed closing his eyes. I've done my part Ha'ri, now all that's left is yours.
Take me away
Break me away
Take me away..........
-End-
Author's Notes: Ok, due to the wonderful reviews I received ::smiles:: I've decided to write at least two more chapters. The next chapter will be Hatori's reaction in all of this. I hope that this chapter made all who read realize how painful it must have been for Kana who felt so much guilt for something she couldn't have predicted. Anyway review if you please and expect a review from me! –Farewell for now XBlackfireX