I'm soooooo sorry for taking so long. I was busy ands being extreme perfectionist with this. Still not sure if I like it, but here it is.
Chapter five: Somewhere I Belong/is this for the better?
When this began
I had nothing to say
and I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
and I let it all out to find/that I'm
not the only one with these things in mind
The next night everyone was wondering around the manor aimlessly. Soon everyone found themselves in he living room.
"It's no fare. Chris didn't disserve this." Piper cried.
"I know. I know." Leo said trying trying comfort her.
inside of me
but all the vacancy words revealed
is the only thing I got left to feel
nothing to lose
just stuck/hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own
"She's right. And If I didn't destroy the flower he would still be here." Paige blamed herself.
"No its not your fault. You didn't mean to." Phoebe stated.
"And we don't know if that would've worked anyway." Leo added.
"But I messed it up. The perfect plan, ruined because of me." Paige said leaving the room
I want to heal
I want to feel
what I thought was never real
I wanna let go all the pain I've held so long
erase all the pain till it's gone
Paige walked in the bathroom with a small knife.
"It's all my fault. I deserve to be punished. I need to be punished." Paige muttered to herself. She looked at the knife again and tested to see how sharp it was with her finger. she sucked on it as it bled. It was sharp enough.
I want to heal
I want to feel
like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
somewhere I belong
She took the knife and slowly slit her wrists. she didn't flinch from the pain. She put her wrists over the sink and let the blood drip.
"I deserve this. I deserve this." Paige muttered to herself over and over again.
"If I didn't screw up Chris would be here." She continued
and I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
looking everywhere/only to find that its
not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
Chris walked over to a pure white bench and sat on it.
'Everything's pure white here.' Chris thought as a girl walked past him, looking at him oddly. He, just like everyone else, was dressed in all white. He had made it to the afterlife with the help of the elder. But something just didn't feel right.
so what I am
what do I have but negativity
cause I can't justify the
way everyone's looking at me
nothing to lose
just stuck/hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own
Yet another person walked by Chris and looked at him oddly. Chris had had enough. But he couldn't really do anything about it.
"I swear if one more person looks at me oddly..." Chris started and as if on cue a group of people walked by, most of them staring at him.
"would someone just tell me what's going on?" Chris whispered. The group stopped in front of him.
"Do you know what he's making a Charmed One do?" One asked the rest
I want to heal
I want to feel
what I thought was never real
I want to let go all the pain I've felt so long
erase all the pain till it's gone
"Yea. The youngest one is cutting herself." another answered and the group kept moving.
'Aunt Paige? She would never...' Chris thought to himself. But then he realized that no matter what truly happened she would blame herself.
"Oh God no." Chris quietly whispered. He had a habit of blaming himself too and he was defiantly calling this one, his fault.
I want to heal
I want to feel
like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
somewhere I belong
By now everyone had left the living room. Piper flipped through the B.O.S.
"Didn't vanquish him." Piper said to her self, "Or that one." She went down stairs, grabbed her coat, and went outside.
"There's gotta be a demon for me too kill somewhere. Anywhere. I gotta kill a demon." She said as she walked aimlessly around in dark alleys.
I will never know
myself until I do this on my own
and I will never feel
anything else until my wounds are healed
Paige continued to watch the blood drip down into the sink.
"Its not your fault. you didn't do anything wrong." She thought she heard Chris say. But when she looked around there was no one there.
"I have to do this." Paige said. She could have sworn she heard someone sigh in defeat. She decided to just ignore it.
I will never be
anything till I break away from me
and I will break away
I'll find myself today
Leo orbed 'up there' in front of a council of elders. Pretty much all of them disagreed with what Leo was saying. He was pleading his case. His case to bring Chris back.
"He IS needed. The Charmed Ones aren't ready for him to be gone yet. He was teaching them the importance of there wiccan duties. With him gone now, they WILL stray from their duty as the Charmed Ones and that will give evil a huge upper hand on things." Leo agued.
I want to heal
I want to feel
what I thought was never real
I want to let go all the pain I've felt so long
erase all the pain till it's gone
Phoebe came into the living room with the B.O.S. and sat on the couch.
"That's it. Magic has made us loose everyone close to us. I'm gonna find a way to bind my powers. I don't want them anymore." she said flipping through the pages.
"I will not loose anyone else because of magic." she added.
I want to heal
I want to feel
like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
somewhere I belong
Piper found what she was looking for in a cave. There was a demon, standing with an energy ball. It made motion to through it. It did and Piper dodged. This wasn't gonna be easy.
I want to heal
"so you see, we need Chris back. We won't survive without him." Leo made his closing statement. All the elders slowly nodded in agreement.
I want to feel like I'm
Piper stared down at the ashes in the cave.
'This won't bring your son back.' a voice inside of her said. She fell to her knees, sobbing.
somewhere I belong
Paige finished bandaging her wrists.
"Stupid voice." She commented as she made them tighter
I want to heal
Phoebe finally found something.
"Take away all my power..." she started but was stopped by a loud thud in the attic
I want to feel like I'm
somewhere I belong
Chris slowly got himself up from the face down position he landed in the attic. He blinked a few time and realized he was in his normal cloths again. He looked around. As realization dawned on him he exclaimed'
"Yes! I'm back! I'm alive!!!"
The end
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