Chapter Five Still Real

As soon as I had jumped Oliver didn't hesitate. He ran and grabbed my wrist, holding me an inch from death. He pulled me up and took me away from the edge. He wrapped me in his arms, not even caring that I was soaking his robes in tears.

"I love you Katie," he whispered in my ear.

"I love you too Oliver," I answered, "How did you know where to find me?"

"Aye, well it was simple. I knew you'd want to be alone, McGonagall had told us what happened, so I thought you would find a familiar place to you, with a friend," He replied, indicating at my owl.

"That friend wouldn't have stopped my death," I said, trying to smile, but failing. Oliver noticed and scooped me up into his arms, walking down the steps of the owlery and over to the Gryffindor common room. I'm not sure how it happened, but I found myself on the sofa, lying in Oliver's arms...

I woke up the next morning and smiled. I moved slightly, accidentally waking Oliver up.

"Oh, I'm sorry," I said, seriously, I was sorry. Oliver looked so cute when he was asleep.

"It's all right, I wasn't actually asleep, just thinking," he said, which was true. I didn't know it, but he was thinking about me. I got up slowly, making Oliver sit up. It was about 5:10am and we had quidditch practice today. I walked upstairs and got changed into my quidditch gear and met the rest of the team on the pitch.

Eventually Oliver had decided we had gotten muddy enough and finished practice. I took my time in the shower, there was no rush. I heard no signs of life and immediately a song sprang to mind. So I started to sing.

"I'm so tired of being here,

Suppressed by all my childish fears.

And if you have to leave,

I wish that you just leave

Because your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

You screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears.

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life

You left behind.

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice, it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

You screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears.

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone, I'm alone

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

You screamed, I'd fight away all of your fears.

I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me"

I love that song, but until now I never knew how it felt. What it really means. I turned off the taps and got dressed into a pair of jeans and a singlet. I was supposed to be going to hogsmeade today. I stepped into the locker room to find that I was, in fact, not alone. A lone figure was slumped against a locker.

"How long have you been there?" I demanded.

"Sing for me, Katie," the Scotsman replied.

"What? Why?" he wasn't making sense.

"Just sing. Any song, just sing. I'll explain later," I looked at him strangely but decided to sing anyway. What harm could it do? I opened my mouth, expecting to sing something short and cheerful, but the words just flowed out,

"I wonder how long I can sustain this mystery
I wonder how we thought we'd get here without strife
I try to recall the beauty that brought us here
And I cling to that, I cling to that, I cling to that for my life

They say they understand the turmoil that unsettles you
And I say you just fulfil your end of the deal and I'll fulfil mine
Once we reveal ourselves we're so quick, so quick to analyse
I just want you to be free and enjoy this ride

So go on I'll tell you it's alright
Go on, please tell me you're fine
Don't ever let them get you down
'cause everything that really, really matters
is still real

I'd love to see you shine with every possible radiance
And ignore any thoughts that weren't planted by good
And let intention motivate and stimulate, that is all
And let the cloud that hangs above drift off into the sunset night

So go on I'll tell you it's alright
Go on, please tell me you're fine
Don't ever let them get you down
'cause everything that really, really matters
is still real"

"Wow," was all Oliver said. He smiled at me, cupped my face in his hands and lent in for a kiss...