A/N I re-read the story and it didn't feel finished. It was just a beginning really. I wrote the story a little before one-o-clock in the morning. Anyway, reading it, I decided to finish it, completely. I will already tell you, this one is not going to be like the first chapter. This was harder to write, but it's not going to be as sentimental.
Standard disclaimers-not mine, theirs, blah, blah, blah.
Chapter Next.
Things Not Said
Robin actually slept that night, all the way through. What was left of it anyways. He was facing a brand new day, one ripe with possibilities. He was actually ready to face it, and his friends. The talk with Starfire helped more than he had realized at the time. A big part of Star that drew everyone to her was her ability to forgive. She didn't have it in her to remain mad at someone for long.
Robin walked into the kitchen, the first time in a week he had done it with everyone else in there. He was a little surprised to see Starfire wasn't there, but right now, with three sets of eyes staring at him, Robin didn't spare any time with idle curiosity. Raven, Beast Boy and Cyborg were all looking at Robin, and Robin was just looking back. No one made any attempt to break the tension, and finally tiring of it, Robin walked over and poured himself a glass of orange juice.
Honestly, it was a lot discerning to have them stare at him, nothing was normal. Beast Boy and Cyborg weren't playing video games or arguing about what to eat. Raven wasn't glaring and telling everyone to be quiet so she could meditate. Things were so different that if felt just wrong. Robin didn't realize he had messed up that badly. I would take a lot to fix this. Thing was, Robin didn't know where to begin. It was a lot easier last night on the roof with Starfire.
Robin smile a little. He now knew where to start.
"Hey, where's Starfire? She's usually up right about now." That ought to get them talking.
Raven was the one who answered. They were all still looking at him though. "She is still in her room. When I went to wake her up for our morning meditations, Starfire told me that she would not be participating this morning because she was tired since she was up late last night. When I asked her why she was up so late she just told me go away, she wanted sleep. That was twenty-minutes ago. Do you know why she was up late last night?"
Bingo, there was the opening Robin needed. Still it would be difficult going. He was thankful, however, that Raven was empathic. At least she could tell he needed some help with this. So taking a deep breath, Robin gathered up all his courage. Wow, this was hard.
"Yes, I do. She was with me."
No one showed any surprise at his answer. He and Starfire usually got along the best. Robin's relationship with her was different than his relationship with everyone else. No one really thought anything of it, but they did know if anyone could get to Robin, it was Star.
Until right that moment, the other Titans were worried about Robin. He was still their friend, but he had withdrawn into himself so much, even before Red X, and after, well this just could not be healthy. Robin never came out of his room, he never spoke with anyone. Luckily there wasn't any trouble in the city.
"So, have anything interesting to say to one another?" Cyborg was the one to ask. The tension in the air was lessening, but it wasn't gone. Right here, right now, the air needed to be cleared. And as much as it was going to pain everyone, things were probably going to be kind of emotional. Raven didn't do emotions of any kind, Cyborg was a typical guy in that he though emotions other than maybe anger belonged to girls. And Beast Boy well, he just covered everything with some lame joke.
"Yeah. Um, we spoke about many things." Robin's words were hesitant. It was hard trying to explain to one's friend how much of a monumental jackass one was, and why.
Apparently Raven got fed up with all the side-stepping and forced pleasantries. She looked at Robin, straight in the eyes.
"Get on with it. Say it. Once you start, the rest will come. But Robin. You have to be the one to make the first move."
"Okay. Here goes. I was wrong." Small interruption here. Anyone who knows Robin knows he hates to be wrong, much less admit it. This was a large, huge, major step forward.
"I know that. I know what I did was wrong. In doing it, I became the very person we were fighting. I was doing the very things we worked so hard to prevent from happening. It's just I can't stand the thought that I could be like Slade. I thought maybe if I could somehow stop him…" Robin had to stop and gather his thoughts now. He continued now, slowly, thinking each word through. "…if I could stop him, I would be able to convince myself that I was nothing like him. I stopped him, if I was really like him, I would not."
Robin stopped, then took a deep breath. They were looking at him. Patiently waiting for him to continue. Of course they weren't going to help him with this. This was his thing and he had to be the one to fix it. Suddenly, Robin knew what he needed to say, he needed to keep it simple. He needed to get to the point, there was no use in trying to explain what was going on in his head, he couldn't even explain that one to himself. What his friends needed was not an explanation, he already did that for Starfire. These guys just needed something else.
"I'm sorry. I know it's not much, but right now, that's all I have." Robin looked down into his glass. "I'm sorry for lying to you guys, I'm sorry for pushing you guys out of my life, I'm sorry for stealing, I'm…just…sorry." Okay, honestly, that kind of hurt. Robin didn't think he ever apologized for anything that much in his life. Granted, he never screwed up as monumentally either. But hey, right now, Robin wasn't totally above groveling.
Cyborg was the first one to speak. He stood up and walked around the table, not quite standing next to Robin.
"Apology accepted. But..." Robin worked hard not to cringe at those words. He hated those words. "…it's going to take a while for things to get back to how they used to be. You know that right?"
Robin sighed and smiled a little sadly. Shaking his head slightly, Robin looked at Cyborg, Raven and Beast Boy all in turn.
"Guys, things are never going to be the way they used to be. Too many things have happened. But that's alright. Things don't need to be the way they were before. They're not meant to go back to before. I was told that the only way to grow is to undergo tests. Our friendship has undergone lots of tests, this may be bigger, but, I have a feeling we'll pull through."
"What about when Slade shows up again?"
Robin noticed that Beast Boy said 'when' not 'if'. There was every chance in the world that Slade would be back.
"Well, I won't make any promises I am not prepared to keep. I will promise you that I won't go totally berserker on you, and I will try not to be as obsessive. And I can and will promise you that I won't do it with out you guys again. We are a team. Red X is gone for good."
They all nodded, but no one said anything. Sometimes, it what a person doesn't say that tells the most. They all went back to eating their breakfast, and this time Beast Boy and Cyborg argued about the merits of tofu versus meat. raven just went back to her herbal tea, but things did seem lighter.
Starfire walked in, not looking tired in the least, and went to the fridge to pour herself something to drink. She sat down next to Robin and gave everyone a beauteous smile.
"Good morning, friends. Is everyone faring well?"
"Yeah, Star. Everyone is doing great. It is a brand new day after all."
She smiled and returned to her breakfast. Afterwards she and Raven went to meditate, and Cyborg and Beast Boy went to play a video game. Robin was just going to go back to his room when Beast Boy stopped him.
"Dude, wanna play?"
"Sure." Cyborg scooted over, allowing Robin a spot in the center of the couch.
Sometimes it was the things not said.
In was late in the afternoon when the alarm sounded. It surprised everyone because it was the first time in almost a week since it happened. They all got up and went to the monitor to see what was happening and where.
"Someone is robbing the bank." Raven was the one who said this, her voice emotionless. There was tension in the air, but it was different than before. This was anticipation. Finally, some bad guy butt to kick. However, no one moved after the announcement. They all seemed to be waiting for something. Robin looked at everyone, wondering what was going on. They were all surrounding him, standing on either side, just looking at him. It wasn't until Starfire put her hand on his shoulder that he realized what it was. That last bit of worry, fear even, that he didn't realize was still in him, left. It disappeared. He knew what they were waiting for.
"Titans, GO!!"
Sometimes, it's the things they don't say. Things may not be like they were before, but they wouldn't be that different.
A/N Okay, this was hard to write. I had no idea how to portray what was happening with everyone. I did know how I wanted it to go, but, well, whoever read it, just tell me what you think. I'm not too confident about this. However, I couldn't fix it, because every time I tried, it turned out even funkier than the original. Anyway, thanks for reading it. Please review.
A/N Okay, this is the different, vamped up chapter. I only added a small amount, but after I did, the chapter felt better. So if you read the original, I suggest you re-read it. This one is so much better. Thanks.
