AN Can't believe it's been three months since I updated. But I wanted to watch the eps before writing more and just have not had time. Darn life. Oh well. Here's more. And a new reader. Thanks Sharron for checking out all me stories.
Willow had voiced her concerns about The Initiative to Buffy. It was now up to her best friend to make up her own mind. But she missed spending time with her bestest friend. Ever since Riley and her had started dating there had been so little time spent with the core scoobies.
And that meant that the witch had not had time to discuss things that were going on with her. Like the fact that I might just be, no not might, am attracted to Tara. Hell, none of my friends even know about her. Am I ashamed of her? Or am I ashamed of the fact that I'm attracted to a woman in general.
The redhead sighed. It would be so nice if she could have her best friend to talk to. And that might just happen tonight. After all, the gang was supposed to meet at The Bronze. And that was exciting. Again, way too long.
With all the conflicting emotions, she didn't hear the blond walk up to. Tara stood there tentatively not wanting to disturb the redhead. She looks so beautiful. And she looks so serious. I wonder what is going on in her mind. Is she thinking about me? No. She has to be thinking about her friends. Why would she be so puzzled if she were thinking about me. We are just friends.
Green eyes suddenly met with blue ones. And that brought a smile to both witches' faces. Willow indicated that Tara should sit and join her. This is the one thing that Willow had been looking forward to all day. Even the thing at The Bronze with her friends seemed to pale in comparison.
"It's a Daizon crystal." Tara smiles shyly as she shows it to the redhead.
"Where'd you get it?" Willow asks with a little bit of awe. "I've been looking for my whole life. Well, since June." A sly smile is on her face.
"I found it in the attic. I think it was my grandmother's." The blond holds it out even more for the redhead. "I want you to have it." Please goddess let her take it. She has more power and can do more good with it then I could ever.
The redhead is taken aback. She'd be willing to give me something so special and that probably has passed down from generation to generation. That's so amazing. But I can't. Not yet. We don't really know each other that well. Even though I'm having these pleasant feelings for her. "I couldn't. I mean. That's so sweet. But it's a family heirloom." She takes in the very hurt look on the blond. "But if you wanted to do a spell with it, I wouldn't turn you down."
With this, the blond witch brightens considerable. Would it be too much to ask for tonight? She's probably got plans. But I can't let this opportunity pass by. "Maybe tonight, if you're not busy." Of course she's busy. She's like the coolest person I've ever met. And one of the most beautiful woman in the world.
"Yeah, well tonight." Goddess, why do I have to have plans. I could so be spending them with this woman before me. Finally really getting to know her. "It's just that I have plans. With a specific crowd that you might feel out of place with."
I was right. She does have other plans. Stupid girl. But maybe another time. "Maybe another time?" There is hope in the blond witch's voice.
"Absolutely." Those green eyes sparkle with anticipation. "We will definitely get together another time." The redhead sighs as she notices the time. "I hate to leave cause I really do want to spend time with you. But I have class."
"That's all right." Tara stands up quickly. "I have class as well. But we'll talk soon." Desperate much?
"Wouldn't have it any other way." Willow takes her hand and gives it a gentle squeeze. "I'll see you later." She sighs as she walks away. Wish it were really soon.
Didn't think it would be this soon. Willow stands outside Tara's door. She knocks tentatively even though she has already left a message with the blond witch.
"Willow." There is an instant smile on the blond as she sees who is standing outside her door. "I just got your message. I was just about to call you." She indicates that The redhead should come in. Goddess please stay.
Willow smiles. "Sorry it's so late. But a funny thing happened. My plans sorta fell through when one of my friends went off to be with other friends she hangs out with. Irony is kinda ironic that way." Or maybe it was fate. Maybe the something is telling me this is were I should be.
"That's all right." Tara is instantly happy. It doesn't matter that she is her second choice. Will the blond ever know that she was actually her first.
"Maybe we could try out the crystal. I mean, if you are up for it and all." Willow smiles big. Don't want to push. But I just want to be with her as much as possible in any way possible. Friends is good. But I wish it might be more.
"I'd like that." Tara quickly went to her dresser and pulled out the object in question. "There are a few, if you don't mind. Some might take awhile if that's all right."
"I have all the time in the world for you." Again, the redhead is beaming. I might get to spend the night. In a friend kinda way. But coolies. This is my chance to really get to know her. Cause that's what I really want.
The rest of the night went in a quick blur. The two did spell upon spell. But the last was the most memorable. It was this spell to see how compatible you are with the one that you are performing your spells with. As it turned out, the two were almost identical. And it left them with a very pleasant feeling indeed. As the night came to a end that neither one of them wanted, Tara had to try again.
"I want you to have this." There was a pleading in Tara's eyes. If she knew that I was going to be a demon and that this could help stop me when I do, she would take it in an instant.
"Tara, it's still really nice and sweet." Willow looked into those blue eyes. Pleading. Does she want this as a gift of friendship? Or is there something more to it. And should I take it cause if truth be told I'd love to have anything of hers. Just to remember her by.
"Please." Tara handed the crystal to Willow. "I want you to have it. I think that you can do more with it. And besides, if you want to do any more spells with it, we can together."
"Darn straight." Willow smiled. "I can't wait to do more spells. I had so much fun." The redhead took the blond's hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. Not the kiss that I want to give her but it'll do. Goddess! I want to kiss those very soft lips. Damn! Get under control. She's just a friend.
"I'll talk with you later." Tara watched as Willow left her alone. She sighed heavily. Only when you are around do I have any bit of happiness in my life. I wish we could never be apart.
Willow was cursing herself. With so much going on with The Initiative and with Buffy trying to get killed and them now in hiding, she hadn't had a chance to really talk to Tara. And that was irritating her to no end. Not to mention the whole demon on the loose.
So where does she go. Tara's. And it must look like I only come here when I want to do a spell. And that's definitely not the case. I want so much more from Tara. Maybe more than she is capable of giving to me.
The redhead took a deep breath as she knocked on the door. There was Tara. Goddess she looks even more beautiful then the last time I saw her. And that scent. Get a grip Rosenberg. There's a demon out there running around. Gotta focus.
"Hey." Tara said as she let the redhead in. Goddess, she's really here again. And I thought she'd found out about me. Or she'd just realized the loser that I am and wanted nothing more to do with me. But she's here.
"Hey." Willow was a little breathless. But it was only partly because of the big bad that was happening. The other part was simply being so close to the blond. "I hope that you don't think I come here just to do a spell."
"I know that. But you do want to do a spell." Tara smiled brightly. So what. She's here. And that's what's important.
"Yeah, I wouldn't if it weren't real important." I've got to make her understand. There are circumstances this time. "You see there's this..."
But before she could finish, Tara silenced her. "I don't mind. So, what did you have in mind?"
"Well, for this spell we'd need to call on the Goddess Thespia." Willow took in the look on the blond's face.
"Are you sure we're ready for this?" Goddess, what if she means to do a locator spell. One of the demon variety. I can't let her find out that I'm a demon.
"This, it's beneath us." Why wouldn't she want to do this. I mean, we can handle almost anything together. They got the spell ready and they sat across from each other.
"How exactly does it work?" Gotta stall. Can't let her do the spell. Gotta do something.
"Well, when the two portions of the mixture recombine they glow where the demons are. Different colors for different kinds of demons." This should be so cool. And it's with Tara. Yay!
Tara held out her hand and took her half of the mixture. Willow began the spell, closing her eyes. As she finished, Tara placed her half under the bed. Hope she didn't see that.
Willow opened her eyes. Can't believe that didn't work. Now what the hecatae are we going to do? "Sorry it didn't work. Was it really important?"
The redhead shrugged. "Relatively. But I'll find something else. We always seem to find some way to win in the end."
Tara sat giving her a puzzled look. "You sound like you are in this big battle."
"I am." Willow shrugged. "Or at least my friend Buffy is. And I just do what I can to help when I can. Cause again nothing special here. Just doing what I can do to try and make a difference." I should have told her all of this a long time ago. She deserves to know the truth.
"Wow. That's well..." How can I say anything. She fights my kind. Or at least when I turn into the demon like I'm supposed to. She'll be forced to kill me. Oh goddess. That can't happen. I already care too much for her.
"I know. It's a lot to take in." Willow sighed. "And I hope it's not too scary. I remember what it was like when I first found out that demons are real. It was pretty darn scary." I almost passed out. But I knew even back then that I wanted to fight the bad guys. And still do. But I also want a normal life. And maybe then this can lead to something more.
"I think I can handle it." Tara tried to keep up her smile. But the thought of Willow finding out about herself one day was a lot to hide. And painful. "It'll just take me a bit to get used to it. And besides, I have you to show me how to protect myself."
Willow smiled big. "You so know it." I'd like to show you some other things as well. That's for darn sure. "And we can continue to help each other grow with the magicks. I can't wait till we do our next spell, even if it kinda sucks like this one."
"Me too." Their hands met again just as Willow walked out the door. And I can't wait till that touch means more. Cause I think we both want it to.