Ok since I obviously have to explain again. This story is about Kimi falling for Lil, but it's because I want to have a meaning behind all my stories. This one is about excepting people for who they are and not making them out to be different. I'm not doing this for some fetish or anything so Jon or whatever your name was READ THE FUCKING STORY BEFORE FLAMING. I admit I made a mistake I forgot to change the rating, but the first chapter has no sexual content whatsoever the closest thing is Kimi wanting to kiss Lil ONCE! And if I'm the one with a tiny mind why are you complaining about me not complying to this 'norm' were the whole world is straight? The world ain't a bowl of cherries and it's about time you realised it. To all those who are reading because they want a story I apologise for going on, but I can't stand people who complain because something is different, not bad or evil, but different. Now that that is out of the way on with the story
It had been a few days since the pig out session after school. Kimi was in her room wrapped in a ball on her bed. 'I can't be in love with Lil, can I?' she thought rubbing her arms. 'The vodka!. I was drunk that's why I felt like that. Please be just the vodka, please' she closed her eyes and began to cry. She stretched out fully and stared at the roof and sighed. She couldn't stop thinking about what had happened that night. Then another thought crept into her head 'Why does Lil hate gay people so much? Could she be gay?' Kimis heart skipped a beat 'STOP THINKING ABOUT HER' she screamed in her head she found her stereo and turned it on hoping the music would drown out her thoughts.
"...well here is the new release from Paradise in Anarchy called letters." came the voice over the radio as heavy riff began to play
Are these thoughts just inside of my head?
Couldn't you take them away instead
I can't live with this kind of pain
You will surely DRIVE ME INSANE
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this letter I send?
These feelings I can't understand
Watch as my life turns into sand
You changed my life with a single verse
Is it better or has IT GOT WORSE
This life I just can not lead
These thoughts are making me bleed
I need you more with every thought
Should of stayed AND FOUGHT
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this letter I send?
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this LETTER I SEND?
"Maybe I should write something down" she mumbled as she sat up and found her diary.
"Dear diary, I've always had secrets, but nothing like this. Last night I spent a few hours with my good friend Lillian, we ate lot's of food and drank a bottle of vodka between us, I know were 5 years too young, that's probably why I'm grounded. But what I want to talk about is what happened to me as a person that night. Lil told me a friend of ours, Harold McNolty, admitted he was gay. Good for him I thought, until Lil began to tell me her opinion. I was honestly disgusted with what she had said I mean she i Vegan and does all these animal right protests, but won't give any gay people the time of day! But I still havn't gotten to the problem. When I looked at her, after a few pints of vodka, I w.., felt attracted to her. I wanted to kiss her, to touch her, but how can I be gay? I was in love with Z for so long. At least I think I was. And even If I am gay how can I fall for my homophobic freind? This is to much for me I just wish there was someone I could talk to....HAROLD. I'm glad I wrote this down now I'll write in again tomorrow when I've talked to Harold" With that she slammed shut her diary and locked it in her book table as usual. She sat up and looked in the mirror
"What you looking at dyke?" she said to herself before a tear rolled down her cheek. She wiped it away and grabbed her coat and walked toward the McNolty home. The thoughts of Lil still kept going around her head. Kimi did not live far away from the McNoltys so it wasn't long before she was knocking on the door. Timmy McNolty opened the door, Harold older brother
"Can I help you?" he said
"Hey yeah I'm one of Harolds friends"
Timmy shook his head "He has so many girls running around him and he decides to be gay, well you better come in he's in his room"
Kimi laughed slightly as she walked passed him as he was obviously checking her out 'Not much good that'll do you' she thought as she headed up towards Harolds room. The door was open and Kimi popped her head around the corner to see Harold sitting playing on his Playstation, still the same guy as always.
"Hey Harold" said Kimi slumping next to him, he jumped when he heard her, but was glad to see a familiar face
"Hey Kimi what are you doing here?" She sighed and looked up at him
"Well I heard about you being... you know?"
"Gay?"
"Yeah. Have you had any trouble from anyone?"
"Other than Timmy? No not really why do you ask?"
"Well I kinda have a secret, that only you can help with"
"Errr ok what is it?" said Harold seemingly confused
"Well I have had a crush on this guy Z for ages, you know him yeah?"
"Yeah..."
"Well he started seeing this girl Caley"
"Aaahhh..."
"That ain't it. Not even the half of it" Harold sat back expecting the worst "Well, a few days ago I was at my house with Lil we had pigged out and then we drank a lot of vodka and, well I think I have a crush on her."
"What?"
"Do you think I'm a lesbian?"
Harold was shocked "Well, I dunno, do you fancy any other girls?"
"No just Lil. I think. Is that good?" said Kimi not really knowing what she was saying
"Well I don't think your a lesbian, maybe it was just the drink"
"Thanks Harold, I supose I feel better now"
"Wait" said harold suddenly as Kimi was half way out the door
"What is it?"
"Lil is the one with a twin brother isn't she?"
"Yeah, so?"
"There identical right?"
"Apart from the obvious yeah"
"Well maybe you just have a crush on Phil, because they are identical you probably see him in her."
Kimi was shocked with this revolution. Did she have a crush on Phil, she never really noticed him, like that. But this would explain it.
"I never thought of it like that thanks Harold" she kissed him on the cheek and rushed home. She had to sneek back in, still being grounded, but she was good at being sneeky she had learned it from Angellica. She had managed to get in and back into her room, without anyone noticing, or so she thought. As she lay back on the door someone knocked on the other side. She gulped and opened the door.
"And were have you been?" came a booming voice as it opened, but she was soon sighing in relief
"Chuckie, you bastard I thought you were Dad"
"That was the plan. Were have you been?"
"I went for a walk this place was getting me down. You won't tell Mom and Dad will you?"
"Hey don't worry. I covered for you"
Kimi was relieved. Until she realised something "Wait what did you tell them?"
"I said I drove you over to Z's for a study group. They believe what I say because I'm the responsible one"
"So what am I?"
"The wild one" Kimi giggled
"Thanks Chuckie I owe you one"
"You owe me about 7643"
She laughed again "7644 now"
He smiled before walking down the hall into his room and locking the door. She never knew what he did in his room, she assumed it was something geeky. She went back into her room and closed the door. On her dresser was a picture of all her friends together. She picked it up and stared at Phil.
"I supose he's pretty cute" She said before putting the picture down and lying back on her bed. "I hope I like Phil" she said still staring at the ceiling. "I'll find out tommorrow at school she said before closing her eyes. For the first time in a long while she was looking forward to Monday morning. "At least I'll know" she closed her eyes and driffted off to sleep
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I'd like to start this off by saying sorry for making Lil a bitch, she's not meant to be like that, just homophobic, she's still nice though. Right well I hope your enjoying please R/R
It had been a few days since the pig out session after school. Kimi was in her room wrapped in a ball on her bed. 'I can't be in love with Lil, can I?' she thought rubbing her arms. 'The vodka!. I was drunk that's why I felt like that. Please be just the vodka, please' she closed her eyes and began to cry. She stretched out fully and stared at the roof and sighed. She couldn't stop thinking about what had happened that night. Then another thought crept into her head 'Why does Lil hate gay people so much? Could she be gay?' Kimis heart skipped a beat 'STOP THINKING ABOUT HER' she screamed in her head she found her stereo and turned it on hoping the music would drown out her thoughts.
"...well here is the new release from Paradise in Anarchy called letters." came the voice over the radio as heavy riff began to play
Are these thoughts just inside of my head?
Couldn't you take them away instead
I can't live with this kind of pain
You will surely DRIVE ME INSANE
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this letter I send?
These feelings I can't understand
Watch as my life turns into sand
You changed my life with a single verse
Is it better or has IT GOT WORSE
This life I just can not lead
These thoughts are making me bleed
I need you more with every thought
Should of stayed AND FOUGHT
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this letter I send?
I can't feel anything (ANYTHING)
I can't see anyone (ANYONE)
Will this pain end
With this LETTER I SEND?
"Maybe I should write something down" she mumbled as she sat up and found her diary.
"Dear diary, I've always had secrets, but nothing like this. Last night I spent a few hours with my good friend Lillian, we ate lot's of food and drank a bottle of vodka between us, I know were 5 years too young, that's probably why I'm grounded. But what I want to talk about is what happened to me as a person that night. Lil told me a friend of ours, Harold McNolty, admitted he was gay. Good for him I thought, until Lil began to tell me her opinion. I was honestly disgusted with what she had said I mean she i Vegan and does all these animal right protests, but won't give any gay people the time of day! But I still havn't gotten to the problem. When I looked at her, after a few pints of vodka, I w.., felt attracted to her. I wanted to kiss her, to touch her, but how can I be gay? I was in love with Z for so long. At least I think I was. And even If I am gay how can I fall for my homophobic freind? This is to much for me I just wish there was someone I could talk to....HAROLD. I'm glad I wrote this down now I'll write in again tomorrow when I've talked to Harold" With that she slammed shut her diary and locked it in her book table as usual. She sat up and looked in the mirror
"What you looking at dyke?" she said to herself before a tear rolled down her cheek. She wiped it away and grabbed her coat and walked toward the McNolty home. The thoughts of Lil still kept going around her head. Kimi did not live far away from the McNoltys so it wasn't long before she was knocking on the door. Timmy McNolty opened the door, Harold older brother
"Can I help you?" he said
"Hey yeah I'm one of Harolds friends"
Timmy shook his head "He has so many girls running around him and he decides to be gay, well you better come in he's in his room"
Kimi laughed slightly as she walked passed him as he was obviously checking her out 'Not much good that'll do you' she thought as she headed up towards Harolds room. The door was open and Kimi popped her head around the corner to see Harold sitting playing on his Playstation, still the same guy as always.
"Hey Harold" said Kimi slumping next to him, he jumped when he heard her, but was glad to see a familiar face
"Hey Kimi what are you doing here?" She sighed and looked up at him
"Well I heard about you being... you know?"
"Gay?"
"Yeah. Have you had any trouble from anyone?"
"Other than Timmy? No not really why do you ask?"
"Well I kinda have a secret, that only you can help with"
"Errr ok what is it?" said Harold seemingly confused
"Well I have had a crush on this guy Z for ages, you know him yeah?"
"Yeah..."
"Well he started seeing this girl Caley"
"Aaahhh..."
"That ain't it. Not even the half of it" Harold sat back expecting the worst "Well, a few days ago I was at my house with Lil we had pigged out and then we drank a lot of vodka and, well I think I have a crush on her."
"What?"
"Do you think I'm a lesbian?"
Harold was shocked "Well, I dunno, do you fancy any other girls?"
"No just Lil. I think. Is that good?" said Kimi not really knowing what she was saying
"Well I don't think your a lesbian, maybe it was just the drink"
"Thanks Harold, I supose I feel better now"
"Wait" said harold suddenly as Kimi was half way out the door
"What is it?"
"Lil is the one with a twin brother isn't she?"
"Yeah, so?"
"There identical right?"
"Apart from the obvious yeah"
"Well maybe you just have a crush on Phil, because they are identical you probably see him in her."
Kimi was shocked with this revolution. Did she have a crush on Phil, she never really noticed him, like that. But this would explain it.
"I never thought of it like that thanks Harold" she kissed him on the cheek and rushed home. She had to sneek back in, still being grounded, but she was good at being sneeky she had learned it from Angellica. She had managed to get in and back into her room, without anyone noticing, or so she thought. As she lay back on the door someone knocked on the other side. She gulped and opened the door.
"And were have you been?" came a booming voice as it opened, but she was soon sighing in relief
"Chuckie, you bastard I thought you were Dad"
"That was the plan. Were have you been?"
"I went for a walk this place was getting me down. You won't tell Mom and Dad will you?"
"Hey don't worry. I covered for you"
Kimi was relieved. Until she realised something "Wait what did you tell them?"
"I said I drove you over to Z's for a study group. They believe what I say because I'm the responsible one"
"So what am I?"
"The wild one" Kimi giggled
"Thanks Chuckie I owe you one"
"You owe me about 7643"
She laughed again "7644 now"
He smiled before walking down the hall into his room and locking the door. She never knew what he did in his room, she assumed it was something geeky. She went back into her room and closed the door. On her dresser was a picture of all her friends together. She picked it up and stared at Phil.
"I supose he's pretty cute" She said before putting the picture down and lying back on her bed. "I hope I like Phil" she said still staring at the ceiling. "I'll find out tommorrow at school she said before closing her eyes. For the first time in a long while she was looking forward to Monday morning. "At least I'll know" she closed her eyes and driffted off to sleep
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I'd like to start this off by saying sorry for making Lil a bitch, she's not meant to be like that, just homophobic, she's still nice though. Right well I hope your enjoying please R/R