Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon!!! Although I'd like too :)))

My story is a bit different and my characters are more than OOC. But, the story is settled somewhere in the middle of the second - R - season. It has nothing to do with the seasons, maybe just the few major things. Hope you like it; I warned you OOC!!! READ IT AND REVIEW So I should know if I can safely continue. ( I won't if there will be no-one to read it.)

Oh yes my regards to Rain one of my favorite writers I LOVE YA!!!

*KISS*

Where do I begin?

He knew he'd gone too far this time. And he was more than sorry for it now. But regret won't help in finding her. It's been a year now, and no clue whatsoever. Nothing helped. They tried so much, but without success. No use. She's nowhere to be found. Ami run the analysis more than once on her mini - computer.

Once, just once it gave them a hope. In the end it turned out that was same missing girl from America. He couldn't sleep, eat, heck even breathe without her, and for some reason he knew the girls were on the same. A year . . . it's been a year . . .

*Flashback*

"You know I can't do that. I can not kill him." - everyone disagreed on that with her, again. They apparently forgot that she could never kill a human, no matter what possessed him. Usagi was slowly being tired of all of it. Rei spoke first:

"You're wrong again Usagi. He's not human anymore. There is no harm in ending it now."

"No, Rei. I've made my decision. No killing today, not ever."

The other scouts were supporting Rei, so Usagi turned for help to Mamoru. But he disappointed her also.

"Mamoru, please tell them I'm right." - she looked at him with a pleading look in her eyes, asking him to say something that will prove her point of view. But he didn't.

"Actually, Usagi, I think they are right at this one. We should end this here and now." - the very moment he let those words come out, he regretted them. But they were already said. Usagi looked at him in horror, not understanding what happened to all of them.

They were so blind - have they forgotten their cause? They are here to protect, not to destroy human life, for God's sake! She was aware that she could never win this fight, so she turned around preparing to leave the park.

"And were do you think you're going, Usagi?" - came stressed Minako's voice behind her. Usagi stopped but she didn't turn around to face them. She spoke softly, but you could feel the anger and disgust in her voice.

"You do what you think is the best, but remember - I have no part at it. And you'll receive no help from me. Got that?!"

"But how do you think we can kill him without your magic wand?"

"I don't know, and I don't want to know." - she sadi in a freezing tone and left them standing there. Five minutes later she was seeking comfort in her pillow, because he seemed, at that time, the only one that would understand her. The group did as they attended, with a smaller disapproval from Luna. In the end they thought, all of them, it was the right thing to do.

* End of flashback*

Somehow he knew, that from that very moment everything started to go wrong. Fights were starting to get more and more common, bigger and over small things, stupid things. They couldn't find the language that connected them before. Usagi was alone, completely alone after Luna joined the group. And then came that last day when they saw her.

*Flashback*

"No more! I said no more!" - Usagi was screaming in pain, and her screams were so hard they caused them to shake inside. They could do nothing to help her, she was trapped. They were fighting a very big youma and the other one held Usagi in his claws, pressing and clinching into her small body. Some blood appeared on her sailor suit, from the wounds, his claws gave her. She screamed in panic, trying so desperately to set lose. Mamoru could barely look at her direction because only him and Mako were standing now, fighting the first youma. The other scouts laid on the ground, unconscious.

Finally one last blow from Mako defeated the monster which disappeared in a thin air. He turned to her asking if she was ok, but she only waved her hand away telling him to go and help Usagi. He ran towards her, when he heard her scream "No more!". He tried to help her, but youma attacked him from behind hitting him in the back with it's tail. He flew towards the tree, and from the strike remained laying on the ground. The youma laughed.

"So, all of your so called friends left you to fight alone? Some friends!" - the youma wiggled in front of her, trying to irritate her.

"No, that's not true! They were fighting your friend over there - they were helping me in that way. You're wrong!" - Usagi said, in a half yelling shriek, defeding her friends, even though she herself wasn't sure about her words.

"Am I? It didn't seem to me they were eager to help you." - the youma mocked.

"Stop it! You don't even know what friendship is." - 'I won't let this monster to drive me over the edge, I won't!'

"Maybe, but I'm pretty sure that wasn't it."

"I SAID YOU TO STOP IT!!!" - Usagi screamed again, this time in rage. Her inner power built up and exploded outside her carrying away the youma with it. She fell to the ground exhausted. But she was the first to get up again as she walked slowly to her scouts to check on them.

Mamoru stood up looking at her in surprise. He came around to see her explosion. He didn't like what he saw, not one bit of it. Rei woke up first, and soon the rest of them.

"So, our little Usagi managed at her own after all?" - she said in a joke, but she didn't know it was the worst time possible.

"Yeah, I did. SO WHAT? " - Usagi yelled thinking in her head of was that really a joke or something regular to bring her down.

"Ok, Usagi, just kidding!" - Rei tried to back out, seeing that unfamiliar, never seen before, bertayed and hurt look on her friends face.

"Well it didn't look like a joke to me REI! "- Ami tried to interfere, but Usagi had enough of their bittering.

"I think you would be happier if that thing killed me, and not the other way round. Right?" - she asked in a very ticked-off way. They all looked at her standing feet or two away from her, while strange purple glow surrounded her body. They have never seen their leader like this before.

"What's the matter Usagi? Why are you so angry all of a sudden?" - asked concerned Minako looking straight at her.

"You really want to know? WELL . . . I HAVE HAD IT ENOUGH!!! You can't seem to stop complaining about everything I do - how I dress, what I eat, how I learn, how I fight, how I sleep - even on the way how I breathe!!!"

"Usagi!"- they all cried out in a surprise. - "You know that's not true!"

"Really? Well, Rei always tells me I'm stupid. Ami is always complaining that I should study more, Mako is constantly reminding me that I can't cook as good as her, and Minako is always putting it into my face that I don't know how to behave as a princess! So, don't tell me, PLEASE, I got it all wrong!"

The silence grew. No-one wished to talk, to reply. Mamoru thought it would be better if he tried to smooth things out.

"Usagi, maybe they do that, but they only tease you as a friend. They don't actually mean it."

"Ooo, don't YOU dare to defend them, Mamoru!! Not you - you're even worse!!" - Mamoru looked at her stunned. The senshi couldn't believe she would say something about Mamoru too. But as it showed, they were wrong.

"First you say you don't love me anymore, or that you never did. And then that you're breaking up with me. But you're always here, around. Not that I can say something, because you won't speak to me about it. I've gone with this story so far - BUT NOT ANYMORE!!!" - Usagi stopped, and give herself a chance to thought it over. Was it really worth it? Or it wasn't?

"I'm not your funny little thing to toss around, you know? And ALL of you - this . . . this thing about killing people . . . it's wrong. Way wrong! It looks like you've forgotten that I, as a Moon Princess can't take human life in no matter what form. But in the last few months it seems you've even forgotten who I am!" - She decided it wasn't . . .

"Usagi stop with the blabering!" - yelled Rei, red in face. She was embarrassed as ever. Usagi was screaming at her, and she had a point in few things.

"See?" - Rei became aware of her words. She has just accused her of being stupid again. Usagi turned her back on them, thinking. They waited in silence for her to continue. She only stood there, when her head raised up hearing Mamoru speak again.

"Now . . . I will say something. I've had my reasons to end our relationship, Usagi. Don't blame them on that. Blame me. But can't you see they are only trying to help you? By making jokes they are telling you what to do better. It's funny and helpful. How many times have you scored an A since Ami dared you to it, just to prove her wrong? Or cooked something very good? And your behaviour - well, even now you're behaving more like a child then like a princess. Sorry about that, but it is true, Usagi." - He looked her right in hte eyes, telling her all this, so obvious stats. But it wasn't breaking trough. Once was enough.

"Have you finished?" - a cold voice came out of Usagi's mouth. He felt it on his skin.

"What do you know, Mamo-chan? Do you know how much does it hurts? Do you?" - she turned around, tears sliding down her cheeks, but her voice remained cold at the beginning slowly passing into crying one.

Mamoru twinched hearing her use his 'old' nickname. And her tears . . . Oh, God, just how many did she spilt because of him?

"No, you don't. Too bad." - she looked up at them. They became a dot for her, she could care less what will they think of her after all of this. She won't stay to find out.

"It hurts to listen I'm stupid, clumsy, embarrassing, lazy, chicken, bad cooker, worse fighter . . . it just hurts. You don't have a clue how many tears I've spilt because of that, do you? No, how could you? Well there's a flash for you - noone's prefect. Neither am I. Nor I could ever be." - she felt new tears forming in her eyes, but refused them to be shown to the world and her 'dear friends'. It was enough she cried at all.

"Yes, Mamo-chan, sometimes it may seem like pure fun, but if you look underneath it, you'll find more. Much more. And I won't blame them because of what happened between us. They are not the one's to blame. I am. It is always me, right? We're late because Usagi had to stay longer; we have to go out for dinner, Usagi screwed it up again; oh no, she can't handle that youma on her own - we better help her and so goes the story."

Noone dared to speak up. They were in awe. She is determined to do this. To really push them out, to show them how much their way of looking at things distinguished from hers.

"Well there's no more of that. I promise you. . . I quit." - she said in a quick breath. They looked at her shocked, not quite believing what they have just heard.

"You know, it's so easy in the end? You get rid of me - your little burden, the troublemaker and I get to walk free." - at this realization, smile brushed upon her pink lips.

"You don't mean it Usagi." - said Mamoru. - "Think about it. You don't really meant it."

"See, it is easy. Yes I really - REALLY mean it. I loved you Mamo-chan and I'm sorry you couldn't see that. You had to kill every sense of love in me. And you - four of you just continued destroying my heart after he only cracked it." - she stopped in a dramatic pause. "Congratulations! The five of you managed to break it in two. Good job everyone!"

"Usagi what are you saying? Listen to yourself!" - Mako gazed at her leader in disapproval. - "You can't just quit. You're our leader, our princess, our friend . . . and . . . his love."

Usagi smiled at them and their stupidity. She wept away her tears, as her smile grew bigger. She turned around again and started walking.

"I can't? WATCH ME!!!"

* end of flashback*

And from that day on noone saw her. She was nowhere to be found, well not on this planet. And then for the first time he remembered something. Not on this planet? There's one more place where she COULD be. New idea formed in his head as he raised the phone typing the numbers in . . .

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The End of PROLOUGE!

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AN: So - guys that's the prolouge!

Ok, NEWSFLASH! This story was up before, but I made some adjustmenst, and I figured out how to end it. I REALLY DID! And I'm so happy, although I might have some trouble getting to the real END, but OH WELL!

If you like it review and tell me to continue updating. And I WILL. Sorry for making youma talking but I had to come up with something. *LOL*

Yeaaaaaaaah, my first story for Usagi IS UP -- WHOOOOOOOOO!!!! 'Dancing around my room' - shoot me if you hate me I don't care - feh! . . . KISSES