disclaimer: they don't belong to me.
Ham
and his dad walked back to supper together. "..and how did
English class go?" Steven asked toward the end of an itemized
check on Hamilton's day.
"OK I guess."
His
dad's face twitched. Mom and dad had made jokes for years about
lumpen inarticulate teenagers, and now, any time he took refuge in
monosyllables, he could see Dad hating it. "I sat in on some of
Mr Finn's classes during his probationary period" the Dean
recalled. "He gave a series of lectures on the Romantic poets
that was very.." Steven paused, looking for the right
word.
"Intense?" Ham offered.
"Intense.
Yes, that is a good word."
A good word. Ham glowed. Finn
told him once that he was more his father's son than his mother's.
After a lot of thought Hamilton took that to mean that Finn was
concerned about being seen to suck up to the Dean's son.
Clearly,
his dad was still brooding about Hamilton's English. "Mr Finn is
key" Ham heard him mutter.
Huh. Like Hamilton couldn't
string a sentence together.
"What novels are you
studying?"
Didn't Dad know? It must be on the paperwork
someplace. Ham shrugged. English results for the school were good,
and the Dean didn't bother Finn much. He hassled heads of lower
performing departments. Mom was the one who related to the staff as
an equal. The Dean's position made it seem unethical for him to press
Hamilton's teachers. He had said lately he thought his hands-off
policy had been over compensating.
"Great
Expectations."
"Ah. The burdens one generation
places on its successor. Pip and Estella can try to make a new future
but all their aspirations and skills were given them by Miss Havisham
and the convict - the very people they are trying to move beyond. The
past moulds and shapes the future." Steven cleared his throat,
embarrassed. "I'm sorry. That was dogmatic. There are other
readings of the text."
Hamilton looked at him doubtfully.
Will had made a big speech saying the book was all about class and
money. Finn had endorsed Will. "I hate Dickens."
Steven
sighed. By this, he was definitely thinking the hands-off policy had
been, yeah, over compensating. "Why?"
"Finn
keeps saying His Characters Are Wonderful." Hamilton looked
questioningly at his father, who nodded. "They're not. They're
two dimensional. He gives, like, great visuals, but the walk ons are
too clockwork. He gives the minor players some tick; a stutter, or
ugly, or obsessive hating men-"
"Miss Havisham"
Steven chipped in, pleased he saw where that one came from.
Jake
had talked about Miss Havisham and Estella in class. "Yeah. And
then he repeats the tick. It's all externals. That's not
character."
"He differentiates his characters purely
by tics or mannerisms, you're saying" the Dean translated.
"You
see them from the outside all the way."
"But in real
life, all you will ever see is the outsides of people" Steven
pointed out reasonably. "There is no way on earth you can tell
what others are thinking or feeling."
Hamilton scowled.
"You should ask them."
"It's entirely possible
they'll lie to you, for any number of reasons." He added in a
fairminded tone "Some of them altruistic reasons."
Hamilton
was scowling at the thought of his last few days. He had been trying
to scam his way through this term without making waves. He had been
reading peoples' external signals. He should ask the things he needed
to know. Even liars would have to tell him something. What he needed
were the right questions.
"You think Dickens characters
are too consistent when they repeat the same behavior without
modification."
"Real people change" Hamilton
said confidently.
"Adolescents change. With adults, what
you see is very much what you get."
Now that they were
talking to each other more, Ham sometimes felt sorry for his Dad,
although nothing he could see in his life warranted this gloom.
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Moonlight,
from the open, uncurtained window, dimly lit Hamilton's room. He
stared at the ceiling. He'd just woken from a dream..
Hamilton
looked the motel room over while Jake locked the door behind them.
"Well this is nice" he said sarcastically, flopping on the
bed.
"We need to keep a low profile." Jake measured
the room too. "Look, a radio."
The radio needed to
be fed coins to work. How crap was this place? Jake dug some loose
change out of his jeans. Abba began to play. Dream-Hamilton thought -
That's a good sign.
A wicked glint in his eye, Jake pulled
Hamilton up and made him dance. "Running away together, hiding
from every stranger-" he sang along.
Ham couldn't stop
laughing.
..Awake, Ham lay frozen. Had that happened? Or
did he want it to happen? (He couldn't work out which would be
worse.) There was a lot of ceiling staring material here. He ran
through the dream images, over and over, frantically. Memory or
dream, it looked the same inside his head. This was horrible.
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:
He
ran into Will early in the morning. It figured that Will would be a
heavy user of the library stacks next to the common room.
"Hey"
said Will.
Ham nodded and dropped his arm to carry his bundle
of books loosely at his side, not clutched in front of him. Too late.
Will wasn't likely to ignore books. "What are
those?"
"Jungian dream analysis."
Will
looked interested. "You're dreaming."
Backing away,
Ham shrugged. He didn't want to get into it.
Will fell into
step beside him. "Maybe they're memories."
"And
maybe not." Ham had found some good news, browsing in the
stacks. "Dream imagery isn't straightforward. Things mean the
opposite-" He didn't want to give Will the specifics. "It's
symbolism, okay?"
"Depends how linear it was. If
its Scout getting his tongue pierced and forming a Marilyn Manson
tribute band, uh.. how surreal was this dream?"
Ham
thought about the motel room. "Very surreal."
Will
looked at him curiously, but didn't ask.
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