"We are formed in important ways by the love we feel in our hearts" Ardath
H. Rodale
Leaving Garden was the hardest thing I had ever had to do. It had been my home for nearly all my life, all my friends were there, and being a SeeD was all I knew how to do! I decided to go to the only other place I had been able to call home. The orphanage. I knew it would be empty, Edea was living in Garden with Cid and it was too remote for squatters.
I left the Garden alone as the sun rose. No one knew I was leaving, they were all resting peacefully in their beds, having only just finished partying a couple of hours ago. I sat in the taxi, headed for Balamb, my small suitcase next to me. I turned to look at Garden one last time, convincing myself that I must never set foot there again. It looked so peaceful in the early morning sun, so tranquil and serene.
When I arrived in Balamb I travelled by train to Dollet. That place brought back so many memories. It had been freed from the Galbanian army by then by underground resistance groups, it was prospering and I considered staying there. Until I took a walk to the beach.
On the shore the memories of Squall on his SeeD exam mission came flooding back. I saved him from that machine. I was so scared, adrenaline pumping through my veins at the though of loosing him. I took aim and fired as he took that final leap, I held my breath until I saw him stand up and look back.
I walked slowly along the beach remembering the events of the night before. I walked out into the sea up to my ankles, fighting the urge to just swim out and drown, end it all. The water rippled at my ankles as my tears landed in the ocean.
The small hotel I checked into for the night was dark and dingy but thank Hyne, it had a bar! I crawled up to bed at about half past two, barely able to stand.
The next morning I rolled out of the small hard bed. I could have yanked my head off, my hangover was agony! I dressed slowly and made my way to the pier, to hire a boat to take me to the Centra continent.
"Can I help you little lady?" A gruff voice said form behind me.
"Yes I need to buy a speed boat", an item easily afforded with the Gil I had saved form years of missions.
"That'll set you back a bit, u sure a pretty thing like you can afford it?", I scowled and my hand tightened over my 'Save the Queen', I hate being patronised.
"Can you sell me one or not?" I asked snidely, already impatient of the man. I didn't really want t spend that much money but I had no choice, unless I wanted to steal the Ragnarok from the ship port in Esthar..! Now that was an idea!
I could pilot the Ragnarok just as well as Selphie, but I was impossible to get working with out the keys. But it could be hot wired just like a car! Unfortunately the only person I knew that could hotwire a car was slowly loosing his mind in a prison in Esthar. I contemplated the reality of my idea. Getting him from prison would save his life, and provide me with some company. Maybe, just maybe it was possible? After all I was a first class SeeD, who had saved the world from time compression. It shouldn't be too difficult.
"Forget it," I said to the boatman, who was openly staring at my body.
" You sure? We could make some kind of a deal", he jeered at me, winking grotesquely. I pulled out my whip and cracked it loudly on the decking, his stare switched from me to the whip. I felt his fear at the power in my hands.
"I really don't think so", I drawled slowly and walked away, leaving him in shock. I could feel his eyes following me down the pier making sure that I was truly gone.
There was no point in staying in Dollet another night, so I returned to my horrid little hotel and packed my tiny suitcase and boarded yet another train, this one headed for Fisherman's Horizon. I was in nearly empty carriage only myself and a couple near the door. Watching them my loneliness was over whelming, the carriage slowly darkened as the sunset. Thankful for the darkness and inability to see the blissful pair I leant against the windowpane and watched the world go by.
I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I heard was a voice over the intercom telling me that we had arrived in Fisherman's Horizon. As I got off the train an extremely tall black man handed me my luggage. Why had this man I didn't know had my suitcase?
"Hello Instructor. It's been a long time, ya know. I was gonna steal it, but then I realised it was you, ya know."
"Times are tough, hey Rajin" I said finally recognising the face. "I didn't recognise you! Weren't you in Balamb?"
"We were, but we just needed to be somewhere quiet, hassle free, ya know? But times are tough and I haven't been able to get a job, ya know and Fujin is only working at the bar"
"We? Are you here with Fujin?" As if on que, the grey haired woman appeared by his side.
"QUISTIS! WELL?" She answered in her usual way.
"Yes, thank you Fujin. Rajin explained to me why you were here".
Fujin looked up wit obvious pain in her eyes, "SIEFER, WELL?"
"Oh god you don't know?" I hated being the one to have to tell her how he was, and how could she not know? But she deserved to know the truth.
"I.um..Well, lets go somewhere quieter and talk. I don't think your going to like this" She looked at me understandingly and I followed her and Rajin out of the station. We ended up in the bar where Fujin worked in a corner booth. They both sat and waited for me to begin.
"Where to start" I said out loud. "Well I hate to break this to you but Seifer's not doing well. He is deteriorating mentally and physically. He blames himself for what happened, he says that he hears the screams of his victims". I heard Fujin whimper softly and a tear fall down her cheek, Rajin had gone pale; he seemed unable to find the right words.
Clearing her throat she said quietly, " And why have you left garden?" A question I didn't want to answer.
"Personal reasons, I don't want to go into it" They both nodded, seeming to understand. " At the moment I don't know what to do with myself. I was thinking of going to the old orphanage" There was no harm in letting them know.
"So why are you in FH? Ya know?"
I didn't know whether to tell them what I was doing or not. I looked around the shabby bar and looked again at their torn, old clothes and decided to give them the choice.
"I'm going to Esthar to free Seifer and steal the Ragnarok". They both stared at me in shock, not believing that the so-called 'perfect' instructor would even consider such a thing.
"Are you coming then?"
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Leaving Garden was the hardest thing I had ever had to do. It had been my home for nearly all my life, all my friends were there, and being a SeeD was all I knew how to do! I decided to go to the only other place I had been able to call home. The orphanage. I knew it would be empty, Edea was living in Garden with Cid and it was too remote for squatters.
I left the Garden alone as the sun rose. No one knew I was leaving, they were all resting peacefully in their beds, having only just finished partying a couple of hours ago. I sat in the taxi, headed for Balamb, my small suitcase next to me. I turned to look at Garden one last time, convincing myself that I must never set foot there again. It looked so peaceful in the early morning sun, so tranquil and serene.
When I arrived in Balamb I travelled by train to Dollet. That place brought back so many memories. It had been freed from the Galbanian army by then by underground resistance groups, it was prospering and I considered staying there. Until I took a walk to the beach.
On the shore the memories of Squall on his SeeD exam mission came flooding back. I saved him from that machine. I was so scared, adrenaline pumping through my veins at the though of loosing him. I took aim and fired as he took that final leap, I held my breath until I saw him stand up and look back.
I walked slowly along the beach remembering the events of the night before. I walked out into the sea up to my ankles, fighting the urge to just swim out and drown, end it all. The water rippled at my ankles as my tears landed in the ocean.
The small hotel I checked into for the night was dark and dingy but thank Hyne, it had a bar! I crawled up to bed at about half past two, barely able to stand.
The next morning I rolled out of the small hard bed. I could have yanked my head off, my hangover was agony! I dressed slowly and made my way to the pier, to hire a boat to take me to the Centra continent.
"Can I help you little lady?" A gruff voice said form behind me.
"Yes I need to buy a speed boat", an item easily afforded with the Gil I had saved form years of missions.
"That'll set you back a bit, u sure a pretty thing like you can afford it?", I scowled and my hand tightened over my 'Save the Queen', I hate being patronised.
"Can you sell me one or not?" I asked snidely, already impatient of the man. I didn't really want t spend that much money but I had no choice, unless I wanted to steal the Ragnarok from the ship port in Esthar..! Now that was an idea!
I could pilot the Ragnarok just as well as Selphie, but I was impossible to get working with out the keys. But it could be hot wired just like a car! Unfortunately the only person I knew that could hotwire a car was slowly loosing his mind in a prison in Esthar. I contemplated the reality of my idea. Getting him from prison would save his life, and provide me with some company. Maybe, just maybe it was possible? After all I was a first class SeeD, who had saved the world from time compression. It shouldn't be too difficult.
"Forget it," I said to the boatman, who was openly staring at my body.
" You sure? We could make some kind of a deal", he jeered at me, winking grotesquely. I pulled out my whip and cracked it loudly on the decking, his stare switched from me to the whip. I felt his fear at the power in my hands.
"I really don't think so", I drawled slowly and walked away, leaving him in shock. I could feel his eyes following me down the pier making sure that I was truly gone.
There was no point in staying in Dollet another night, so I returned to my horrid little hotel and packed my tiny suitcase and boarded yet another train, this one headed for Fisherman's Horizon. I was in nearly empty carriage only myself and a couple near the door. Watching them my loneliness was over whelming, the carriage slowly darkened as the sunset. Thankful for the darkness and inability to see the blissful pair I leant against the windowpane and watched the world go by.
I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I heard was a voice over the intercom telling me that we had arrived in Fisherman's Horizon. As I got off the train an extremely tall black man handed me my luggage. Why had this man I didn't know had my suitcase?
"Hello Instructor. It's been a long time, ya know. I was gonna steal it, but then I realised it was you, ya know."
"Times are tough, hey Rajin" I said finally recognising the face. "I didn't recognise you! Weren't you in Balamb?"
"We were, but we just needed to be somewhere quiet, hassle free, ya know? But times are tough and I haven't been able to get a job, ya know and Fujin is only working at the bar"
"We? Are you here with Fujin?" As if on que, the grey haired woman appeared by his side.
"QUISTIS! WELL?" She answered in her usual way.
"Yes, thank you Fujin. Rajin explained to me why you were here".
Fujin looked up wit obvious pain in her eyes, "SIEFER, WELL?"
"Oh god you don't know?" I hated being the one to have to tell her how he was, and how could she not know? But she deserved to know the truth.
"I.um..Well, lets go somewhere quieter and talk. I don't think your going to like this" She looked at me understandingly and I followed her and Rajin out of the station. We ended up in the bar where Fujin worked in a corner booth. They both sat and waited for me to begin.
"Where to start" I said out loud. "Well I hate to break this to you but Seifer's not doing well. He is deteriorating mentally and physically. He blames himself for what happened, he says that he hears the screams of his victims". I heard Fujin whimper softly and a tear fall down her cheek, Rajin had gone pale; he seemed unable to find the right words.
Clearing her throat she said quietly, " And why have you left garden?" A question I didn't want to answer.
"Personal reasons, I don't want to go into it" They both nodded, seeming to understand. " At the moment I don't know what to do with myself. I was thinking of going to the old orphanage" There was no harm in letting them know.
"So why are you in FH? Ya know?"
I didn't know whether to tell them what I was doing or not. I looked around the shabby bar and looked again at their torn, old clothes and decided to give them the choice.
"I'm going to Esthar to free Seifer and steal the Ragnarok". They both stared at me in shock, not believing that the so-called 'perfect' instructor would even consider such a thing.
"Are you coming then?"
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