Disclaimer: I do not own the characters Hatori, Shigure, Kana and Akito Sohma. I also do not own "The Reason" by Hoobastank. Yes I know everyone is getting tired of this song
Warnings: Once again language may be the cause.
Summary: After having his eye severely injured, Hatori reflects on some of the moments he had had with the woman called Kana. And when he sees her for the first time in days.........will the two be able to confront eachother without fear?
Hold Me Closer
Chapter 3: The Reason
Written By: XBlackfireX
"Ha-Hatori! You're bleeding!" She had stood to go over to him.
"Stay back you filthy bitch! Can't you see you've done enough! Leave now!"
Keeping a hand on his bleeding eye, Hatori turned and watched as Kana began to back away, her eyes keeping focus on Akito. He had reached out a bloody hand to her, hoping she would stay as he longed for her to do.
"Kana." His voice had been shaky, filled with an undying pain.
"Do I have to repeat myself again? Get the fuck out of my house! GET OUT!" Akito, breaking free of Shigure's grasp, threw a chair to make his statement as violent as possible.
"I'm sorry Hatori........." Without further thought, she ran from the room hearing only Akito's loud shouts, and Hatori's cries of pain. Her world had died along with every strain of happiness. Shigure had rushed to Hatori's side shortly after, trying to push aside the thought of the puddle of blood beside his dear friend. Hatori had looked to Shigure, the warm red liquid still emitting from his eye, and spoken.
"Sh-Shigure please go after her."
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He sat there in the darkness of the spare room that had been given to him. As many painkillers as he had taken it couldn't help with ache within the chambers of his heart. His head, eye, and body throbbed from pain not mention the sorrow he held for his beloved. How could she forgive him now? After what Akito had said and after seeing him like that. Also he had wondered where Shigure had gone too. He hoped at least he would be here for him. But............he did not blame Akito for this. He placed all blame on himself for being as foolish as to ever thinking it could be possible. That someday he would be as happy as to share his life with another person.
"Hatori?"
He heard the voice and recognized it only to belong to his young master Akito Sohma. The dragon couldn't see due to the bandages wrapped around his eyes but could feel Akito's presence and could also feel his cold eyes staring at him. The doctor tried to act as if nothing had ever taken place that very day. "Good afternoon Akito-san." He heard his footsteps become closer until he was merely centimeters away. He felt Akito's cold hand began to stroke his face. He shivered automatically.
"Oh my dearest Hatori. Do you see why we must never let strangers enter our family?" He spoke with sincerity and compassion. Hatori didn't answer. He felt the young master's fingers trace to his injured eye. It stopped there amongst the thick bandages that encircled it. "You'll be much happier now Hatori. You never needed that dirty tramp. Just look how happy you were without her."
He could feel the anger rise deep within my body, yet remained as calm as he could allow himself. For the first time since he could remember he wanted to hurt Akito. Not only did he want to hurt him he wanted to murder him. The injured male let his anger diminish knowing that that wasn't the best solution. She isn't a dirty tramp she's an angel that was sent to me to brighten my life and touch my heart as she has done. I wasn't happy before I met her. I was alone. Therefore my reason for happiness leads to her. She really is the reason.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
"What's this?" He had asked watching as Kana had held out a small blue teddy bear with a card in its paws. She smiled a tint of red taking to her cheeks.
"It's a get well bear," she laughed as the confused male had raised an eyebrow.
"You got this for me?" He wondered as he sat up in bed to view her shimmering eyes that he had come to love.
She had placed her hand onto his forehead and gave into a skeptical look, "Are you sure you fever's not getting worse? Of course I got it for you, do you see any more sick doctors around here?" He took the bear into a soft grasp and looked at it smiling. He seemed to smile a lot more since he had met her. She bent down and kissed his forehead. "Get better ok?"
"Doctor's orders?"
"Yes, doctor's orders."
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
It was truly a beautiful evening that night. The stars had come out early, the moon shining beautifully in the heavenly atmosphere. Hatori walked hand and hand with his lover down one of the many paths in a rural area. They had taken the day off and devoted as much time as they could towards each other. How the dragon-cursed male wished he could have held her as any normal man would hold his woman. Then again he wasn't normal, and far from it.
"Hatori are you alright?" she had asked him, the both stopping on a small bridge over a pond. They were the only two people in the area or so it seemed. He looked to her and tried his best to smile which was particularly hard at the moment. She had placed a hand to his face. He turned his head and kissed the palm of her hand.
"No I'm not," Hatori had answered truthfully releasing her hand and placing both of his arms on the bridge railing. He could feel her staring at him from behind. "I want to hold you Kana. I want to do everything a normal couple would do. But I can't and that makes me realize maybe you'd be happier without me." He heard her gasp, shortly before she tapped him on the shoulder. As he turned he felt a painful burning sensation on his left cheek. She had slapped him.
"Hatori Sohma!" She started, eyes battling tears, "I can't believe you would say something like that. I've already told you I don't care about your curse, what more can I say for you to believe me? The fact that you would want to do all those things is reassuring that you care for me." She had grasped his hand and held it to her chest.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
"Kana I'd like to introduce you to Shigure, Shigure this is Kana."
"It's very nice to finally meet the woman Ha'ri has been raving on about," Shigure smiled as he had held out a hand in his greeting. Hatori glared at him knowing very well that he hadn't exactly "raved" about Kana, or had he?
Kana blushed as she had taken his hand, "It's very nice to meet you as well."
"And I'm told you are aware of the zodiac curse?"
"Yes sir, Hatori has explained everything to me."
"Ah-hah well would you like to see my zodiac ani—"
"NO she wouldn't," Hatori started forth a look of agrivation in his stare.
"Very well I'll just go inside and make something to eat."
The other male watched Shigure as he entered the house, but before entering he had looked back to him and smiled. A smile that somehow the doctor knew was not intended for a playful sort, but one of true approval and happiness for his elation.
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you, and the reason is you
And the reason is you, and the reason is you
Tears began to form and fall as she saw him dig into his pocket for the item she prayed that he would offer to her. Cries were now escaping from her lips as her hands went to her eyes when seeing the doctor take a kneel in front of her. He had taken her trembling hand within his own as a warm smile claimed his lips.
"Ha-Hatori," she had made out through the sobs that continued to escape from her uncontrollably.
"Kana, will you allow me the honor of asking your hand in marriage?"
Time seemed to have stopped, for the moment seemed to last forever. Happiness, sorrow, joy, frustration, new emotions seemed to engulf her all at once. Not being able to speak, she began to nod slowly then vigorously. His declaration of love had been accepted. Tears began to well within his own eyes, him trying desperately to hold them back. She loves me! His soul rejoiced. Kana...MY Kana...she loves me... His logical side cautioned him to be careful, to not trust blindly...to keep in mind of Akito and his punishments...but he ignored it for the moment, choosing instead to revel in the moment, to enjoy the feeling of loving and being loved in return for as long as he could.
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
"It seems, Dr. Sohma, that you've been bitten by a rare insect."
He had chuckled softly, "You don't say. Tell me what rare insect has infected me."
"Lovitis Insectus."
"What?"
"The love bug." She had pushed herself upwards claiming his lips once more. His legs crossed over hers as she began to deepen the kiss as he'd hoped. Her hands were mangled within the pools of his black hair, her elbows resting on his shoulders. He had kept his hands on her lower body, trying not to position himself wrongly for one false move and poof. She pulled away from him, her tongue coating over her lips in an anxious method. He closed his eyes feeling as if paradise were opening its gates and welcoming him in. Never had he felt such a strong sensation as he did now. It was overwhelming.
"I love you Kana Sohma," he had whispered into the dark room they inhabited. He waited for her response which came slowly yet lovingly.
"And I love you Hatori Sohma, I love you more than anything."
That I just want you to know-oh-oh
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
It had been three days since he had last seen her. His left eye still pained him yet at least he could still see from his right one. He had missed seeing her, talking with her; he especially missed the taste of her kiss. He knocked on her door, his heartbeat increasing with every passing second. He heard footsteps coming and the door unlocking. Moments later he saw her form. His eyes widened. What have I done?! Her eyes were irritated and puffy, most definitely from crying. Also she looked pale, as if she hadn't been outside for a few days. Despite the fact that she looked weak her reaction was that of someone strong.
"Hatori!" She cried in both a happy and fearful tone. He looked to her and nodded. It was truly him and not an illusion. As he reached out to stroke her hair she flinched away from his soft touch. He slowly felt his heart crushing inside. Had this been the same woman he had seen three days before? Feeling guiltier than he could remember he allowed his weakened knees to give way as he fell to them.
"Hatori, what's wrong?" she asked going to her knees as well. He kept his focus straight ahead and tried to not deny the fact that she still loved him. She began to cry as his right eye traced to hers. He placed a hand to her trembling shoulder hoping to comfort a scar that would never heal.
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you...
"I'm so sorry Hatori," she finally made out in a quiet, withdrawn voice. He couldn't hold back the burning tears that pleaded to be released. Eyes merely seconds from emitting tears he closed them realizing something he hadn't long before. He would never find happiness. She saw the tears trail down his face and wished for nothing more then to see him happy. It's my fault they both thought in unison. Moments after, another one of the female's gasps filled the air. No sooner had he realized that blood was soaking through the layers of bandage wrapped around his left eye. He knew the tears had irritated the wound causing a reaction of the red substance.
"Hatori your eye!"
He didn't care. What did it matter now? He would never be happy again so why should it matter. Feeling the same sadness that had overwhelmed her three days before she placed her hands to her face and leant over into his lap. He watched as she cried her heart out. He felt as if an icy fist had taken a squeeze on his heart. He placed a hand on her head and shut his eye slowly. I'm the one who is sorry Kana for ever thinking we could be together as one. There is only one thing that can release you of this sadness my love, and I am the person who will see to your future happiness.
-End-
Author's Notes: This was somewhat depressing to write yet I'm glad that I did. There will be one more chapter after this one. I bet you all can guess what that will be about? Yes him erasing her memories. There will be no song in the next chapter by the way. Besides that I hope that all who read enjoyed this even though it was emotionally depressing. –Farewell for now XBlackfireX