Chapter 7
Kirsten knew Sandy was getting restless as she babbled on about her day and a new development that she had just landed. "Kirsten," Sandy interrupted, "what did you wanna talk to me about? You've been acting weird around me for weeks now and to be honest you're kinda scaring me." He looked at his beautiful wife and unable to read her expression he joked, "You're not having an affair are you?" Kirsten's head snapped up, "Of course not. Why would you say th... oh." She finished realising the joke. Sandy took her hand and softly whispered, "Tell me." She looked straight into his caring eyes and she answered, "What I need to tell you is important so you can't interrupt me until I'm finished or you'll never know the entire story..." a few seconds passed, "OK?"
"You told me not to interrupt."
"Sandy," she scolded, "Ok I don't know how to tell you this but... I'm just going to come out with it. First I need you to know that I love you." A few seconds passed in silence and Sandy tightened his grip on Kirsten's delicate hand.
"When we were in college... I was nineteen... I had an abortion."
Sandy instantly dropped Kirsten's hand but he kept a fixed gaze on her. "Continue. Evidently you have more to say."
"It was when we were broken up for those few weeks back in college. I didn't know what to do. And when Jimmy showed up I was vulnerable, but I'm not blaming him, I was at fault too but I was a mess and I loved you I thought we had broken up and..."
"Jimmy."
"Yes."
Sandy stood up and walked wordlessly out of the room. When he returned he was holding two cups of coffee. He handed one to Kirsten and said, "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I was ashamed... and frightened...actually I was terrified that you would reject me because I love you Sandy I love you so much." She was crying now and Sandy once again took her hand and said, "Kirsten you shouldn't have kept this from me. Why did you do it? I know you say it was a mistake but... how could you go through with an abortion?"
"Because I loved you and I thought you wouldn't want me anymore..."
"How could you ever think that? I love you so much. I could never abandon you. Pregnant or not."
"But I wanted you to be the father. You're my husband. You're the one I love."
"Honey you and I know better than anyone that genetics don't matter. We have two sons. The fact that one of them doesn't have matching genes... is irrelevant. I would have loved that child as my own."
"But..."
"No buts. I'm hurt you felt you couldn't tell me but... I get it. I understand."
"What? Why aren't you angry with me?" Kirsten was in hysterics. She was yelling at her husband who was staring on in shock, "You should be calling me a slut, a whore, anything. Please stop being so damn noble and tell me exactly what you think of me. Please."
Sandy grabbed Kirsten's flailing hands and held her tight while she tried to fight against him, "Stop it. I lied to you stop it I can't do this. You have to yell at me please don't do this." Sandy held on until she fell into his arms. She sobbed. She wept for the child she would never meet. The lie she had kept for twenty years. She cried for the weight that had been lifted and the Husband she loved and betrayed.
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