Craig pulled into Haley's drive way. They got out and Haley walked in her front door and motioned for Craig to follow her.
"Haley, you're home early. Montana's been really...oops sorry." Megan finished as she walked in the room and saw Craig.
"It's okay, he knows. Craig, this is Megan, my babysitter."
"Hey."
"Hi." There was an awkward silence, "Well I better get going."
"Okay, thanks. See you tomorrow." Haley answered as Megan walked out the door. Haley started to walk up the stairs til she noticed Craig wasn't following. "You coming?"
Craig nodded and followed her up the stairs. He had never been in Haley's room before and he wondered what it looked like, but Haley didn't take him to her room. He followed her into the vaguely familiar room he had been in before. He saw Montana asleep in her crib.
"Better not wake her." he said hoping to see her room.
"Yeah, I suppose not. Maybe you should come by some other time. I'm a little tired."
"I don't wanna leave you alone." Craig answered.
"That's sweet, but I'd really like to sleep."
"I could sleep with you." he said and then mentally smacked himself when he heard his own voice.
"Uh..." Haley wasn't sure what to say. She wasn't even sure what he meant.
"Sorry, that's not what I meant..." he paused, "Maybe I should just go."
"No, stay." she said. She grabbed his hand and lead him across the hall. She sat on the bed and patted the spot next to her telling him to sit. He sat and looked into her eyes. There was just something about her eyes that drove him crazy.
Haley hated when people looked into her eyes. She always saw her rapist because that's what he had done, looked into her eyes. She looked into Craig's eyes, then closed her own.
It was two years ago, she was in an upstairs bedroom at a party. Dean was obviously drunk. He was pushing her slowly onto the bed, she didn't really mind. Then he sat up. Haley looked up into his eyes. She had to admit, she had actually hooked up with a not so bad looking guy tonight. She saw him put his hand in his pocket and pull out a small package.
"Dean no, what are you doing?" she said trying to sit up but he pushed her back down. "Dean no please. I don't think so. Dean stop I said no."
Haley felt someone's hand on her shoulder. Someone was pushing her backwards. She could feel herself falling.
"No, Dean, I said no." she screamed, pushing the person off.
"Dean?" Craig asked. Haley opened her eyes and saw Craig sitting in front of her with a confused look on his face.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry Craig."
"Who's Dean?" Craig asked. He looked hurt.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Dean is Montana's father."
"The guy who raped you?"
"Yeah. I'm sorry."
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you. Did you say Dean?"
"Yeah. Why?"
"The guy who raped Paige...his name was Dean. Did you go to Bardell?"
"Yeah." Haley didn't know what to say. "When was Paige rapped?"
"At a party a few years ago." Haley saw a flashback in her head. She saw Dean bringing a girl upstairs earlier at the party she had been attacked.
"Oh my god."
"What?"
"I saw her go upstairs with him like an hour before I was with him upstairs." Craig didn't know what to do or say so he hugged her and whispered "I'm sorry" in her ear. Haley laid back on her bed and starred up at Craig. She loved him. She knew that. She knew she loved him the day she first saw him. 'I should just do this. Stop being such a prude. Suck it up. Get over what Dean did to you.' she tried to tell herself. She sat up and kissed her boyfriend. He pushed her off and looked at her.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine." she answered trying to kiss him again but he backed up out of reach.
"Are you sure? I don't want you to do something you're not ready to do." Craig said worried.
"I'm find. You just don't want to because Dean got there first."
"No, that's not true. You were raped Haley. You see Montana everyday. That must remind you of that night all the time."
"Yes, it does. Why don't you remind me some more Craig."
"Why did you keep her?"
"You think I should have killed her? It wasn't her fault he did what he did."
"No, but...adoption?" Craig was trying to be sympathetic but Haley just seemed to get more angry every time he talked.
"Yeah and then what would I say when she was older and found me? I gave you away because I couldn't look at you. You reminded me of your rapist father? Sometimes I just want to kill her Craig. Because I look at her and see him. When you kiss me I see him. When someone bumps into me in the hall, I see him. Moving didn't help, I still see him." Craig didn't know what to say. He just starred at her.
"Yeah stare at the fucked up teenage mother who sees her rapist every second of everyday. Stop staring at the freak show. I feel like I'm locked up in a cage at the zoo with everyone pushing their stupid ugly faces up at me.
"I'm sorry." was all Craig could say. He wanted to hug her, to hold her, but he didn't want her to ever have to see Dean again.
"Maybe you should talk to Paige."
"Why?"
"See how she got over it."
"I'm just suppose to get over it. I see how it is. When something's not convenient for you I'm just suppose to "get over it"? I should have listened to Ash."
"No, that's not what I meant. I'm sorry."
"Then what did you mean?"
"Maybe she can help you dean with it." Right away he knew that wasn't what Haley wanted to hear.
"Get out." Haley said pushing him off the bed. "Just go." Craig got up and backed up towards the door. "I'm sorry." he said again and turned around and left.
Haley heard the door shut behind him and then heard Montana's cry. 'Great just want I needed.'
"Haley, you're home early. Montana's been really...oops sorry." Megan finished as she walked in the room and saw Craig.
"It's okay, he knows. Craig, this is Megan, my babysitter."
"Hey."
"Hi." There was an awkward silence, "Well I better get going."
"Okay, thanks. See you tomorrow." Haley answered as Megan walked out the door. Haley started to walk up the stairs til she noticed Craig wasn't following. "You coming?"
Craig nodded and followed her up the stairs. He had never been in Haley's room before and he wondered what it looked like, but Haley didn't take him to her room. He followed her into the vaguely familiar room he had been in before. He saw Montana asleep in her crib.
"Better not wake her." he said hoping to see her room.
"Yeah, I suppose not. Maybe you should come by some other time. I'm a little tired."
"I don't wanna leave you alone." Craig answered.
"That's sweet, but I'd really like to sleep."
"I could sleep with you." he said and then mentally smacked himself when he heard his own voice.
"Uh..." Haley wasn't sure what to say. She wasn't even sure what he meant.
"Sorry, that's not what I meant..." he paused, "Maybe I should just go."
"No, stay." she said. She grabbed his hand and lead him across the hall. She sat on the bed and patted the spot next to her telling him to sit. He sat and looked into her eyes. There was just something about her eyes that drove him crazy.
Haley hated when people looked into her eyes. She always saw her rapist because that's what he had done, looked into her eyes. She looked into Craig's eyes, then closed her own.
It was two years ago, she was in an upstairs bedroom at a party. Dean was obviously drunk. He was pushing her slowly onto the bed, she didn't really mind. Then he sat up. Haley looked up into his eyes. She had to admit, she had actually hooked up with a not so bad looking guy tonight. She saw him put his hand in his pocket and pull out a small package.
"Dean no, what are you doing?" she said trying to sit up but he pushed her back down. "Dean no please. I don't think so. Dean stop I said no."
Haley felt someone's hand on her shoulder. Someone was pushing her backwards. She could feel herself falling.
"No, Dean, I said no." she screamed, pushing the person off.
"Dean?" Craig asked. Haley opened her eyes and saw Craig sitting in front of her with a confused look on his face.
"Oh my god, I'm so sorry Craig."
"Who's Dean?" Craig asked. He looked hurt.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Dean is Montana's father."
"The guy who raped you?"
"Yeah. I'm sorry."
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you. Did you say Dean?"
"Yeah. Why?"
"The guy who raped Paige...his name was Dean. Did you go to Bardell?"
"Yeah." Haley didn't know what to say. "When was Paige rapped?"
"At a party a few years ago." Haley saw a flashback in her head. She saw Dean bringing a girl upstairs earlier at the party she had been attacked.
"Oh my god."
"What?"
"I saw her go upstairs with him like an hour before I was with him upstairs." Craig didn't know what to do or say so he hugged her and whispered "I'm sorry" in her ear. Haley laid back on her bed and starred up at Craig. She loved him. She knew that. She knew she loved him the day she first saw him. 'I should just do this. Stop being such a prude. Suck it up. Get over what Dean did to you.' she tried to tell herself. She sat up and kissed her boyfriend. He pushed her off and looked at her.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine." she answered trying to kiss him again but he backed up out of reach.
"Are you sure? I don't want you to do something you're not ready to do." Craig said worried.
"I'm find. You just don't want to because Dean got there first."
"No, that's not true. You were raped Haley. You see Montana everyday. That must remind you of that night all the time."
"Yes, it does. Why don't you remind me some more Craig."
"Why did you keep her?"
"You think I should have killed her? It wasn't her fault he did what he did."
"No, but...adoption?" Craig was trying to be sympathetic but Haley just seemed to get more angry every time he talked.
"Yeah and then what would I say when she was older and found me? I gave you away because I couldn't look at you. You reminded me of your rapist father? Sometimes I just want to kill her Craig. Because I look at her and see him. When you kiss me I see him. When someone bumps into me in the hall, I see him. Moving didn't help, I still see him." Craig didn't know what to say. He just starred at her.
"Yeah stare at the fucked up teenage mother who sees her rapist every second of everyday. Stop staring at the freak show. I feel like I'm locked up in a cage at the zoo with everyone pushing their stupid ugly faces up at me.
"I'm sorry." was all Craig could say. He wanted to hug her, to hold her, but he didn't want her to ever have to see Dean again.
"Maybe you should talk to Paige."
"Why?"
"See how she got over it."
"I'm just suppose to get over it. I see how it is. When something's not convenient for you I'm just suppose to "get over it"? I should have listened to Ash."
"No, that's not what I meant. I'm sorry."
"Then what did you mean?"
"Maybe she can help you dean with it." Right away he knew that wasn't what Haley wanted to hear.
"Get out." Haley said pushing him off the bed. "Just go." Craig got up and backed up towards the door. "I'm sorry." he said again and turned around and left.
Haley heard the door shut behind him and then heard Montana's cry. 'Great just want I needed.'