Chapter One: Enough Pain
Kagome ran away from Inuyasha crying. Why was it always Kikyo? Didn't she matter to him? He was in love with Kikyo before I came along. Fifty years before I came along. But she wants to drag him to hell, steal my soul, and she's made of clay and dirt too! I'm tired of being hurt. I'm going home. She was nearly at the well so she ran ahead and hopped down.
Later when Kagome was relaxing in an herbal bath she found herself thinking of Inuysha yet again. She would never be able to let go of him. Why do I have to love you? You're the main reason I go to te feudal era. She pictured his face. Then she imagined what it would feel like to kiss him. This was her most common fantasy. His face getting closer and closer, his lips meeting hers, the feeling going through her body when their lips met. It felt so real. She loonged to hold him in her arms, for him to embrace her one last time..... But she had to try and forget about the feudal era so that she could live a close-to-normal life. I'll never forget you Inuyasha. I won't forget because I wont stop loving. She sighed and ducked her head under water. Kagome came up for breath. She reluctantly left the tub and flopped down on her bed. It feels so good to be able to sleep in my own bed again. She imagined the feeling she got when she was lying on the cold ground in the feudal era and then feeling the warmth of Inuyasha's body ressed up against hers. She stacked up some pillows beside her to try and replace him, but it would never work, they were pillows, not the love of her life. I am sorry that I will not not see you again, that I cannot see you again. But I don't want to get hurt anymore. Seeing you with Kikyo hurts worse than living with only your memory. I swear I will never marry because I will not marry if I cannot marry you, my love. with this last thought she drifted into a dreamless sleep.
Inuyasha returned much later that night after having ssen Kikyo. He had promised to think about going to hell with her. If I go to hell with Kikyo, I will never be able to see Kagome ever again. But I feel like I owe something to Kikyo. What is hell like anyway? That would certainly help my decision great deal. Inuyasha thought to himself. Kikyo, or Kagome? This choice will tear me apart. Let's see: with Kikyo I have loved her for over fifty years. But she is made of clay and ashes. Kagome is so different from Kikyo. She has all the good qualities that Kikyo has, but she doesn't want to drag me off to hell with her. Then there is the complication of her living in a different time era. She could live here and go visit her family... What am I thinking, why would Kagome love me? After all the times she's sat me I don't think she's capable of loving me. I am just a half-demon in another time era. She only comes to collect the jewel shards because it is her fault that the Shikon Jewel shattered in the first place. But she gets so sad when she sees me with Kikyo. Did she see me with Kikyo tonight? Oh No. I really hope not. Inuyasha ran to Kaede's hut and looked inside. There was the bottle of Shikon Shards, there was a note with it:
Dear Inuyasha,
Here are the shards. If you need somebody to locate the shards for you then why don't you go call Kikyo. I love you, I love you too much. Whenever I see you with Kikyo it tears me apart. I would rather live with good memories of you than to live with you and keep seeing you with Kikyo. I know that you love Kikyo and not me. Do not come after me, You do not have any need of me after all.
-Kagome
The ink was blurred and smeared in various places on the sheet. It was obvious tha she had been crying while she wrote the note. I will let her calm down a bit tonight. She is probably very angry with me. I will go and get in a few days once she has had enough time to cool down.
Inuyasha Obsession: Wow, that was pretty short... The next chapter will be longer, this one was just so that the rest of the story would make sense... Just like all the chapters are for, BUT it doesn't really matter what this little piece of babbling says because most people don't even read it anyway... ANYWAYS I really hope you liked it! Tell me your thought on my story!! Please review!!! You keep reviewing and I'll keep writing!!!